ticketed....

I friggin got a moving violation today on my way home. wtf. first ticket ever... I've been driving for how long? like 9 years... friggin pedestrians.... gah!

Feeling

I woke up with the feeling that I should be somewhere, doing something important. I double checked... and no not really. I don't work for another hour, and nobody really needs me anywhere. So maybe the place is here, and the whole... keep working on my room thing is the thing. Who the hell knows. lol. Maybe I'm turning a little too philosophical for my own good. I suppose this is good practice. I do have to do a lot of writing once school starts. Which reminds me, I should turn in my new availability today...

Look me in the eyes and tell me

I've stopped looking into peoples eyes when I talk to them. I remember doing that when I'm shameful of something. So what is it now? There must be something I'm doing that I'm not entirely comfortable with. It's weird to pick up a physical cue from myself and yet not knowing what prompted it. jeez... what a mess.

the 80's called....

.... and they want their t-shirt back....


I just stood up from my chair to get ready to sleep. I looked into the mirror and this is what I see: me, in a black oversized Journey concert t-shirt, with glasses, and hair pulled back.... hum.... that dated me a little didn't it.... halfly expected Adam Sandler (a la Wedding Singer) to come in and swoop me away.... great.

strange

I have this obsession with wanting to type up everything I read. I never really have enough time to do that..... so I started yet another blog page... see how long I can last. The thing about it is... it forces me to actually read the work... word by word. I'm starting with The Decameron.... just because it's organized nicely, and I'm always interested in Medieval works.

macchiato lit

browse

I've been attempting to clean my room lately. I finally got around to open up a few boxes and check out what I've got. What I ended up finding are, among many other things, a few journals I've started. They go for a few pages, usually in the beginning of the year... then doesn't go anywhere. Every single one of them starts with either a resolution or some fundamental awakening. I have a tendancy to trail off. I noticed that with a couple of my blogs also. It's the same thing. I think this is the only blog I have ever started that lasted a whole year. No joke. I'm finally sticking with something? or maybe I'm just more grounded. Hard to say. There are still so many things I'm doing that are wrong. But here I am.... still keep on ranting at the same place.... and there's actually some sort of difference to be felt on this. I know I'm not very well versed at 1:15 am.... but that's as much as I can get out while I'm listening to another 1k songs I found on my laptop. btw... my laptop is not sounding good... I had to back up my data before my baby craps out on me. I ended up finding a whole bunch of pictures and 1k songs I have on here. Good stuff....

private

Sometimes.... I wish I was living on my own is all....