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Yes, it's a Glock 9mm... but you probably already know that

but you weren't there....

So I was checking out my unofficial transcript this morning...

friday the 13th

A day like any others. I decided to give my knees a rest today. I think after yesterdays more successful run I deserved it.

I walked outside from work today a dusk. The sky was laden with a thick, dark cloud. Fortunately it wasn't from the smoke of a nearby fire, it was a larger fire in a forested area further south. It just looked so ominous. A red that resembled dried blood. The moon was red when I came home. In fact I am looking right at it. More clear now that the smoke drifted away. The first word that came to mind was "sinister".

A lady wearing dark scrubs with some frilly pattern interrupted my reading during work today to ask me who sang "lollipop"... Pardon? I reacted. I had no idea what she was talking about. You know, that song that has been playing on the radio? What about 3-6 Mafia (I have no idea if that is how you spell it, considering hip hop today...). Well ma'am I have heard of them, I'm not sure if that is the artist for that particular song... but I'm sure you can find them in the R&B aisle... What about Danity Kane? (ah, a bulb went off... I have no idea about their music but I have in fact heard of them) Yeah they should be down at R&B as well. Mind you, prior to her interruption I was happily flipping through David Saderis's latest book. If you haven't heard of him, I strongly suggest his works both in print and radio. A gentleman who I presume was her husband proceeded to ask a colleague of my of a darker skin tone about the song, of which she retorted by asking which version. Lil Wayne, she said, would be the artist they seek. Did I mention the couple was white? I know I am being stereotypical here, but these are the things I observe. I suppose I can't judge a book by its cover, and that goes the same for others of me.

I have been a bit melancholy today. Although I have not developed a taste for Sunday morning news shows, I do appreciate the works of Tim Russert. He will be sorely missed.

while I was waiting for people to show up....

The whole vacation thing doesn't really suit me. Not at first at the very least. I ran out of housework very quickly. My room I ridiculously organized. Well not in the sense that it's got a crazy organizational scheme, it's just that it has not been this organized since I moved back. So that is done with and I am currently trying to get the whole physical fitness thing going. I can attest to skipping more then 3 days for any reason is not good enough of a reason. I had a hell of a time te last three days trying to get myself back into the groove. Well I guess tat is more of an on going thing.

I've had this phone for a little less then two months and I am already tempted to get the new iPhone. It's not even the phone itself I'm getting excited over, but the new roll out of MobileMe that so nicely compliments it that I'm excited over. Alas, I need to be content with this phone for the time being, if the iPhone gets onto other networks then I can simply upgrade to it. That and I still like my rubber keys.

I didn't know this was one of my peeves is before. I think it's rude to leave your own party and hang out with people you run into for a good amount of time. But considering the example I have been given today, I don't really care. Oh and I hate it when I am on time and everybody else is running at least 15 min late. Good thing I have my phone to play with.

I have been having a hell of a time trying to figure out what to write. I love writing, but I honestly have nothing to write about but my boring daily happenings. I honestly thought I would have so much more time to just do whatever I want after school is done with. As it turns out I have no idea what I want to do. I don't have a passion for anything in particular. I don't have the friends that I can just call up and do random things with. I'm kind of at a loss here. Maybe that is why I have been dreading this vacation. There is so much uncertainty and I don't have control over so much of it. It just feels strange.

I can churn out tons and tons of words to post in this infinite pit and it doesn't have to mean a damn thing. I don't actually have the talent to create content I realized a long time ago. What I am actually good at is to facilitate these things. I started studying the whole web design thing last week. I figured it was about time I get started on this great website I wanted to make for many many years. I don't know how it will turn out, but I'm hoping it will turn out much better then my writing.

this place

I feel like I'm caught in an interesting place right now. I've worked so hard to come to this place where I don't have any worries and can do whatever I want, and I can't wait to get out of it. I don't feel right when things I do doesn't exactly serve a specific purpose. I feel the need to not be here.

perspective

I have the TV on because I'm bored. There's this woman on right now talking about her book. She wrote a book about how she got pregnant after she met some guy at a bar. I feel sorry for her. I absolutely do. I think maybe about a week ago I would have been more sympathetic. Right now I just think by doing so is more pathetic.

how 'bout them apples

sunday sunday

I wasn't in the best state this morning. I think you can count that as an example of pms. I don't think I have ever been so affected before. My whole body resisted this morning to yet another run. I ran 7 times in the past 8 days. I have been working on my time on it. I got very close to my first milestone yesterday. I missed it by 13 seconds in fact. I really wanted to take the day of because my knees are very sore. They still are. My hip was hurting when I woke up this morning in an odd spot. No matter how I try to turn it wouldn't pop. By the time I got to the gym I already had side stitches. Did I mention I didn't even get the chance to grab some breakfast this morning? I was entirely resentful this morning of that exercise. I thought by finishing it I would feel better. Honestly I don't. I don't feel any better because I ran my 7th 5K in the last 8 days. I wanted to sleep in and not do any more damage to my knees for the next 24 hours.

I'm sitting on the patio and I'm cold. There are so many little things bugging me right now I just want to sit and not do anything. I'm not totally grouchy. I'm in fairly good spirits actually. It's just the little annoying things that are bugging me.

Numb-WHAT?!?