Friday, June 30, 2006
magic fingers
.... so I've heard that's the thing I have.... yeah.... I've been dishing out such good massages that a couple of girls I know is advocating me to switch teams.... mmm... no. well at least I made the princess happy today with some of that good work. yeah... so but now who's gonna do that for me? my back aches.... *sigh*
drifting
hum, end of week, sort of..... at least there's a holiday coming up.... time to break out the taquila... muahahaha
Thursday, June 29, 2006
a little internal celebration
I haven't felt well today. I think it's the no sleep, dread, and people who just likes to be mean. Anyway, capped off my night at Chili's with a Guinness in a frosty mug and a grilled shrimp alfredo. mmmm.... some of my favorite things. I needed it.
I've Never
( ) I've never been drunk
(x) I've never smoked pot
( ) I've never kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) I've never kissed a member of the same sex
(x) I've never crashed a friend's car
(x) I've never been to Japan
( ) I've never been in a taxi
( ) I've never been in love
( ) I've never been dumped
( ) I've never failed a grade
(x) I've never shoplifted
(x) I've never been fired
(x) I've never been in a fist fight
( ) I've never snuck out of my parent's house
( ) I've never been tied up
( ) I've never regretted having sex with someone
(x) I've never been arrested
( ) I've never had sex in a public place
(x) I've never made out with a stranger
(x) I've never stolen something from my job
(x) I've never celebrated New Years in Time Square
(x) I've never had V.D.
(x) I've never gone on a blind date
( ) I've never lied to a friend
( ) I've never had a crush on a teacher
(x) I've never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
( ) I've never been to Europe
(x) I've never dated anyone 15 years older than me
(x) I've never been to Antarctica
( ) I've never skipped school
(x) I've never slept with a co-worker
(x) I've never been married
(x) I've never been divorced
( ) I've never posed nude.
(x) I've never O.D.'d -on anything-
(x) I've never beat up a retard
( ) I've never thrown up in a bar
(x) I've never woke up not knowing where I was
( ) I've never eaten sushi
(x) I've never had a pet monkey
(x) I've never been snowboarding
( ) I've never flashed anyone
(x) I've never smoked pot
( ) I've never kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) I've never kissed a member of the same sex
(x) I've never crashed a friend's car
(x) I've never been to Japan
( ) I've never been in a taxi
( ) I've never been in love
( ) I've never been dumped
( ) I've never failed a grade
(x) I've never shoplifted
(x) I've never been fired
(x) I've never been in a fist fight
( ) I've never snuck out of my parent's house
( ) I've never been tied up
( ) I've never regretted having sex with someone
(x) I've never been arrested
( ) I've never had sex in a public place
(x) I've never made out with a stranger
(x) I've never stolen something from my job
(x) I've never celebrated New Years in Time Square
(x) I've never had V.D.
(x) I've never gone on a blind date
( ) I've never lied to a friend
( ) I've never had a crush on a teacher
(x) I've never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
( ) I've never been to Europe
(x) I've never dated anyone 15 years older than me
(x) I've never been to Antarctica
( ) I've never skipped school
(x) I've never slept with a co-worker
(x) I've never been married
(x) I've never been divorced
( ) I've never posed nude.
(x) I've never O.D.'d -on anything-
(x) I've never beat up a retard
( ) I've never thrown up in a bar
(x) I've never woke up not knowing where I was
( ) I've never eaten sushi
(x) I've never had a pet monkey
(x) I've never been snowboarding
( ) I've never flashed anyone
quiz time
1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR EX IF YOU COULD?
Probably not
2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Red Hollister polo
3. HAVE YOU KISSED ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
Unfortunately no
4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP FRIENDS LIST?
mmmm.... haha
5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
All but maybe like 3
6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
2
7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
Yeah I think so
9. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE?
eh.... no idea... suggestions?
12. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BDAY?
Got trashed with co-workers, got trashed with old friend.... yeah.... beer.....
13. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?
eh, something generic that's kinda trippy
14. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
4:50 am
15. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
probably trolling myspace
16. HOW MANY OF YOUR EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
none
17. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
In what way? I only like it when I'm in certain positions....
18. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
Get trashed.... friggin school sucked.... glad that's over for now
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
This morning before I left for my final
20. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLING(S)?
Don't have any
21. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
Get slimmer
22. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
Invest it
23. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
Almost a year
24. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
nope
25. DESCRIBE WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING:
mmm... not wearing any atm...
26 LAST THING YOU ATE?
2 cans of sugar free full throttle... oh food... nachos from denny's
27. WHATS YOR FAVORITE MONTH?
September
28. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
June
29. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
uh.... people usually borrow stuff from me
30. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
yeah... I'm not gonna say
31. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
my blog
32. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
somebody
33. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
see above
34. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR A FRIEND?
probably
35. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
Coffee, good beer
36. FAVORITE FOOD?
Italian
37. FAVORITE DESSERT?
anything chocolate
38. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
Yup
39. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
nothing
40.What are your favorite kicks?
Right now... my neon green puma or my flojos
Probably not
2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Red Hollister polo
3. HAVE YOU KISSED ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
Unfortunately no
4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP FRIENDS LIST?
mmmm.... haha
5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
All but maybe like 3
6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
2
7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
Yeah I think so
9. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE?
eh.... no idea... suggestions?
12. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BDAY?
Got trashed with co-workers, got trashed with old friend.... yeah.... beer.....
13. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?
eh, something generic that's kinda trippy
14. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
4:50 am
15. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
probably trolling myspace
16. HOW MANY OF YOUR EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
none
17. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
In what way? I only like it when I'm in certain positions....
18. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
Get trashed.... friggin school sucked.... glad that's over for now
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
This morning before I left for my final
20. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLING(S)?
Don't have any
21. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
Get slimmer
22. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
Invest it
23. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
Almost a year
24. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
nope
25. DESCRIBE WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING:
mmm... not wearing any atm...
26 LAST THING YOU ATE?
2 cans of sugar free full throttle... oh food... nachos from denny's
27. WHATS YOR FAVORITE MONTH?
September
28. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
June
29. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
uh.... people usually borrow stuff from me
30. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
yeah... I'm not gonna say
31. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
my blog
32. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
somebody
33. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
see above
34. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR A FRIEND?
probably
35. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
Coffee, good beer
36. FAVORITE FOOD?
Italian
37. FAVORITE DESSERT?
anything chocolate
38. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
Yup
39. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
nothing
40.What are your favorite kicks?
Right now... my neon green puma or my flojos
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
2 down
Totally and entirely bombed my accounting final.... good indication of the rest of my day. *sigh* Hate it to have so much on my mind.... distracting ya know.
Opportunities
Sometimes I'm into this thing about making my own opportunities. Funny thing is, when such occasion arises, I don't take it. I don't know why, I'm just like that. Whatever. I guess I'm just frustrated with everything.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
You Tube
For some reason I've never thought about using this before... even with some urging... Maybe it's because I'm procrastinating.... I always start something different that I do that... lol. Anyway if you have a profile, just add me. If not, just make an account or something...
http://www.youtube.com/user/Odrini
http://www.youtube.com/user/Odrini
Still...
I'm still a bit spaced out... not too good. I don't see myself spending more then 2 hours going over the accounting stuff tonight. Not good again. I guess I should eat... I did get around to arrange my papers so they're all together. I haven't written as much notes for classes as I thought. The stuff I had for last quarter was quite a bit more.... maybe it's because I went to every single class. Anyway. Yeah. I'm bored again. And chugging full throttle. Tonight is going to be fun. Should have gotten that costco size bottle of jose today. I'll get drunk next week. Sware.
BTW I've picked up my nasty habit. It's got nothing to do with substance abuse, more like a thing I do. I need to back off. Just have to keep myself busy with... uh... stuff I guess.
BTW I've picked up my nasty habit. It's got nothing to do with substance abuse, more like a thing I do. I need to back off. Just have to keep myself busy with... uh... stuff I guess.
Wise Men
She said to me, "Go steady on me.
Won't you tell me what the Wise Men said?
When they came down from Heaven,
Smoked nine 'til seven,
All the shit that they could find,
But they couldn't escape from you,
Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out,
And they're really sorry now for what they've done,
They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun."
Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?
Really sorry now,
They weren't to know.
They got caught up in your talent show,
With you pernickety little bastards in your fancy dress,
Who just judge each other and try to impress,
But they couldn't escape from you,
Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out,
And they're really sorry now for what they've done,
They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun.
Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?
-- Back To Bedlam -- James Blunt
Won't you tell me what the Wise Men said?
When they came down from Heaven,
Smoked nine 'til seven,
All the shit that they could find,
But they couldn't escape from you,
Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out,
And they're really sorry now for what they've done,
They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun."
Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?
Really sorry now,
They weren't to know.
They got caught up in your talent show,
With you pernickety little bastards in your fancy dress,
Who just judge each other and try to impress,
But they couldn't escape from you,
Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out,
And they're really sorry now for what they've done,
They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun.
Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?
-- Back To Bedlam -- James Blunt
Procrastinate
yup.... went for some killer tacos and bowled... yeah. I guess I should go study or something.... *sigh* Not sleeping the next two nights I suppose. Only got myself to blame.
Honestly
1. Honestly, where are you?
In my room
2. Honestly, what's on your mind right now?
bowling balls
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
Just woke up, sitting in bed, watching GMA, typing on my lappy
5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
Absolutely
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
Too early to have done that... but yesterday, maybe....
7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
Nope
8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
Eh... more like envy I think
9. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
My best buddies, when I get to hang out with them..... which almost never happens because of the hours we work
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
All the time... but not too bad
11. Honestly what's your mood right now?
Calm, bored, and dreading a whole day of studying
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
Nope
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
Yes
14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
Of course I do
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
uhhh.... yeah I have a Karen in my life... lol
16. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now?
Same person I hugged yesterday.... mmm take your pick, I hugged a lot of people and that's one of them... lol
17. Honestly, are you loyal?
Fiercly
18. Honestly, are you in denial?
See #14
20. Honestly, do you like someone?
Yup
21. Honestly, does anyone like you?
Yup
22. Honestly, is it raining outside?
Nope
DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY
*Anger Section*
1. What do you do when you're mad?
I fume and I write... I think...
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
No idea, it's not like I try to remember these things
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
Yeah I think so.... actually I did for my birthday didn't I... lol
*Happy Section*
1. Are you normally a happy person?
On the outside, when I'm with people
2. What can make you happy?
Being with somebody
3. Does being with your friends make you happy?
Almost always
*Self-Esteem Section*
1. Is your self-esteem extremely low
Sometimes
2. Do you believe in yourself?
Most of the time
3. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty/ beautiful/gorgeous what do you say?
ppppppffff..... You finally noticed?
4. Are you one of those people that think they are ugly, dumb, and gross?
Naw
repost with honest survey
In my room
2. Honestly, what's on your mind right now?
bowling balls
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
Just woke up, sitting in bed, watching GMA, typing on my lappy
5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
Absolutely
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
Too early to have done that... but yesterday, maybe....
7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
Nope
8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
Eh... more like envy I think
9. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
My best buddies, when I get to hang out with them..... which almost never happens because of the hours we work
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
All the time... but not too bad
11. Honestly what's your mood right now?
Calm, bored, and dreading a whole day of studying
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
Nope
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
Yes
14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
Of course I do
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
uhhh.... yeah I have a Karen in my life... lol
16. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now?
Same person I hugged yesterday.... mmm take your pick, I hugged a lot of people and that's one of them... lol
17. Honestly, are you loyal?
Fiercly
18. Honestly, are you in denial?
See #14
20. Honestly, do you like someone?
Yup
21. Honestly, does anyone like you?
Yup
22. Honestly, is it raining outside?
Nope
DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY
*Anger Section*
1. What do you do when you're mad?
I fume and I write... I think...
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
No idea, it's not like I try to remember these things
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
Yeah I think so.... actually I did for my birthday didn't I... lol
*Happy Section*
1. Are you normally a happy person?
On the outside, when I'm with people
2. What can make you happy?
Being with somebody
3. Does being with your friends make you happy?
Almost always
*Self-Esteem Section*
1. Is your self-esteem extremely low
Sometimes
2. Do you believe in yourself?
Most of the time
3. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty/ beautiful/gorgeous what do you say?
ppppppffff..... You finally noticed?
4. Are you one of those people that think they are ugly, dumb, and gross?
Naw
repost with honest survey
mmmm yeah....
A Canadian team studied the trend about how men with older brothers are more likely to be gay. That I don't really care about. The funny thing is, one of the scientists name is Breedlove.... ironic? yeah....
Monday, June 26, 2006
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Finals Schedule
Monday: business as usual... except for taking PE final during class time
Wed: Acct 9:15 - 11:15, CIS 11:30-1:30
Thurs: Math 7-9
yuppers
So it looks like I'm going to swich my shifts on friday and saturday with B. Open friday, that's not too bad. Have to take it easy on bowling this week though, that's all.
Gotta remember to go in and get my lunch box back tomorrow too... sheesh. long ass days.
Wed: Acct 9:15 - 11:15, CIS 11:30-1:30
Thurs: Math 7-9
yuppers
So it looks like I'm going to swich my shifts on friday and saturday with B. Open friday, that's not too bad. Have to take it easy on bowling this week though, that's all.
Gotta remember to go in and get my lunch box back tomorrow too... sheesh. long ass days.
Hollow
I felt pretty hollow today. I don't know what it is. I think I'm a bit better now. Ok well I do know what it is, but I don't know how to put it into words. I guess the mind fuck is finally beginning.... took me a while.... I'm a bit slow to these things.
On a side note... I love boneless buffalo wings... just not the choking part. And yes, I do realize I was choking on a piece of chicken.... laugh it up you pervs. >_<
On a side note... I love boneless buffalo wings... just not the choking part. And yes, I do realize I was choking on a piece of chicken.... laugh it up you pervs. >_<
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Fade
Some decisions were made today, and it's hopefully going to work out for the best. I sort of like it. So yeah. My health problem is fading... yay! I'm pretty happy about it. That probably means I'm less stressed and don't have to go to the doctor next week... or be hospitalized for that matter.... yeah. Good times.
Made up my mind
Opportunities like this comes and goes. I might not like it, but I have to stick with what I need to stick with. So yeah. Answer is no. Hope I did the right thing.
Friday, June 23, 2006
fitting....
So here's the thing... I had this habit of buying clothing that are smaller in hope of fitting in. So I'm stalling on cleaning my room and started trying on some of them....
That skirt I got last summer... fits. And it looks pretty damn good. Now I have to find an occasion to wear it. Oh an there are other items of clothing I'm trying on right now. It fits so well. Except I can't wear it out. lol. Yeah. Too bad. ^_^
That skirt I got last summer... fits. And it looks pretty damn good. Now I have to find an occasion to wear it. Oh an there are other items of clothing I'm trying on right now. It fits so well. Except I can't wear it out. lol. Yeah. Too bad. ^_^
Survey
1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
In bed, sleeping.... where I still am ^_^
2. Who are you in love with?
mmmm.... haha.... can't say
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
maaaaaaayyyybe...
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
yeah, my jammies
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
Last sunday... was in there for like 10 min to find some foundation for my mom... then I went to the cheesecake factory
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
Nope....
7. Do you have a car worth over 2,000?
Yeah I think so
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
Almost a year I think
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
Been a few weeks
10. Are you hot?
Always ^_^
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
uh... iced tea... but for a drink drink it's a magahrita before bowling on wednesday
12. What are you wearing right now?
oversized button down shirt....
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
I don't wash my car... haha
14. Last food that you ate?
I'm thinking about that piece of boneless buffalo wing I choked on... lol
15. Where were you last week at this time?
Dashing out of the classroom crying freedom...
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
Don't think I have
17. When is the last time you ran?
No idea
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
The Sharks getting whoopped.... *sob*
19. What is your favorite animal?
My power animal is the penguin... but I love my piggie ^_^
20. Your dream vacation?
Going back to Paris... and backpack through Europe
21. Last person's house you were in?
TJ's I think
23. Have you been in love?
That depends
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
Yeah I sure do
25. Last play you saw?
Been a while, but I'm thinking The Producers
27.What are your plans for tonight?
Work work....
28. Who is the last person you sent a myspace message or comment?
Kryssa.... add me dammit!
29. Next trip you are going to take?
No clue
30. Ever go to camp?
Junior high?
32. What do you want to know about the future?
ha...
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
Yeah, Evidence
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
Probably going in next week
35. Do you have a tan?
crazy tan arms
36. What are you listening to right now?
Dave
37. Do you collect anything?
Yeah, bunch of crap
38. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
haha... me
39. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
never
40. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
yeah sure
41 What does your last text message say?
Gotta scoot for abit... Ttyl.
42. Do you like hot sauce?
Sometimes
43. Last time you took a shower?
yesterday afternoon.... gonna do it after I post this
44. Do you need to do laundry?
ooooooh yeah
45. What is your heritage?
Chinese
46. Are you someone's best friend?
I think so
47. Are you rich?
I am soooo poor right now
48. What do you think of the person who took this survey?
Laura is friggin awsome ^_^
In bed, sleeping.... where I still am ^_^
2. Who are you in love with?
mmmm.... haha.... can't say
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
maaaaaaayyyybe...
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
yeah, my jammies
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
Last sunday... was in there for like 10 min to find some foundation for my mom... then I went to the cheesecake factory
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
Nope....
7. Do you have a car worth over 2,000?
Yeah I think so
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
Almost a year I think
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
Been a few weeks
10. Are you hot?
Always ^_^
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
uh... iced tea... but for a drink drink it's a magahrita before bowling on wednesday
12. What are you wearing right now?
oversized button down shirt....
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
I don't wash my car... haha
14. Last food that you ate?
I'm thinking about that piece of boneless buffalo wing I choked on... lol
15. Where were you last week at this time?
Dashing out of the classroom crying freedom...
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
Don't think I have
17. When is the last time you ran?
No idea
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
The Sharks getting whoopped.... *sob*
19. What is your favorite animal?
My power animal is the penguin... but I love my piggie ^_^
20. Your dream vacation?
Going back to Paris... and backpack through Europe
21. Last person's house you were in?
TJ's I think
23. Have you been in love?
That depends
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
Yeah I sure do
25. Last play you saw?
Been a while, but I'm thinking The Producers
27.What are your plans for tonight?
Work work....
28. Who is the last person you sent a myspace message or comment?
Kryssa.... add me dammit!
29. Next trip you are going to take?
No clue
30. Ever go to camp?
Junior high?
32. What do you want to know about the future?
ha...
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
Yeah, Evidence
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
Probably going in next week
35. Do you have a tan?
crazy tan arms
36. What are you listening to right now?
Dave
37. Do you collect anything?
Yeah, bunch of crap
38. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
haha... me
39. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
never
40. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
yeah sure
41 What does your last text message say?
Gotta scoot for abit... Ttyl.
42. Do you like hot sauce?
Sometimes
43. Last time you took a shower?
yesterday afternoon.... gonna do it after I post this
44. Do you need to do laundry?
ooooooh yeah
45. What is your heritage?
Chinese
46. Are you someone's best friend?
I think so
47. Are you rich?
I am soooo poor right now
48. What do you think of the person who took this survey?
Laura is friggin awsome ^_^
Thursday, June 22, 2006
decisions decisions.....
The answer is no. As much as it pains me to say so. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.....
I god damn hate school and all that shit..... but I don't really have a fucking choice do I..... The fact that my parents brought up my Aunt Alice as the example is a helluva lot more ironic then they think. Can't get into the specifics here, just trust me it is.
Well. If I like this job so much, then finish school so I can keep doing it without that huge monkey hanging on my back. all I can say is.... FUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!! gah....
I god damn hate school and all that shit..... but I don't really have a fucking choice do I..... The fact that my parents brought up my Aunt Alice as the example is a helluva lot more ironic then they think. Can't get into the specifics here, just trust me it is.
Well. If I like this job so much, then finish school so I can keep doing it without that huge monkey hanging on my back. all I can say is.... FUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!! gah....
home stretch
I don't have class tomorrow morning... and the 2nd class is a bit trivial.... So I might take the day off from school. Next week is finals week, then I'll be done with this academic year. I don't think I have done as well this quarter as the last two. I did have a few breakdowns somewhere along the way. I'm going to take the summer off and just work and hang out. It's strange to finally have a group of friends I can hang out with and find stuff to do. I don't know how it happened that I didn't have that for the longest time. But at any rate, I'm glad I have these guys now.
I have been really lazy about this whole application thing. I really need to get on it. I want to see if I have enough to send in without this quarter's grades... I'm serious. Anyway... the application period is pretty open for transfers, I'm not toooo worried. Worse to worst I have to take another quarter at DeAnza, no big deal. I just need to keep being a full time student to keep my current insurance. yeah...
Speaking of which I should figure out when my finals are over and schedule an appointment to get myself checked out. I'm still not entirely healed... It's been more then 2 weeks. I don't know what the deal is, but I know my friend who had those symptoms a while back got hospitalized for a few days. Hopefully it's not as serious on me.
Last couple of weeks I have been toying with the idea of switching over to Verizon from Cingular. A friend of mine mentioned it and I was doing some math in my head. I know the early termination fee on Cingular is about 150 bucks... I have another year left on the contract... I just past the first. So the thing is, I have some friends in LA, Berkeley, and around here that I text that are all on Verizon. So I guess it would make sense for me to be "in". I'm paying 10 bucks right now for 1k messages per month. I might have to upgrade to 20 bucks for 3k.... I'm running a little low this month. Bah. I don't know. I don't have the money right now to pay the termination fee.... I got that friggin PSP and my ball... lol.... stupid broke ass.
So yeah... I guess There are more things out there in life to talk about other then men. My pal has been giving me a lot of shit about my choice in men lately. Well I can't say that his choices are that much better... well ok it's not as bad as mine... but still. Whatever. Anyway... one sided things always sucks a bejillion....
So I still believe in the whole thing about how my room reflects my mental state. And right now... It's a fucking mess. I have laundry that was done 2 weeks ago, folded, in my ergo chair. I have laundry done last week that were throw in a basket, sitting at the foot of my bed. My desk is littered with random pieces of paper and reciepts. My pizza box from like 3 weeks ago is still sitting there. I have more laundry just hanging about. That new harddrive and case I got last week is still stacked up. I have a few boxes of stuff I said I was going to go through a few months back still sitting there. My books are in dissarry. My backpack and a couple of changes of clothes are at the foot of my bed, and I haven't made my bed in like a week. My Paris postcard project is still just sitting there. I have random crap just laying about. You can't take two steps without tripping on something. So yeah... good times. My head is all fucked up. On the bright side, I got around to clean out my car tonight when I got home. Threw a couple of things in the garage. I should get better gas milage now... lol. I also left my balls in the garage.... The weather is getting a little to harsh for my babies.
I'm eating watermelon on my bed while blogging on my laptop. Yeah, summer is here alright.
I have been really lazy about this whole application thing. I really need to get on it. I want to see if I have enough to send in without this quarter's grades... I'm serious. Anyway... the application period is pretty open for transfers, I'm not toooo worried. Worse to worst I have to take another quarter at DeAnza, no big deal. I just need to keep being a full time student to keep my current insurance. yeah...
Speaking of which I should figure out when my finals are over and schedule an appointment to get myself checked out. I'm still not entirely healed... It's been more then 2 weeks. I don't know what the deal is, but I know my friend who had those symptoms a while back got hospitalized for a few days. Hopefully it's not as serious on me.
Last couple of weeks I have been toying with the idea of switching over to Verizon from Cingular. A friend of mine mentioned it and I was doing some math in my head. I know the early termination fee on Cingular is about 150 bucks... I have another year left on the contract... I just past the first. So the thing is, I have some friends in LA, Berkeley, and around here that I text that are all on Verizon. So I guess it would make sense for me to be "in". I'm paying 10 bucks right now for 1k messages per month. I might have to upgrade to 20 bucks for 3k.... I'm running a little low this month. Bah. I don't know. I don't have the money right now to pay the termination fee.... I got that friggin PSP and my ball... lol.... stupid broke ass.
So yeah... I guess There are more things out there in life to talk about other then men. My pal has been giving me a lot of shit about my choice in men lately. Well I can't say that his choices are that much better... well ok it's not as bad as mine... but still. Whatever. Anyway... one sided things always sucks a bejillion....
So I still believe in the whole thing about how my room reflects my mental state. And right now... It's a fucking mess. I have laundry that was done 2 weeks ago, folded, in my ergo chair. I have laundry done last week that were throw in a basket, sitting at the foot of my bed. My desk is littered with random pieces of paper and reciepts. My pizza box from like 3 weeks ago is still sitting there. I have more laundry just hanging about. That new harddrive and case I got last week is still stacked up. I have a few boxes of stuff I said I was going to go through a few months back still sitting there. My books are in dissarry. My backpack and a couple of changes of clothes are at the foot of my bed, and I haven't made my bed in like a week. My Paris postcard project is still just sitting there. I have random crap just laying about. You can't take two steps without tripping on something. So yeah... good times. My head is all fucked up. On the bright side, I got around to clean out my car tonight when I got home. Threw a couple of things in the garage. I should get better gas milage now... lol. I also left my balls in the garage.... The weather is getting a little to harsh for my babies.
I'm eating watermelon on my bed while blogging on my laptop. Yeah, summer is here alright.
Care to grab my balls?
It was hot today. Friggin hot. To take my mind off of things, I went out with my pal for a bit. We ended up going to the store, grabbed a bite, and got my new bowling ball. That's right boys and girls, I finally got around to get my new ball!
I totally forgot to take a picture of it... but it's pretty, and it's red. So now I have 2 balls. One 10 lb plastic spare ball, and my new spiffy 14 lb strike ball. Weeeee!
I bowled 4 games with it, just getting a feel, and I got above my average. I knew exactly where to throw (well throwing it there is another issue). I'm going to chalk it up to some good coaching ^_^.
But yeah. I also got a new bag, that's because there's no way for me to carry 24 lbs worth of balls and shoes and all that crap on my shoulder.... I got a blue, 2 ball, rolly bag. It's pretty spiffy too.
Granted I don't think I have the money for it since I got that PSP, but I'll live.... I'll just put off paying for that PSP for a bit... I got another 5 months for it anyway. So that was what I needed, actually get something I want instead of moping about stuff I can never get. So yeah.
Happiness is grabbing my balls and roll with it ^_^
I totally forgot to take a picture of it... but it's pretty, and it's red. So now I have 2 balls. One 10 lb plastic spare ball, and my new spiffy 14 lb strike ball. Weeeee!
I bowled 4 games with it, just getting a feel, and I got above my average. I knew exactly where to throw (well throwing it there is another issue). I'm going to chalk it up to some good coaching ^_^.
But yeah. I also got a new bag, that's because there's no way for me to carry 24 lbs worth of balls and shoes and all that crap on my shoulder.... I got a blue, 2 ball, rolly bag. It's pretty spiffy too.
Granted I don't think I have the money for it since I got that PSP, but I'll live.... I'll just put off paying for that PSP for a bit... I got another 5 months for it anyway. So that was what I needed, actually get something I want instead of moping about stuff I can never get. So yeah.
Happiness is grabbing my balls and roll with it ^_^
break down....
I think I just died a little bit inside. This whole thing just got a little more complicated then I thought. I didn't think it would effect me that much, but it really is. My buddy was right the other night, this whole thing just fucks with my head. I don't know if I should put an end to it. *sigh* Grab another drink I guess.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Somewhere Only We Know
I walked across an empty land,
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet,
Sat by the river and it made me complete.
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
I came across a fallen tree,
I felt the branches of it looking at me.
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
And if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So, tell me when you gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
And if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, so why don't we go,
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know.
-- Hopes And Fears -- Keane
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet,
Sat by the river and it made me complete.
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
I came across a fallen tree,
I felt the branches of it looking at me.
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
And if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So, tell me when you gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
And if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, so why don't we go,
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know.
-- Hopes And Fears -- Keane
Make like I care
I trolled myspace for a bit last night, didn't make any comments. I did find a comment on somebodys page interesting. Sucks for him, he traded down from me. He has no idea what he's missing. I don't feel mad at all, I just pity him. That is actually a really good feeling. So everything he said to me was pretty much bullshit. He really can't handle somebody who actually has some intellectual horsepower. How he ended up with somebody this trashy makes me want to laugh in his face. Stupid boys.
I had a discussion with a girlfriend last night. I think I am going to give up on the notion on a meaningful romantic relationship for a little while. Plus I still have another year to go on my proper dead relationship grieving period....(half the time the relationship lasted.... Sex and the City-ism). Anyway. The whole notion of a fuck buddy came up. For some odd reason I really don't oppose it. Obviously that's not the way I was raised. It's funny because I'm not promiscuous in any way. I think I just want to cut out the whole relationship bullshit and get right into the intimacy.
So here is my challenge, to find somebody who I think is worthy enough and is not opposed to the idea. I don't want it to be just anybody, I want it to be somebody I care about. I know it's a challenge... To try to maintain a friendship with somebody and try to be objective about the intimate part. So I think the way I ratonalized it was this: this will just be another one of the activities I do with this person. It'll be like going out for a tennis match or something, just another thing to do.
I feel so much like a Samantha right now... Lol... Yeah well, not like anything like that would ever happen, just another fantasy running wild I suppose... Haha... Man I need a life.
I had a discussion with a girlfriend last night. I think I am going to give up on the notion on a meaningful romantic relationship for a little while. Plus I still have another year to go on my proper dead relationship grieving period....(half the time the relationship lasted.... Sex and the City-ism). Anyway. The whole notion of a fuck buddy came up. For some odd reason I really don't oppose it. Obviously that's not the way I was raised. It's funny because I'm not promiscuous in any way. I think I just want to cut out the whole relationship bullshit and get right into the intimacy.
So here is my challenge, to find somebody who I think is worthy enough and is not opposed to the idea. I don't want it to be just anybody, I want it to be somebody I care about. I know it's a challenge... To try to maintain a friendship with somebody and try to be objective about the intimate part. So I think the way I ratonalized it was this: this will just be another one of the activities I do with this person. It'll be like going out for a tennis match or something, just another thing to do.
I feel so much like a Samantha right now... Lol... Yeah well, not like anything like that would ever happen, just another fantasy running wild I suppose... Haha... Man I need a life.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Bold
I didn't sleep much the last few nights. That's what I get for putting off school work. To be honest the work itself took all of 20 minutes. My mind just likes to wander. Regardless, sunday was a very long day. Actually come to think of it, it had been a frigging long weekend. I closed every night since wednesday, and I worked straight through on sunday. The last two nights had been long... I didn't get any shut eyes until at least 2:30 each night and I still made it to class.... Good times.
We had a store meeting on Sunday morning. Imagine that.... I closed the night before, and had to be back at 8 for the meeting... fun fun. To be honest it was pretty uneventful. I did get recognized as the department top performer.... so that was pretty cool.
My mind had been everywhere the last few days. There are just some things I have no control over. I hate having feelings for somebody who doesn't have them back. Another thing I have to live with I guess. I don't understand why it is so hard to find myself somebody relatively normal. It's strange. And it's sad.
We had a store meeting on Sunday morning. Imagine that.... I closed the night before, and had to be back at 8 for the meeting... fun fun. To be honest it was pretty uneventful. I did get recognized as the department top performer.... so that was pretty cool.
My mind had been everywhere the last few days. There are just some things I have no control over. I hate having feelings for somebody who doesn't have them back. Another thing I have to live with I guess. I don't understand why it is so hard to find myself somebody relatively normal. It's strange. And it's sad.
Monday, June 19, 2006
Sunday, June 18, 2006
so...
So many things happened this week.... too drunk to write much.... mmmmm..... I'm going to sleep, I have a meeting in the morning....
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Rate of return
I discovered I have a tendancy of picking people that can never love me back. I never really know if he's incapable, but it is definately circumstential. I took him off my top 8 so I don't have to look at him.
For a long long time I never really talk about my feelings about anyone, to anyone. I started actually talking about it in the past year or so with various people. It just gets me back on a perspective. I'm still so naive about relationships in so many way. I get really selfish. I had the attitude of, so to hell with what other people think, this is what I want. I am slowly realizing I can't always get what I want. I'm actully thinking about consequences. It may be what I want for the time being, but what does it mean in the long run? It usually turns out to be the most horrible situation in the world. It often puts me in a irreversable position I don't want to be in.
For a long long time I never really talk about my feelings about anyone, to anyone. I started actually talking about it in the past year or so with various people. It just gets me back on a perspective. I'm still so naive about relationships in so many way. I get really selfish. I had the attitude of, so to hell with what other people think, this is what I want. I am slowly realizing I can't always get what I want. I'm actully thinking about consequences. It may be what I want for the time being, but what does it mean in the long run? It usually turns out to be the most horrible situation in the world. It often puts me in a irreversable position I don't want to be in.
Grace Is Gone
Neon shines through smoky eyes tonight
It's 2 A.M., I'm drunk again
It's heavy on my mind
I could never love again
So much as I love you
Where you end, where I begin
Is like a river going through
Take my eyes, take my heart
'Cause I'll need them no more
If never again they'll fall upon
The one I so adore
'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
One more drink and I'll move on
One drink to remember
Then another to forget
How could I ever dream to find
A sweet love like you again
One drink to remember
And another to forget
'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
One more drink and I'll move on
One more drink and I'll be gone
You think a thing's impossible
Then the sun refused to shine
I woke with you beside me
Your cold hand lay in mine
'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
One more drink and I'll go
'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I'll move on
One more drink and I'll be gone
One more drink and my Grace is Gone
-- Busted Stuff -- DMB
It's 2 A.M., I'm drunk again
It's heavy on my mind
I could never love again
So much as I love you
Where you end, where I begin
Is like a river going through
Take my eyes, take my heart
'Cause I'll need them no more
If never again they'll fall upon
The one I so adore
'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
One more drink and I'll move on
One drink to remember
Then another to forget
How could I ever dream to find
A sweet love like you again
One drink to remember
And another to forget
'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
One more drink and I'll move on
One more drink and I'll be gone
You think a thing's impossible
Then the sun refused to shine
I woke with you beside me
Your cold hand lay in mine
'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
One more drink and I'll go
'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I'll move on
One more drink and I'll be gone
One more drink and my Grace is Gone
-- Busted Stuff -- DMB
another long one
.:. high school: homestead
.:. junior high school: cupertino
.:. elementary school: meyerholz
.:. favorite soda: diet dr. pepper
.:. favorite artist: mostly renaissance and flemish masters
.:. favorite animal: penguin
.:. favorite fruit: strawberry
.:. favorite weather: rainy
Do You:
.:. have a girlfriend/boyfriend: not atm
.:. think others find you attractive: i know they do
.:. like someone: just one?
.:. want more piercings: naw
.:. want a tattoo: eventually
Last:
.:. person talked to: mom
.:. movie watched: fun with dick and jane
.:. ever cried over a girl or boy: all the time
.:. ever been arrested: close, but no
.:. do u wanna die: sometimes
.:. ever dated a cousin: haha, i live in cali.... the chances are not as good
.:. ever used a gun: no, but want to
.:. ever finished a puzzle: lots of times
.:. ever got surgery: not that i know of
.:. ever hated someone: hate is such a loaded word.... more like loath
Pick one:
.:. blue or red?: blue
.:. spring or fall?: spring
Random stuff:
.:. criminal record?: none
.:. any piercings and where?: ear lobes
.:. initials: PL
.:. how old do you act?: about 17
.:. braces: *groan* yeah
.:. do you have any pets?: yeah, my guinea pig
.:. do you get embarrassed?: yeah
.:. mood?: tense
Level 1
() shoplifted
() been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
Level 2
(x)snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
()gone on a blind date
Level 3
(x) lied to a friend
(x)had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
() slept with a co-worker
()saw someone die
Level 4
(x) all my myspace friends are my real life friends..cept for like a few
(x) had/have a crush on one of your friends on myspace
(x) been to Canada
() been to mexico
(x)been on a plane
Level 5
(x) eaten Sushi
() been snowboarding
Level 6
() been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
Level 7
() had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
Level 8
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
() gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
Level 9
() used a fake ID
(x) watched the sunset
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake (hahaha... what kind of snake =P)
Level 10
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed/vandalized/had anything stolen from you
() robbed someone
Level 11
(x) won a contest
() been suspended from school
(x) had detention
() been in a car/motorcycle accident
Level 12
(x) had braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
Level 13
(x) hated the way you looked
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes.
Level 14
() squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying
Level 15
(x) cried yourself to sleep
() played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
Level 16
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
() made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
Level 17
() written a letter to Santa Claus
() been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) looked up at the stars with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
Level 18
() crashed a party
() have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
Level 19
(x) worn pearls
() jumped off a bridge
() ate a dog bone
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
Level 20
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
(x) glued your hand to something
Level 21
() got your tongue stuck to a pole
(x) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
() been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
Level 22
() had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
() done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
Level 23
() didn't take a shower for a week
(x) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
() had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
Level 24
(x) believe in ghosts
(x) worn a really ugly outfit
() played ding-dong-ditch
Level 25
(x) played chicken
() been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
() broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
Level 26
(x) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
level 27
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) French braided someones hair
() been kicked out of your house.
Level 29
(x) Rode a roller coaster
() went scuba-diving
(x) had a cavity
(x) Black-mailed someone
(x) been black-mailed
Level 30
(x) been used
(x) fell going up the stairs.
(x) bitten someone
THE WHO'S
Who is in the room with you?: nobody
Who was the last person to text you?: shawn
Whose house did you last go to?: tj
Who was the last person you told i love you too?: that's for him to know
Who's your favorite relative?: no idea
What was the last thing you ate?: ceaser w/ grilled prawns
What was the last thing you drank?: iced tea
What color pants are you wearing?: uh... i'm not wearing pants
What is the closest item near you that is blue?: my pants... hahaha
What are you wearing on your feet?: my anklet
What instant messaging service do you use?: aim & msn, both on gaim
What is your most used away message?: various song lyrics, depending on my mood
What is your favorite shoe brand?: whatever is comfy and looks good, right now they're my neon green puma's
What do you wear more, jeans or skirts?: jeans.... my friggin comfy abrecrombie jeans... mmmmm
What do you currently hear?: wolf blitzer
When did you last go to the mall?: last saturday at the great mall
When did you last buy a new pair of pants?: see above
Where is your favorite place to be?: under a tree, on a blanket, with my ipod, on a warm summer morning
where is ur phone: clipped to my pants
Where is your mom?: driving back to work after our lunch
Where do you sleep?: in my room, on my queen size bed, amidst a pile of pillows
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? abrecrombie
Where did you last take a car ride to: drove from school to country gourmet, then home
Where in your room are you?: in my little corner of insanity....
.:. junior high school: cupertino
.:. elementary school: meyerholz
.:. favorite soda: diet dr. pepper
.:. favorite artist: mostly renaissance and flemish masters
.:. favorite animal: penguin
.:. favorite fruit: strawberry
.:. favorite weather: rainy
Do You:
.:. have a girlfriend/boyfriend: not atm
.:. think others find you attractive: i know they do
.:. like someone: just one?
.:. want more piercings: naw
.:. want a tattoo: eventually
Last:
.:. person talked to: mom
.:. movie watched: fun with dick and jane
.:. ever cried over a girl or boy: all the time
.:. ever been arrested: close, but no
.:. do u wanna die: sometimes
.:. ever dated a cousin: haha, i live in cali.... the chances are not as good
.:. ever used a gun: no, but want to
.:. ever finished a puzzle: lots of times
.:. ever got surgery: not that i know of
.:. ever hated someone: hate is such a loaded word.... more like loath
Pick one:
.:. blue or red?: blue
.:. spring or fall?: spring
Random stuff:
.:. criminal record?: none
.:. any piercings and where?: ear lobes
.:. initials: PL
.:. how old do you act?: about 17
.:. braces: *groan* yeah
.:. do you have any pets?: yeah, my guinea pig
.:. do you get embarrassed?: yeah
.:. mood?: tense
Level 1
() shoplifted
() been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
Level 2
(x)snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
()gone on a blind date
Level 3
(x) lied to a friend
(x)had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
() slept with a co-worker
()saw someone die
Level 4
(x) all my myspace friends are my real life friends..cept for like a few
(x) had/have a crush on one of your friends on myspace
(x) been to Canada
() been to mexico
(x)been on a plane
Level 5
(x) eaten Sushi
() been snowboarding
Level 6
() been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
Level 7
() had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
Level 8
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
() gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
Level 9
() used a fake ID
(x) watched the sunset
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake (hahaha... what kind of snake =P)
Level 10
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed/vandalized/had anything stolen from you
() robbed someone
Level 11
(x) won a contest
() been suspended from school
(x) had detention
() been in a car/motorcycle accident
Level 12
(x) had braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
Level 13
(x) hated the way you looked
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes.
Level 14
() squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying
Level 15
(x) cried yourself to sleep
() played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
Level 16
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
() made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
Level 17
() written a letter to Santa Claus
() been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) looked up at the stars with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
Level 18
() crashed a party
() have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
Level 19
(x) worn pearls
() jumped off a bridge
() ate a dog bone
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
Level 20
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
(x) glued your hand to something
Level 21
() got your tongue stuck to a pole
(x) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
() been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
Level 22
() had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
() done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
Level 23
() didn't take a shower for a week
(x) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
() had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
Level 24
(x) believe in ghosts
(x) worn a really ugly outfit
() played ding-dong-ditch
Level 25
(x) played chicken
() been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
() broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
Level 26
(x) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
level 27
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) French braided someones hair
() been kicked out of your house.
Level 29
(x) Rode a roller coaster
() went scuba-diving
(x) had a cavity
(x) Black-mailed someone
(x) been black-mailed
Level 30
(x) been used
(x) fell going up the stairs.
(x) bitten someone
THE WHO'S
Who is in the room with you?: nobody
Who was the last person to text you?: shawn
Whose house did you last go to?: tj
Who was the last person you told i love you too?: that's for him to know
Who's your favorite relative?: no idea
What was the last thing you ate?: ceaser w/ grilled prawns
What was the last thing you drank?: iced tea
What color pants are you wearing?: uh... i'm not wearing pants
What is the closest item near you that is blue?: my pants... hahaha
What are you wearing on your feet?: my anklet
What instant messaging service do you use?: aim & msn, both on gaim
What is your most used away message?: various song lyrics, depending on my mood
What is your favorite shoe brand?: whatever is comfy and looks good, right now they're my neon green puma's
What do you wear more, jeans or skirts?: jeans.... my friggin comfy abrecrombie jeans... mmmmm
What do you currently hear?: wolf blitzer
When did you last go to the mall?: last saturday at the great mall
When did you last buy a new pair of pants?: see above
Where is your favorite place to be?: under a tree, on a blanket, with my ipod, on a warm summer morning
where is ur phone: clipped to my pants
Where is your mom?: driving back to work after our lunch
Where do you sleep?: in my room, on my queen size bed, amidst a pile of pillows
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? abrecrombie
Where did you last take a car ride to: drove from school to country gourmet, then home
Where in your room are you?: in my little corner of insanity....
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Lack there of....
This is the third day in a row I have been in class. This quarter is long. That kind of sucks. At least it's only another week and a half until finals. Two more tests, a quiz, and two more group projects with presentations in between. It's not as bad as it sounds. I can get it done barring from anymore breakdowns.
It is significantly warmer today comparing to yesterday. Think I can leave my jacket off for the rest of the day. I have shrunk a bit, just not toned. My whole outfit is Abrecrombie today.... So comfy... I can look better if I get my fat ass into the gym.
My health problem is not improving. I'm thinking it's attributed to stress. At least that's what I hope.
I didn't sleep too well last night. It was a bit restless. I don't think I had any notable dreams. Which is kind of dissapointing because that is something I have learned to look forward to every night. No more mid day naps.
Maybe I will get that ball today. I've been mulling that over. I can still afford it. Well I really shouldn't have gotten the PSP. But oh well, it's fun.
It is significantly warmer today comparing to yesterday. Think I can leave my jacket off for the rest of the day. I have shrunk a bit, just not toned. My whole outfit is Abrecrombie today.... So comfy... I can look better if I get my fat ass into the gym.
My health problem is not improving. I'm thinking it's attributed to stress. At least that's what I hope.
I didn't sleep too well last night. It was a bit restless. I don't think I had any notable dreams. Which is kind of dissapointing because that is something I have learned to look forward to every night. No more mid day naps.
Maybe I will get that ball today. I've been mulling that over. I can still afford it. Well I really shouldn't have gotten the PSP. But oh well, it's fun.
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Dancing Nancies
Could I have been
A parking lot attendant
Could I have been
A millionaire in Bel Air
Could I have been Lost somewhere in Paris
Could I have been
Your little brother
Could I have been
Anyone other than me
Could I have been
Anyone other than me
Could I have been
Anyone other than me
Could I have been
Anyone
He stands touch his hair his shoes untied
Tongue gaping stare
Could I have been a magnet for money?
Could I have been anyone other than me?
Twenty three and so tired of life
Such a shame to throw it all away
The images grow darker still
Could I have been anyone other than me? Then I
Look up at the sky
My mouth is open wide, lick and taste
What's the use in worrying, what's the use in hurrying
Turn, turn we almost become dizzy
I am who I am who I am who am I
Requesting some enlightenment
Could I have been anyone other than me?
Sing and dance I'll play for you tonight
And thrill at it all
Dark clouds may hang on me sometimes
But I'll work it out then I
Look up at the sky
My mouth is open wide, lick and taste
What's the use in worrying, what's the use in hurrying
Turn, turn we almost become dizzy
Falling out of a world of lies
Could I have been dancing nancy
Could I have been anyone other than me?
-- Under The Table & Dreaming -- DMB
A parking lot attendant
Could I have been
A millionaire in Bel Air
Could I have been Lost somewhere in Paris
Could I have been
Your little brother
Could I have been
Anyone other than me
Could I have been
Anyone other than me
Could I have been
Anyone other than me
Could I have been
Anyone
He stands touch his hair his shoes untied
Tongue gaping stare
Could I have been a magnet for money?
Could I have been anyone other than me?
Twenty three and so tired of life
Such a shame to throw it all away
The images grow darker still
Could I have been anyone other than me? Then I
Look up at the sky
My mouth is open wide, lick and taste
What's the use in worrying, what's the use in hurrying
Turn, turn we almost become dizzy
I am who I am who I am who am I
Requesting some enlightenment
Could I have been anyone other than me?
Sing and dance I'll play for you tonight
And thrill at it all
Dark clouds may hang on me sometimes
But I'll work it out then I
Look up at the sky
My mouth is open wide, lick and taste
What's the use in worrying, what's the use in hurrying
Turn, turn we almost become dizzy
Falling out of a world of lies
Could I have been dancing nancy
Could I have been anyone other than me?
-- Under The Table & Dreaming -- DMB
Group project
I'm working on a group project where we're making a website.... So I threw something together
http://whoopsproject.50megs.com/index.htm
yeah I know... could be better, but what do you expect from an hour and a half of work =P
http://whoopsproject.50megs.com/index.htm
yeah I know... could be better, but what do you expect from an hour and a half of work =P
awake.... somewhat
I can't hear out of my left ear. I hate it when I get water in it when I shower. At least I'm not jumping around, pounding my head like Kramer.
At least I made it to class. I haven't made it to class two days on a row in a while. I need to get some coffee later though. I can't seem to function without caffiene.
Here's an interesting question, when three extremely fat punk rockers walk together do they think it is slimming? All of a sudden I feel bad for the people that has to fight them for space at concerts. Creepy.
I've been immersing myself with dmb lately. Can't help it. I'm appreciating it a lot more then before. I'm still trying to figure out who to bring to the concert. I want to go with somebody who really does appreciate the music. A buddy of mine offered to buy the ticket off of me yesterday because he appreciates music in general. I don't think he even knows who they are. What he doesn't realize was I played a fairly large sampling of thier songs the other night in his car when I messed around with his system. He didn't recognize any of it. He just thinks they were interesting. I just feel like it's a band you have to discover.
So today was probably the perfect day to bring my PSP to school. So what do I do? I left it on my bookshelf. It's pretty cool. I'm happy I put the whole thing on 6 months.... Mmmmmm.....
it's all nice and cold again today. People are dressing in darker colors again. Not me though. I threw on my new orange Hollister hoodie. Matches pretty well with my green shoes.
Saw a video on anger management today. It's funny how it made me think of a couple of things going on in my life. I guess I'm back to my "shit happens" mode.
At least I made it to class. I haven't made it to class two days on a row in a while. I need to get some coffee later though. I can't seem to function without caffiene.
Here's an interesting question, when three extremely fat punk rockers walk together do they think it is slimming? All of a sudden I feel bad for the people that has to fight them for space at concerts. Creepy.
I've been immersing myself with dmb lately. Can't help it. I'm appreciating it a lot more then before. I'm still trying to figure out who to bring to the concert. I want to go with somebody who really does appreciate the music. A buddy of mine offered to buy the ticket off of me yesterday because he appreciates music in general. I don't think he even knows who they are. What he doesn't realize was I played a fairly large sampling of thier songs the other night in his car when I messed around with his system. He didn't recognize any of it. He just thinks they were interesting. I just feel like it's a band you have to discover.
So today was probably the perfect day to bring my PSP to school. So what do I do? I left it on my bookshelf. It's pretty cool. I'm happy I put the whole thing on 6 months.... Mmmmmm.....
it's all nice and cold again today. People are dressing in darker colors again. Not me though. I threw on my new orange Hollister hoodie. Matches pretty well with my green shoes.
Saw a video on anger management today. It's funny how it made me think of a couple of things going on in my life. I guess I'm back to my "shit happens" mode.
Monday, June 12, 2006
Where Are You Going
Where are you going, with your long face pulling down?
Don't hide away, like an ocean
But you can't see, but you can... smell
And the sound of waves crashing down
I am no superman
I have no reasons for you
I am no hero; oh that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are, is where I belong
I do know where you go is where I wanna be
Where are you going? where do you go?
Are you looking for answers to questions under the stars?
If along the way you are growing weary, you can rest with me
Until a brighter day and you're OK
I am no superman
and I have no answers for you
I am no hero, oh that's for sure
But I do know one thing is
Where you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I wanna be
Where are you going? Where do you go?0
Where do you go? Where are you going?
Where do you go?
I am no superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero; oh that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are is where I belong
I do know where you go is where I want to be
Where are you going? Where do you go?
-- Busted Stuff -- DMB
Don't hide away, like an ocean
But you can't see, but you can... smell
And the sound of waves crashing down
I am no superman
I have no reasons for you
I am no hero; oh that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are, is where I belong
I do know where you go is where I wanna be
Where are you going? where do you go?
Are you looking for answers to questions under the stars?
If along the way you are growing weary, you can rest with me
Until a brighter day and you're OK
I am no superman
and I have no answers for you
I am no hero, oh that's for sure
But I do know one thing is
Where you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I wanna be
Where are you going? Where do you go?0
Where do you go? Where are you going?
Where do you go?
I am no superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero; oh that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are is where I belong
I do know where you go is where I want to be
Where are you going? Where do you go?
-- Busted Stuff -- DMB
When was the last time....
... I cried to a music video? I just watched the video for "I Will Follow you into the Dark" on Directions.... made me tear up
Someday You Will Be Loved
I once knew a girl
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.
I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
Someday you will be loved
-- Plans -- Death Cab For Cutie
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.
I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
Someday you will be loved
-- Plans -- Death Cab For Cutie
Colors
---------------------RED-----------------------
1. Closest red thing to you?
The Daily Show With Jon Stewart Presents
AMERICA (THE BOOK)
A Citizen's Guide to Democracy Inaction
2. Last thing to make you angry?
A picture, one I still see
3. Do you have a temper?
Of course
4. Are you a fan of romance?
In my life? yah
-------------------ORANGE-------------------
1. Closest orange thing to you:
Papaya Lip Butter from The Body Shop
2. Do you like to burn things?
Love it
3. Dress up for Halloween?
See my pictures
4. Are you usually a warm-hearted person?
Little too much I think
5. Do you have anything against redheaded people?
I don't think I do
6. Are you usually full of energy?
Almost never
-------------------YELLOW-------------------
1. Closest yellow thing to you?
Snatch (Deluxe Edition)
2. The happiest time[s] of your life?
There are many
3. Favorite holiday?
Days when I get to sleep for 12 hours straight
4. Are you a coward?
Sometimes
5. Do you burn or tan?
Tan
-------------------GREEN-------------------
1. Closest green thing to you?
My Bamboos
2. Do you care about the environment?
Sure
3. Are you jealous of anyone right now?
haha, I might still be
4. Are you a lucky person?
Think so
5. Do you always want what you cant have?
There's always something
6. Do you like being outdoors?
Depends on where the outdoors is
7. Are you Irish?:
Nope, but my name is
-------------------BLUE-------------------
1. Closest blue thing to you?
Four issues of Foreign Affairs
2. Are you good at calming people down?
Suprisingly yes
3. Do you like the sea?
Sure why not
4. What was the last thing that made you cry?
Life
5. Are you a logical thinker?
Usually
6. Can you sleep easily?
Yeah a little too much
---------------------PURPLE-------------------
1. Last purple thing you saw?
My bra
2. Like being treated to expensive things?
Who doesn't
3. Do you like mysterious things?
hahaha.... oh I like it mysterious... ya know....
4. Favorite type of chocolate?
Ones in my latte
5. Ever met anyone in royalty?
Can't think of one right now
6. Are you creative?
In a way, yeah
------------------PINK-------------------
1. Closest pink thing to you?
My Nike hair band
2. Do you like sweet things?
Yeah, but not toooo sweet
3. Like play-fighting?
Probably
4. Are you sensitive?
Yeah, way too sensitive
5. Do you like music?
Runs my life....
-------------------WHITE-------------------
1. Closest white thing to you?
JBL iPod dock
2. Would you say you're innocent?
naw
3. good at keeping the peace?
yeah
4. How do you imagine your wedding?
On the Starship Enterprise
5. Do you like to play in the snow?
Yeah
6. Are you afraid of going to the doctors or dentist?
Nope
-------------------BLACK-------------------
1. Closest black thing to you?
My Razr
2. Ever enjoy hurting people?
Yeah I like it rough
3. Are you sophisticated or silly?
Both, at the same time
4. Would you like to go to space?
Yeah I think it would be interesting
5. Do you have a lot of secrets?
Not toooo many
6. What is your favorite color?
used to be blue.... I'm not sure what it is now
7. Does the color you wear affect your mood?
Yes it does
1. Closest red thing to you?
The Daily Show With Jon Stewart Presents
AMERICA (THE BOOK)
A Citizen's Guide to Democracy Inaction
2. Last thing to make you angry?
A picture, one I still see
3. Do you have a temper?
Of course
4. Are you a fan of romance?
In my life? yah
-------------------ORANGE-------------------
1. Closest orange thing to you:
Papaya Lip Butter from The Body Shop
2. Do you like to burn things?
Love it
3. Dress up for Halloween?
See my pictures
4. Are you usually a warm-hearted person?
Little too much I think
5. Do you have anything against redheaded people?
I don't think I do
6. Are you usually full of energy?
Almost never
-------------------YELLOW-------------------
1. Closest yellow thing to you?
Snatch (Deluxe Edition)
2. The happiest time[s] of your life?
There are many
3. Favorite holiday?
Days when I get to sleep for 12 hours straight
4. Are you a coward?
Sometimes
5. Do you burn or tan?
Tan
-------------------GREEN-------------------
1. Closest green thing to you?
My Bamboos
2. Do you care about the environment?
Sure
3. Are you jealous of anyone right now?
haha, I might still be
4. Are you a lucky person?
Think so
5. Do you always want what you cant have?
There's always something
6. Do you like being outdoors?
Depends on where the outdoors is
7. Are you Irish?:
Nope, but my name is
-------------------BLUE-------------------
1. Closest blue thing to you?
Four issues of Foreign Affairs
2. Are you good at calming people down?
Suprisingly yes
3. Do you like the sea?
Sure why not
4. What was the last thing that made you cry?
Life
5. Are you a logical thinker?
Usually
6. Can you sleep easily?
Yeah a little too much
---------------------PURPLE-------------------
1. Last purple thing you saw?
My bra
2. Like being treated to expensive things?
Who doesn't
3. Do you like mysterious things?
hahaha.... oh I like it mysterious... ya know....
4. Favorite type of chocolate?
Ones in my latte
5. Ever met anyone in royalty?
Can't think of one right now
6. Are you creative?
In a way, yeah
------------------PINK-------------------
1. Closest pink thing to you?
My Nike hair band
2. Do you like sweet things?
Yeah, but not toooo sweet
3. Like play-fighting?
Probably
4. Are you sensitive?
Yeah, way too sensitive
5. Do you like music?
Runs my life....
-------------------WHITE-------------------
1. Closest white thing to you?
JBL iPod dock
2. Would you say you're innocent?
naw
3. good at keeping the peace?
yeah
4. How do you imagine your wedding?
On the Starship Enterprise
5. Do you like to play in the snow?
Yeah
6. Are you afraid of going to the doctors or dentist?
Nope
-------------------BLACK-------------------
1. Closest black thing to you?
My Razr
2. Ever enjoy hurting people?
Yeah I like it rough
3. Are you sophisticated or silly?
Both, at the same time
4. Would you like to go to space?
Yeah I think it would be interesting
5. Do you have a lot of secrets?
Not toooo many
6. What is your favorite color?
used to be blue.... I'm not sure what it is now
7. Does the color you wear affect your mood?
Yes it does
Weak
I bought a PSP... yup.... good thing I have it on 6 months.... I also got the Death Cab For Cutie DVD "Directions". Watching that right now, it's quite good. It's all the entire album "Plans" in the newly reworked videos. This is probably the coolest thing I have gotten in a while. Oh and I finally got a proper copy of The Gorge.... yeah I know... I listened to the whole thing last night... figured I will get the copy because it does have the dvd with it.
btw... the Soul Meets Body video is different from the original... they seriously just reworked all of it. This is friggin awsome..... ^_^
Back to playing Lumines
btw... the Soul Meets Body video is different from the original... they seriously just reworked all of it. This is friggin awsome..... ^_^
Back to playing Lumines
karma karma
6/12/2006
karma karma
I'm starting to think it is mostly an attitude thing. The way I treat every situation determines my experience and the outcome. This theory applies to pretty much everything I do. I don't think there is any one defining moment or thing that makes me think of that.
Take school for example. If I never thought it a waste of my time I wouldn't still be in it. A bit ironic I think. I enjoy learning, it's the process I find to be dumb. Nothing I can do about it. Guess I'll have to stop fighting it. Be mediocre and sink to the middle of class isn't that bad I guess. I just despise stupid people. There, I think I turned into my uncle. Long story....
Relationship wise I don't think I have any prospects at the moment. A little while back I was trying to figure out why I want to be with a certain individual. Was it for the relationship or for the person. I can say clearly now it was for the person. But I guess that's besides the point. It is probably not the biggest disaster in the world to not have somebody. I think I would have been perfectly fine if my friend doesn't constantly bitch about how he doesn't have someone. If he misses that person who dumped him almost a year ago, just frigging go slash the tires and get it over with. He's starting to get on my nerve on that. You just have to move on at some point.
I'm running into a bit of a health problem right now. Hopefully it will fix itself. I really don't feel like going to the doctor. I have had a friend being hospitalized for these symptoms, and I don't want to do that any time soon.
I have been pretty stressed out lately. I shut down completely when that happens. It's quite inconvinence really. It's hard to get myself going again. I will be glad when this is over. I looked at myself at the mirror this morning and there is not a lot of life in my eyes. I'm turning into some kind of zombie.
karma karma
I'm starting to think it is mostly an attitude thing. The way I treat every situation determines my experience and the outcome. This theory applies to pretty much everything I do. I don't think there is any one defining moment or thing that makes me think of that.
Take school for example. If I never thought it a waste of my time I wouldn't still be in it. A bit ironic I think. I enjoy learning, it's the process I find to be dumb. Nothing I can do about it. Guess I'll have to stop fighting it. Be mediocre and sink to the middle of class isn't that bad I guess. I just despise stupid people. There, I think I turned into my uncle. Long story....
Relationship wise I don't think I have any prospects at the moment. A little while back I was trying to figure out why I want to be with a certain individual. Was it for the relationship or for the person. I can say clearly now it was for the person. But I guess that's besides the point. It is probably not the biggest disaster in the world to not have somebody. I think I would have been perfectly fine if my friend doesn't constantly bitch about how he doesn't have someone. If he misses that person who dumped him almost a year ago, just frigging go slash the tires and get it over with. He's starting to get on my nerve on that. You just have to move on at some point.
I'm running into a bit of a health problem right now. Hopefully it will fix itself. I really don't feel like going to the doctor. I have had a friend being hospitalized for these symptoms, and I don't want to do that any time soon.
I have been pretty stressed out lately. I shut down completely when that happens. It's quite inconvinence really. It's hard to get myself going again. I will be glad when this is over. I looked at myself at the mirror this morning and there is not a lot of life in my eyes. I'm turning into some kind of zombie.
Soundtrack
I think it's one of those mornings where I get around to listen to Jame Blunt.... yeah it's depressing enough
Fashion... and the like of it.....
I'm always amused by people who thinks they are creating fashion trends by dressing differently. Sometimes they don't think about what exactly what they are doing. For example, I crossed paths with a girl this morning that was wearing neon green plaid jammie pants with a blue sea turtle print shrong on top on that, and some random blue t-shirt. I think it would have been perfetly normal if I had ran into her on the beach at Pismo on a sunny mid summer morning. But no, I saw her on my way to the computer lab on campus on a dreary morning. People, please dress appropriately.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
What Would You Say
Up and down the puppies' hair
Fleas and ticks jump everywhere
'Cause of original sin
Down the hill fell Jack and Jill
And you came tumbling after
'Cause of original sin
Rip away the tears
Drink a hope to happy years
And you may find
A lifetime's passed you by
What would you say
Don't drop the big one
If you a monkey on a string
Don't cut my lifeline
If you a doggie on a chain
Don't bite the mailman
What would you say
I was there when the bear
Are his head, thought it was a candy
Everyone goes in the end
Knock knock on the door
Who's it for, there's nobody in here
Look in the mirror my friend
I don't understand at best
And cannot speak for all the rest
In the morning rise
A lifetime's passed me by
What would you say
Don't drop the big one
If you a monkey on a string
Don't cut my lifeline
If you a doggie on a chain
Don't bite the mailman
What would you say
Every dog has its day every day has its way
Of being forgotten -
Mom it's my birthday
What would you say
-- Under The Table & Dreaming -- DMB
Fleas and ticks jump everywhere
'Cause of original sin
Down the hill fell Jack and Jill
And you came tumbling after
'Cause of original sin
Rip away the tears
Drink a hope to happy years
And you may find
A lifetime's passed you by
What would you say
Don't drop the big one
If you a monkey on a string
Don't cut my lifeline
If you a doggie on a chain
Don't bite the mailman
What would you say
I was there when the bear
Are his head, thought it was a candy
Everyone goes in the end
Knock knock on the door
Who's it for, there's nobody in here
Look in the mirror my friend
I don't understand at best
And cannot speak for all the rest
In the morning rise
A lifetime's passed me by
What would you say
Don't drop the big one
If you a monkey on a string
Don't cut my lifeline
If you a doggie on a chain
Don't bite the mailman
What would you say
Every dog has its day every day has its way
Of being forgotten -
Mom it's my birthday
What would you say
-- Under The Table & Dreaming -- DMB
been a while
That was the first time in a very long time that I actually finished some homework.... pretty interesting I think. At least I'm working to be back on track... *sigh*
Block
So I don't know if I'm having some sort of writers block or just am lazy. I have this thing I have to write for a class and I'm totally not writing it right now. Yeah I end up listening to The Gorge and writing here.... dreaming about that webpage I'm going to make this summer. Stuff like that. This week is going to be pretty rough. *sigh*
Slow down
I took some time out today. Well that's an understatment, I slept till almost 1. Didn't get around to do much.
Did talked to my mom for a little while about my school/career outlook. Got a lot off my chest.... well not all of it, but a good chunk. Suck it up I guess. She told me she's been pretty proud of me for the last 10 months or so. Finally had the courage to break of the relationship, lost a lot of weight, doing well at work and school (ahem...) and such.
I'm always looking at the negative though. So that is part of why I'm so depressed all the time.
We then went for some dinner and did a little shopping. I got 2 pairs of jeans, 2 t-shirts, and a belt. I enjoy these things, and I do realize I need that friggin diploma to really enjoy it. I explained to her how hard it is for me to be in school, things I've observed. My brain isn't built the way school is designed for (if that makes sense). I'm always very short sighted. I can't see the future. Thank god I'm not alone. Thanks Lyle for telling me that.... and I'll think about visiting your crazy ass in Africa.
I've been thinking a lot about relationships lately. I really do crave one. I want to have somebody to take care of me. I'm jealous of some people I know. It was funny to hear my mom telling me how this is not even the worse scenario they have thought up. The absolute worst thing they can think of is if I had ran off to LA with him. Which was never going to happen because I can't stay in that town for long, plus I know he wasn't the responsible type. So there it was, I had my chance and I got out. I think on some level I still feel bad about it. But I guess that was the best thing for me to do.
I feel like I need to be rescued from myself sometimes. And I think today was one of those rare times when I actually got a hand from my Mom. It's not like she was not willing before, it was because she was far away. I can't really cry to someone that's a 3 hours drive away when the person next to me was totally oblivious.
I have to learn to stop digging a ditch when things don't go my way.
I do realize another thing. I enjoy having chaos in my life. Maybe it's because I grew up with such structure. Or maybe it's the way I'm wired. I don't know. My head is totally chaotic. Maybe I should learn to be a writer. I'll probably come up with something totally random. Although I have proven I'm not very creative.... very interesting.....
I did get around to watch two movies tonight, Bewitched and Fun with Dick and Jane. Pretty good I think. Have to remember to add those to the side bar. Anyway, not my point. I saw a preview for Click. Now here's the thing.... they lifted a joke right out of Family Guy. The man goes to Bed, Bath and Beyond, at the Beyond section and finds Christopher Walken and gets a Universal Remote. Good thing he didn't knock over the mugs.
Anyway I think that's all for now.... It's almost 2, I have a meeting at 8, and somebody is bugging me about switching to Verizon. Good times ^_^
Did talked to my mom for a little while about my school/career outlook. Got a lot off my chest.... well not all of it, but a good chunk. Suck it up I guess. She told me she's been pretty proud of me for the last 10 months or so. Finally had the courage to break of the relationship, lost a lot of weight, doing well at work and school (ahem...) and such.
I'm always looking at the negative though. So that is part of why I'm so depressed all the time.
We then went for some dinner and did a little shopping. I got 2 pairs of jeans, 2 t-shirts, and a belt. I enjoy these things, and I do realize I need that friggin diploma to really enjoy it. I explained to her how hard it is for me to be in school, things I've observed. My brain isn't built the way school is designed for (if that makes sense). I'm always very short sighted. I can't see the future. Thank god I'm not alone. Thanks Lyle for telling me that.... and I'll think about visiting your crazy ass in Africa.
I've been thinking a lot about relationships lately. I really do crave one. I want to have somebody to take care of me. I'm jealous of some people I know. It was funny to hear my mom telling me how this is not even the worse scenario they have thought up. The absolute worst thing they can think of is if I had ran off to LA with him. Which was never going to happen because I can't stay in that town for long, plus I know he wasn't the responsible type. So there it was, I had my chance and I got out. I think on some level I still feel bad about it. But I guess that was the best thing for me to do.
I feel like I need to be rescued from myself sometimes. And I think today was one of those rare times when I actually got a hand from my Mom. It's not like she was not willing before, it was because she was far away. I can't really cry to someone that's a 3 hours drive away when the person next to me was totally oblivious.
I have to learn to stop digging a ditch when things don't go my way.
I do realize another thing. I enjoy having chaos in my life. Maybe it's because I grew up with such structure. Or maybe it's the way I'm wired. I don't know. My head is totally chaotic. Maybe I should learn to be a writer. I'll probably come up with something totally random. Although I have proven I'm not very creative.... very interesting.....
I did get around to watch two movies tonight, Bewitched and Fun with Dick and Jane. Pretty good I think. Have to remember to add those to the side bar. Anyway, not my point. I saw a preview for Click. Now here's the thing.... they lifted a joke right out of Family Guy. The man goes to Bed, Bath and Beyond, at the Beyond section and finds Christopher Walken and gets a Universal Remote. Good thing he didn't knock over the mugs.
Anyway I think that's all for now.... It's almost 2, I have a meeting at 8, and somebody is bugging me about switching to Verizon. Good times ^_^
Saturday, June 10, 2006
bliss is
Getting two pairs of really comfy Abercrombie jeans 30 bucks below retail... amongst other things
Captain
Crazy as I may make my way through this world
It’s for no one but me to say what direction I shall turn
I am the captain of this ship
Curious hands and fingertips
Day after day how I long for you my love how I long
Strange but it seems like there’s a mutiny brewing inside me
But I don’t want your pity only the promise that you’ll stay with me tonight
Now I am the captain of this ship
Curious hands and fingertips
Day after day oh how I long for you like crazy
Oh our love - how you do me
Oh my love - come now lets go again
Oh our love - everything
Oh won’t play with me again got all night
Same old song won’t you come stay all my life after all
Oh how could I even try to fight after falling into your arms?
Oh mesmerized by your smile the way it lights up under your eyes
Oh how could I even try love won’t you stay with me?
Oh our love - how you do me
Oh my love - come now lets go again
Oh our love - everything
Oh won’t play with me again we got all night
The same old song
Won’t you come dance with me my love after all?
-- Busted Stuff -- DMB
It’s for no one but me to say what direction I shall turn
I am the captain of this ship
Curious hands and fingertips
Day after day how I long for you my love how I long
Strange but it seems like there’s a mutiny brewing inside me
But I don’t want your pity only the promise that you’ll stay with me tonight
Now I am the captain of this ship
Curious hands and fingertips
Day after day oh how I long for you like crazy
Oh our love - how you do me
Oh my love - come now lets go again
Oh our love - everything
Oh won’t play with me again got all night
Same old song won’t you come stay all my life after all
Oh how could I even try to fight after falling into your arms?
Oh mesmerized by your smile the way it lights up under your eyes
Oh how could I even try love won’t you stay with me?
Oh our love - how you do me
Oh my love - come now lets go again
Oh our love - everything
Oh won’t play with me again we got all night
The same old song
Won’t you come dance with me my love after all?
-- Busted Stuff -- DMB
Save Me
I'm driving through the desert I, met a man
Who told me of his crazy plan
He'd been walking there for 20 days
He was going to walk on
For 20 more
Said "How about a drink or a bite to eat?"
He said "No, my faith is all I need"
So then, save me
Save me mister walking man
If you can
You don't need to prove a thing to me
Just give me faith, make me believe
Come on, save me
Save me Mister walking man
If you can
Come on, save me
Save me Mister stranger
If you please save me
Save me
Stranger, if you please
Or am I too far gone
I see to get back home
To get back home
How about you take a ride with me
We could kill some time, shoot the breeze
He said "every whispering wind and second counts"
Oh, maybe if you walk, but you should drive around
Save me
Save me
Mr walking man, if you can
Come on, save me
Save me Mr stranger, if you please
Save me, save me
Stranger, if you please
Or am I too far gone
To get back home
To get back home
I don't need you to stall for some time, no
I don't need you to turn water into wine, no
I don't need you to, to fly
I'm just asking you to save me
Might try savin' yourself
I'm gonna save me
Might try savin' yourself
I swear those lips shine
Might try savin' yourself
As it, the moon, the moon it shines
Might try savin' yourself
Why don't you, save me
Might try savin' yourself
Come on and save me
Might try savin' yourself
-- Some Devil -- DMB
Who told me of his crazy plan
He'd been walking there for 20 days
He was going to walk on
For 20 more
Said "How about a drink or a bite to eat?"
He said "No, my faith is all I need"
So then, save me
Save me mister walking man
If you can
You don't need to prove a thing to me
Just give me faith, make me believe
Come on, save me
Save me Mister walking man
If you can
Come on, save me
Save me Mister stranger
If you please save me
Save me
Stranger, if you please
Or am I too far gone
I see to get back home
To get back home
How about you take a ride with me
We could kill some time, shoot the breeze
He said "every whispering wind and second counts"
Oh, maybe if you walk, but you should drive around
Save me
Save me
Mr walking man, if you can
Come on, save me
Save me Mr stranger, if you please
Save me, save me
Stranger, if you please
Or am I too far gone
To get back home
To get back home
I don't need you to stall for some time, no
I don't need you to turn water into wine, no
I don't need you to, to fly
I'm just asking you to save me
Might try savin' yourself
I'm gonna save me
Might try savin' yourself
I swear those lips shine
Might try savin' yourself
As it, the moon, the moon it shines
Might try savin' yourself
Why don't you, save me
Might try savin' yourself
Come on and save me
Might try savin' yourself
-- Some Devil -- DMB
Getting over myself
I have just had 12 hours of uninterrupted sleep. I feel like a new person. Nothing is ever really that bad. I guess going to Cluck U and having 2 pints of Hef last night with some friends helped. Just get up and fix things and I'll be alright. I'm glad I have the day off.
Friday, June 9, 2006
Just so....
Dammit I hate looking at it, her hair is just so.... bleh..... Too curvy and shiny..... it's so trashy. bleh.
Physically....
I made myself feel physically sick today. I think it was a combination of things. It could be whatever I ate, it could be all this uneasy feeling I've been having, or maybe it's because I looked him in the eyes for the first time in a very long time. I got physically sick. I got dizzy and puked. I'm storing all the stress in my back. I want to get so plastered that I won't know what day it is. It's nice not to have responsibility and desire. I need to be hating something right now.
I don't....
I realize I don't open up to someone so easily. I feel betrayed. Yeah I think that's it. That's what I'm feeling right now.
So...
I asked you if you want to go to a party with me tomorrow night. You said that would be cool, although it is also your friend's birthday thing. So you don't know. It's ok, I totally understand. I was bored and flipped around some of people's myspace, and I realize who's birthday it is. I don't know why I'm so jealous of your new unofficial girlfriend. I just get this jealous rage. I seriously want to punch you in the face. But I can't. It really is not my place. Why did I even ask you after you totally flaked on me the other day? I don't know. It pisses me off when I'm such a fucking door mat. Why do people always trade down from me? Makes no friggin sense. This whole relationship thing sucks ass. I'm so fed up with it.
Thursday, June 8, 2006
close my eyes....
I don't want to close my eyes. I know I will start crying. I've had one of the worst days of my life. It's nothing too major, it's just things accumulating. I've somehow become self destructive again. I don't know how it started. It just is. I need to turn it around again. I need to pick myself back up. I feel like I'm drowning today. I've been running away from my reality. I feel like I'm watching a train wreck, and it's my life.
Everything hurts.
Everything hurts.
Gravedigger
Cyrus Jones 1810 to 1913
Made his great grandchildren believe
You can live to 103
And a hundred and three is forever when you’re just a little kid
So, Cyrus Jones lived forever
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
Muriel Stonewall 1903 to 1954
She lost both of her babies in the second great war
Now, you should never have to watch your only children lowered in the ground
I mean - you should never have to bury your own babies
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
Ring around the rosey
Pocket full of posey
Ashes to ashes
{Musical intro}
We all fall down
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
Little Mikey Carson '67 to '75
He rode his bike like the devil until the day he died
When he grows up he wants to be Mr. Vertigo on the flying trapeze
Oh, 1940 to 1992--
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Grave digger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
I can feel the rain
I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
Grave digger
-- Some Devil - DMB
Made his great grandchildren believe
You can live to 103
And a hundred and three is forever when you’re just a little kid
So, Cyrus Jones lived forever
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
Muriel Stonewall 1903 to 1954
She lost both of her babies in the second great war
Now, you should never have to watch your only children lowered in the ground
I mean - you should never have to bury your own babies
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
Ring around the rosey
Pocket full of posey
Ashes to ashes
{Musical intro}
We all fall down
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
Little Mikey Carson '67 to '75
He rode his bike like the devil until the day he died
When he grows up he wants to be Mr. Vertigo on the flying trapeze
Oh, 1940 to 1992--
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Grave digger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
I can feel the rain
I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
Grave digger
-- Some Devil - DMB
Wednesday, June 7, 2006
Depressed
Yeah I'm pretty depressed right now. So many things. School, work, and life in general. I'm rolling back over and putting the covers over my head. Maybe everything will go away.
Tuesday, June 6, 2006
another turn
I mentioned to a friend last night how I was predicting I will have a dream about one of the three people I have talked about. He said maybe all three. We were both wrong, it was somebody else. Somebody even more wrong. It is true that he would be perfect. There are just a few major contingencies. I'm not going to get into that. I just find it funny how my mind wanders while I sleep.
Monday, June 5, 2006
feel like....
I felt like kissing him today. It's weird to all of a sudden have that feeling again. To have abandoned it for so long. I remember looking at him and just saying to myself, I need to look away. I felt his eyes on me, it's like he's seeing me for the first time.
6/4
I was 7, and I knew what it was about. I wouldn't have had the courage to do the things those people did, and I still don't. I've been lucky. I do remember making my parents take me to the subsequent protest marches across HK, but that's about it. I don't have the ideals, and I don't have the courage. It's like that most of my life. Just looking in from the sidelines, hoping I will one day have the courage to jump in. I'm still waiting for that day.
Sunday, June 4, 2006
hair
I got a haircut yesterday. I finally got sick of all that hair, and people asking me if I'm growing it out. No. I'm (was) not growing it out. I've been too damn lazy to get a cut. It looked pretty good for a while, but it got old. I used to have really long hair, all the way down my waist. Got sick of trying to take care of it. I look better with shorter hair anyway. It's slimming too I think... haha.
Work had been.... with the lack of better description... long. By all means it wasn't bad, it just felt long sometimes.
Last night was interesting. We sold 6 laptops, 2 copies of norton, and 2 copies of office in one transaction. The catch is, I have to have all of those installed in an hour..... So that's for each laptop: get out of box, put in power, put in proxy, install norton, get norton updates, intall office, activate office, take out proxy, pack it back. Yeah, I lined all 6 of them up on the counter and jumped back and forth.... after I chugged 2 bottles of coke blak that is..... I managed to have all that done, plus have their other open box tablet pc restored... in under an hour. I R ROXORZ! lol.... ok I had a little bit of help.... but for the most part I managed to do it myself ^_^
Work had been.... with the lack of better description... long. By all means it wasn't bad, it just felt long sometimes.
Last night was interesting. We sold 6 laptops, 2 copies of norton, and 2 copies of office in one transaction. The catch is, I have to have all of those installed in an hour..... So that's for each laptop: get out of box, put in power, put in proxy, install norton, get norton updates, intall office, activate office, take out proxy, pack it back. Yeah, I lined all 6 of them up on the counter and jumped back and forth.... after I chugged 2 bottles of coke blak that is..... I managed to have all that done, plus have their other open box tablet pc restored... in under an hour. I R ROXORZ! lol.... ok I had a little bit of help.... but for the most part I managed to do it myself ^_^
Saturday, June 3, 2006
where I'm at
I'm at one of those points in my life where I know I need to take some action, but I've settled into a routine. Maybe I'm just too busy to realize what really is going on. Well ok I know what's going to happen, but it's just that I'm not doing anything about it. Lot's of excuses that is. Yeah. I'm so friggin lazy.
Thursday, June 1, 2006
June
8:35am
I'm not against people wearing bright colors, but I am against people wearing it wrong. Let's examin the ensamble. A bright yellow flamago dress with a bright red cardigan on a tiny asian girl walking across campus on a warm June morning. Notice I included the surrounding. It just looks a little off to me. I dunno, it did wake me up a bit.
I'm so tired. I went to bed last night and I don't think i moved until my alarm went off. I'm still pretty sleepy right now. I was so tired last night at bowling I dropped the ball. That's what I get for being on my feet all day. My days are sometimes rediculously long. I am about to pass out right now. I think I actually will need an espresso today. I've been trying to ween myself off of it.
I want to get that espresso maker from work. I wonder how well it works. It may be a bit more expensive to get the pods for it, but it will still be cheaper then to get one at a coffee shop. Something to think about I suppose.
I can't believe I got up this morning. It felt so nice to take that shower though. The problem is, i'm so comfy now I want to go back to sleep. Good times.
I looked up my psp on my pda this week. I've had this for quite a while. And iths still not dead. I'm pretty happy about that. Especially since sony doesn't make this anymore. If this breaks I think I might upgrade my phone to a treo or something.
I should have put on another fragrance this morning. The yummy vanilla is making me sleepy. How am I going to stay awake for the next few hours?
I ramble when I'm tired.
10:15am
I fell asleep in my first class. Got an espresso and took a midterm. I'm so mellow right now I'm freaking myself out. My back is still very tight. I seriously need that massage soon. Maybe I can schedule it for monday or tuesday. Mmmmmm....
I really should get my room cleaned out so I can have my yoga space. Trying to do my breathing exercise on the bed or on that tight space on the floor just doesn't cut it. That's a project for when I have time. I did try to clear off more crap from my room the other day, that's got to count a bit.
I know I have a to do list lying around somewhere. The actual one, not the one on my pda that I usually disregard. Yeah.... I only have three more items left on it then it's finals time. Good flipping times.
I think I am suppose to get my first movies from netflix today. Let the great experiment begin.... I really need to finish filing my cd collection. I still have at least 2 large folders worth of them to go through. So my plan is, get all my cds, dvds, games into those boxes for easy selection, put data discs in folders, and whatever I find that belongs to bob into the mid size folder I got for that purpose. Yeah, spring cleaning. That's something I really really want to get done.
Dammit the espresso is wearing off already, it's only been an hour. Man I guess I'm a lot more fatiqued then I thought. Frigging long ass days....
10:40am
I'm watching Oprah. I love this class. I frigging watched this last month. Love It! Lol...
11:31am
Every time I walk into this class I feel my intellect fleeing. I can't believe I have been to every session of this class this week. Feel like going postal.
I'm not against people wearing bright colors, but I am against people wearing it wrong. Let's examin the ensamble. A bright yellow flamago dress with a bright red cardigan on a tiny asian girl walking across campus on a warm June morning. Notice I included the surrounding. It just looks a little off to me. I dunno, it did wake me up a bit.
I'm so tired. I went to bed last night and I don't think i moved until my alarm went off. I'm still pretty sleepy right now. I was so tired last night at bowling I dropped the ball. That's what I get for being on my feet all day. My days are sometimes rediculously long. I am about to pass out right now. I think I actually will need an espresso today. I've been trying to ween myself off of it.
I want to get that espresso maker from work. I wonder how well it works. It may be a bit more expensive to get the pods for it, but it will still be cheaper then to get one at a coffee shop. Something to think about I suppose.
I can't believe I got up this morning. It felt so nice to take that shower though. The problem is, i'm so comfy now I want to go back to sleep. Good times.
I looked up my psp on my pda this week. I've had this for quite a while. And iths still not dead. I'm pretty happy about that. Especially since sony doesn't make this anymore. If this breaks I think I might upgrade my phone to a treo or something.
I should have put on another fragrance this morning. The yummy vanilla is making me sleepy. How am I going to stay awake for the next few hours?
I ramble when I'm tired.
10:15am
I fell asleep in my first class. Got an espresso and took a midterm. I'm so mellow right now I'm freaking myself out. My back is still very tight. I seriously need that massage soon. Maybe I can schedule it for monday or tuesday. Mmmmmm....
I really should get my room cleaned out so I can have my yoga space. Trying to do my breathing exercise on the bed or on that tight space on the floor just doesn't cut it. That's a project for when I have time. I did try to clear off more crap from my room the other day, that's got to count a bit.
I know I have a to do list lying around somewhere. The actual one, not the one on my pda that I usually disregard. Yeah.... I only have three more items left on it then it's finals time. Good flipping times.
I think I am suppose to get my first movies from netflix today. Let the great experiment begin.... I really need to finish filing my cd collection. I still have at least 2 large folders worth of them to go through. So my plan is, get all my cds, dvds, games into those boxes for easy selection, put data discs in folders, and whatever I find that belongs to bob into the mid size folder I got for that purpose. Yeah, spring cleaning. That's something I really really want to get done.
Dammit the espresso is wearing off already, it's only been an hour. Man I guess I'm a lot more fatiqued then I thought. Frigging long ass days....
10:40am
I'm watching Oprah. I love this class. I frigging watched this last month. Love It! Lol...
11:31am
Every time I walk into this class I feel my intellect fleeing. I can't believe I have been to every session of this class this week. Feel like going postal.
Crush
Crazy how it feels tonight
Crazy how you make it all alright love
Crush me with the things you do
And I do for you anything too
Sitting smoking feeling high
And in this moment it feels so right
Lovely lady
I am at your feet
God I want you so badly
And I wonder this
Could tomorrow be
So wondrous as you there sleeping
Let's go drive 'till morning comes
And watch the sunrise and fill our souls up
Drink some wine 'till we get drunk
It's crazy I'm thinking
Just knowing that the world is round
And here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
And is this real or am I dreaming
Lovely lady
Let me drink you please
Won't spill a drop, no, I promise you
Lying under this spell you cast on me
Each moment
The more I love you
Crush me
Come on, oh yeah
It's crazy I'm thinking
Just knowing that the world is round
And here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
Is this real or am I dreaming
Lovely lady
I will treat you sweetly
Adore you I mean you crush me
And it's times like these
When my faith I feel
And I know how I love you
Come on, Come on
Baby
It's crazy I'm thinking
just as long as you're around
And here I'll be dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
To each other we'll be facing
My love
By love
We'll beat back the pain we've found
You know
I mean to tell you all the things I've been thinking deep inside
My friend
Each moment the more I love you
Crush me
Come on
Baby
So much you have given love
That I would give you back again and again
Oh my love
Meaning I'll hold you
But please please let me always
-- Before These Crowded Streets -- DMB
Crazy how you make it all alright love
Crush me with the things you do
And I do for you anything too
Sitting smoking feeling high
And in this moment it feels so right
Lovely lady
I am at your feet
God I want you so badly
And I wonder this
Could tomorrow be
So wondrous as you there sleeping
Let's go drive 'till morning comes
And watch the sunrise and fill our souls up
Drink some wine 'till we get drunk
It's crazy I'm thinking
Just knowing that the world is round
And here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
And is this real or am I dreaming
Lovely lady
Let me drink you please
Won't spill a drop, no, I promise you
Lying under this spell you cast on me
Each moment
The more I love you
Crush me
Come on, oh yeah
It's crazy I'm thinking
Just knowing that the world is round
And here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
Is this real or am I dreaming
Lovely lady
I will treat you sweetly
Adore you I mean you crush me
And it's times like these
When my faith I feel
And I know how I love you
Come on, Come on
Baby
It's crazy I'm thinking
just as long as you're around
And here I'll be dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
To each other we'll be facing
My love
By love
We'll beat back the pain we've found
You know
I mean to tell you all the things I've been thinking deep inside
My friend
Each moment the more I love you
Crush me
Come on
Baby
So much you have given love
That I would give you back again and again
Oh my love
Meaning I'll hold you
But please please let me always
-- Before These Crowded Streets -- DMB
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