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Like the perfect ending,
It won't be long,
Till everything I've ruined has seen me gone,
In time, I pray you'll forgive,
Now you know the man I am,
Can you forgive me?

I fall,
Like the sands of time,
Like some broken rhyme,
At feet no longer there.

If only I could call the rain to melt and wash away the pain you feel
I would
You gave yourself to me and showed me what the truth could be
For that, I say thank you
This was my life
It never made much sense to me...

With every lie that I lived,
Part of me would fade,
Into this empty shadow I've become,
And now I feel so numb,
I no longer know myself,
But I still know you.

I call,
And there is no reply,
Like some phantom cry,
On ears too far away,

I close my eyes and watch as my life passes by,
The only thing I see is you,
For all the times you walked the line for me and standing by my side,
I say thank you,
Here lies my life,
It never felt that real to me.

You'll always mean so much to me,
And there's no reply,
And there's no reply,
You'll never know how much you meant to me,
And there's no reply,
And there's no reply,
You'll never know how much you meant to me.

If only I could call the rain to melt and wash away the pain you feel.
I would.
You gave yourself to me and showed me what the truth could be.
For that, I say thank you.
This was my life.
It never made much sense to me...

I close my eyes and watch as my life passes by,
The only thing I see is you,
For all the times you walked the line for me and standing by my side,
I say thank you,
You in my life,
It all meant so much more to be.

-- Yoko Kanno -- Cowboy Bebop: Tengoku no Tobira O.S.T.

Secret

Watch the sunrise
Say your goodbyes
Off we go
Some conversation
No contemplation
Hit the road

Car overheats
Jump out of my seat
On the side of the highway baby
Our road is long
Your hold is strong
Please don’t ever let go oh no

I know I don’t know you
But I want you so bad
Everyone has a secret
But can they keep it
Oh no they can’t

Driving fast now
Don’t think I know how to go slow
Where you at now
I feel around
There you are

Cool these engines
Calm these jets
I ask you how hot can it get
And as you wipe of beads of sweat
Slowly you say "i’m not there yet!"

-- Maroon 5 -- Songs About Jane

One of the best things about summer....

STRAWBERRIES!!! mmmmm..... my piggie agrees with glee ^_^

Peet's

I went to Peet's earlier to get my quad shot fat free latte, and I discovered a new display thing they put in the store. A Polaroid, a sharpie, and a cup full of thumb tacks. I couldn't resist.... hahaha... I took a picture of myself and labled it... "Put the caffiene I.V. back in!"..... If you wanna see it, add to it, it's at the Peet's on Steven's Creek in Cupertino.

what it is

I think I know what it is that is making me so flipping happy this past week. I think I feel loved. Having somebody tell me he cares about me makes the difference ^_^

do you ever...

Do you ever wake up in the morning with a smile on your face, knowing it was one of the best and vivid dreams you have ever had. 10 second passes, and you think to yourself... omg you're the most horrible person in the world... then go... I don't really care. haha.... yeah.... That alone put me in a really good mood this morning.

Today I will be productive, purely because I'm in a good mood and want to make changes. Last weekend I messed up my room again by building a new computer for my parents. Now that is done, and I don't have any more midterms to study for, I will get some work done. Getting my room back into shape will be good. I am going to go watch MI3 tonight, I can't wait. For the past week I stayed out late almost every night. Just hanging out and talking to my friends. It feels really good to just talk. I have to say last night I had the best time. Just eat, talk, and not playing any more mind games.

Best dream ever....

Oh yeah it was.... *grin*