I'm finally done with all the work I can do for this quarter... I hope it won't turn out to be too bad. *sigh* I hate it when I'm so uncertain about my grades. Anyway, it's 3:30 am, I need to be out of the house by 7... that's going to give me about 2.5 hours of sleep before I have to get up, provided I go pass out now. But here's the thing, I don't exactly feel like it, and I'm just a little depress.
I got a pretty vicious text tonight. I know I deserve part of it, but some of it I seriously don't. If I were to pressure him to 'hang out', he would know it. All I wanted was some actual face time to clear up the air. Now he's pissed at me because I realize he doesn't really have anything/anyone else to lash out on. So there I was, sitting there in the bowling alley, a little stunned, because he can't take a joke. It's amazing that the actual advance part doesn't get him, it was the joke part. How the hell should I know that my girl friend was in a bad mood, and when I asked her to hit him she put all her weight behind her instead of just a playful punch? I asked her to do it because he never called to tell me that in fact he wasn't going to come over after he said he was. What's wrong with wanting to see him for a bit before I fly halfway around the world? I don't have that many friends afterall. He was the only one I wasn't going to see at bowling tonight.
He doesn't realize what he had just done. I think I might be crying myself to sleep, even though he doesn't deserve my attention. That is how absurd it can get when I like somebody that much. I need to be done with him on that level. I just need to.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Through With You
Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it
And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you
And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'm through with you
-- Maroon 5 -- Songs About Jane
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it
And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you
And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'm through with you
-- Maroon 5 -- Songs About Jane
For now
I could have sworn somebody was in tears this morning over the final.... friggin eh.... good thing I'm a bullshitter extraordinaire
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Ordinary People
Baby, It's me... Maybe I bore you
No, No it's my fault cause I can't afford you
[Verse 1]
Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday
[Bridge]
I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow
[Chorus]
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
[Verse 2]
This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
We head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way
[Bridge]
I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel just like walking away
But as our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay
[Chorus]
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
[Verse 3]
Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe you'll never find
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
You never know baby youuuu and I
[Chorus]
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
-- John Legend - Get Lifted
No, No it's my fault cause I can't afford you
[Verse 1]
Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday
[Bridge]
I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow
[Chorus]
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
[Verse 2]
This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
We head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way
[Bridge]
I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel just like walking away
But as our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay
[Chorus]
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
[Verse 3]
Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe you'll never find
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
You never know baby youuuu and I
[Chorus]
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
-- John Legend - Get Lifted
Survey thing...
You wake up hungover, what do you do?
-- I never get hangovers, never. But then again I'm not oppose to some menudo.
You go to Taco Bell, what do you order?
-- crunch wrap supreme with fire sauce
You spontaneously decide to take a road trip where do you go?
-- vegas baby, vegas.
You are reading on the toilet, what book/magazine is it?
-- WSJ/New Yorker/The Economist.... I'm not being a snob... go check my bathroom.
You dress up for halloween, what superhero are you?
-- the bowler? hahaha.... makes me want to watch mystery men
You sign on to myspace, what do you do first?
-- check comments/messages/blogs
You look in the mirror, how are you lookin these days?
-- friggin pale... that's what I get for sleeping only 2 hours at a time
You're making out and put on a record, whats your go to record?
-- The Eagles
You're watching Star Wars, do you ever root for the empire?
-- Never... they're all a bunch of assholes... oh wait.. that's Spaceballs... uh... HAN SHOT FIRST! *turns and run*
You're in the middle of a circle pit and you drop your cell phone next to the burliest dude with his shirt off doing the fat guy mosh, what do you do?
-- Use my ninja slithering skills to retrieve my lifeline
You are grillin in the backyard, what kind of sauce do you use?
-- Something I whipped up the night before containing very high alcohol content.
You go to atlantic city for the weekend, wheres the first spot you hit?
-- Ceasars Palace
You're at the bar, and they are out of your regular beverage, what do you drink next?
-- If I'm there for the beer, then it's probably beer all the way... I mean pitchers of it. Else in this order when available: Cosmo, margarita, margarita... margarita... something something.... some shooters.... AMF... *plop*
You meet John Leguizamo, and he's wearing the fat clown costume from spawn, do you fight him?
-- Oh hell no, I'll probably give him a kiss.
You show up to court for a misdemeanor and it turns out to be night-court (the TV show), what crazy circumstance will set you free?
-- Come on now... that's a easy one... it'll have something to do with Dan ;P
You are raising money for an orphanage and somebody steals it, do you call the A-team, or Macguyver?
-- THE A-TEAM! geez... i pity da fool who stole it
Your back is totally sunburned and you have no aloe, how do you sleep?
-- take my slave boy out of the closet, hand him a bottle of body oil, and have him reapply all night long
You are in a convertable at a red light, and all the sudden a Saab full of German bikini models rolls up next to you and is blasting Du-Hast, what do you say to them?
-- hahaha... Du-Hast... chances are we're playing the same song
You go to an asian resturant, what do you order?
-- you do not want to get me started...
You are going to eat a cheese steak, where do you go?
-- uh.. philly
You wake up and you are living in the video game Mike Tyson's punch out, whitch boxer are you facing?
-- uh no
The Smiths are playing Cure songs, and the Cure are Playing Smiths songs at opposite venues the same night, which band do you go to see?
-- don't much care
Your mom gives you a hundred dollar grocery store card, what do you spend it on?
-- refer to my last trader joe's reciept
Michael Jackson shows up at your next birthday party, do you welcome him in?
-- hellz yeah... right after I hide the kiddies
You are drinking a Rolling Rock beer, cause it's the only beer left, and somebody that you were going to make out with makes fun of you for it, what do you do?
-- Tell him it tastes different post consumption and offer a taste
Your girlfriend gets kidnapped by the Shadows, and you are going to save her Double Dragon style, who's your other dragon?
-- yeah, not worth my time
You wake up to find Bret Michaels from Poison in bed with you wearing a leather thong, how do you get him outta the house, and more importantly how do you cover that shit up?
-- How exactly do you cover that shit up anyway, we are talking about Bret Michaels.
You are on an old fashioned boat, would you rather have Captain Hook, Captain Ahab, or Captain Ron?
-- hahaha... Captain Ron fo sho!
The Rolling Stones are eating french fries at Fudruckers and you are getting them condiments, what condiments do you get them?
-- tobasco
Godzilla and Mothra are hanging out at a bar, when Chuck Norris and Clint Eastwood walk in and call them out, who's side do you take?
-- That's a no-brainer... nobody touches Chuck Norris, no one.
-- I never get hangovers, never. But then again I'm not oppose to some menudo.
You go to Taco Bell, what do you order?
-- crunch wrap supreme with fire sauce
You spontaneously decide to take a road trip where do you go?
-- vegas baby, vegas.
You are reading on the toilet, what book/magazine is it?
-- WSJ/New Yorker/The Economist.... I'm not being a snob... go check my bathroom.
You dress up for halloween, what superhero are you?
-- the bowler? hahaha.... makes me want to watch mystery men
You sign on to myspace, what do you do first?
-- check comments/messages/blogs
You look in the mirror, how are you lookin these days?
-- friggin pale... that's what I get for sleeping only 2 hours at a time
You're making out and put on a record, whats your go to record?
-- The Eagles
You're watching Star Wars, do you ever root for the empire?
-- Never... they're all a bunch of assholes... oh wait.. that's Spaceballs... uh... HAN SHOT FIRST! *turns and run*
You're in the middle of a circle pit and you drop your cell phone next to the burliest dude with his shirt off doing the fat guy mosh, what do you do?
-- Use my ninja slithering skills to retrieve my lifeline
You are grillin in the backyard, what kind of sauce do you use?
-- Something I whipped up the night before containing very high alcohol content.
You go to atlantic city for the weekend, wheres the first spot you hit?
-- Ceasars Palace
You're at the bar, and they are out of your regular beverage, what do you drink next?
-- If I'm there for the beer, then it's probably beer all the way... I mean pitchers of it. Else in this order when available: Cosmo, margarita, margarita... margarita... something something.... some shooters.... AMF... *plop*
You meet John Leguizamo, and he's wearing the fat clown costume from spawn, do you fight him?
-- Oh hell no, I'll probably give him a kiss.
You show up to court for a misdemeanor and it turns out to be night-court (the TV show), what crazy circumstance will set you free?
-- Come on now... that's a easy one... it'll have something to do with Dan ;P
You are raising money for an orphanage and somebody steals it, do you call the A-team, or Macguyver?
-- THE A-TEAM! geez... i pity da fool who stole it
Your back is totally sunburned and you have no aloe, how do you sleep?
-- take my slave boy out of the closet, hand him a bottle of body oil, and have him reapply all night long
You are in a convertable at a red light, and all the sudden a Saab full of German bikini models rolls up next to you and is blasting Du-Hast, what do you say to them?
-- hahaha... Du-Hast... chances are we're playing the same song
You go to an asian resturant, what do you order?
-- you do not want to get me started...
You are going to eat a cheese steak, where do you go?
-- uh.. philly
You wake up and you are living in the video game Mike Tyson's punch out, whitch boxer are you facing?
-- uh no
The Smiths are playing Cure songs, and the Cure are Playing Smiths songs at opposite venues the same night, which band do you go to see?
-- don't much care
Your mom gives you a hundred dollar grocery store card, what do you spend it on?
-- refer to my last trader joe's reciept
Michael Jackson shows up at your next birthday party, do you welcome him in?
-- hellz yeah... right after I hide the kiddies
You are drinking a Rolling Rock beer, cause it's the only beer left, and somebody that you were going to make out with makes fun of you for it, what do you do?
-- Tell him it tastes different post consumption and offer a taste
Your girlfriend gets kidnapped by the Shadows, and you are going to save her Double Dragon style, who's your other dragon?
-- yeah, not worth my time
You wake up to find Bret Michaels from Poison in bed with you wearing a leather thong, how do you get him outta the house, and more importantly how do you cover that shit up?
-- How exactly do you cover that shit up anyway, we are talking about Bret Michaels.
You are on an old fashioned boat, would you rather have Captain Hook, Captain Ahab, or Captain Ron?
-- hahaha... Captain Ron fo sho!
The Rolling Stones are eating french fries at Fudruckers and you are getting them condiments, what condiments do you get them?
-- tobasco
Godzilla and Mothra are hanging out at a bar, when Chuck Norris and Clint Eastwood walk in and call them out, who's side do you take?
-- That's a no-brainer... nobody touches Chuck Norris, no one.
Monday, March 27, 2006
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i have concluded just now that using the cheat as my icon is more suitable then i thought. i am in fact technically oriented, loves techno music, throws light switch raves, full of surprises, short, yellow, and nobody can understand a word i say...
... and nobody cares
... and nobody cares
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