Let's take a listen:
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
School, Take 2
I'm a whole lot more prepared today. Brought my power chord and short data cable. The only classes of which I can use my laptop to take notes are in the building where there are power outlets and network ports on the table. I'm fairly happy about that. My break in between class feels longer today. Maybe it's because I didn't have to run all over the place getting things done. I think I have one more thing to take care of, but that's all the way by my car. I'll go after my next three classes and before I fetch my books.
I just found microwaves. Make note of that the next time I try to figure out what to eat for lunch or dinner. It's not even 10 in the morning and I'm tired already. I have class till 8:45 tonight. Yup. Long day. I will have to find some coffee or maybe a Jamba Juice sometime during the day. The prospect of being here for another 11 hours is actually a bit discouraging. Maybe it's because my phone is unusually quiet today.
I took a really good shower this morning. My hair was all oily and I felt icky all over when I woke up. I think it's the shampoo I've been using of late, doesn't really control the oiliness. Anyway, now my hair is nice and silky. Just keep loosing it though.... I need to cut it some time soon. It's at a really good length right now, but it's just way too easy to pull my hair out. Not cool. My pony tail is so pretty.... lol. Yeah i know... make up my damn mind.
I really should start getting some homework done. Get some readings done, do homework. I'll have a few hours to kill before my last class. That's really what I have been hoping for with this crazy schedule. It forces me to get work done because I really don't have much else I can do otherwise.... lol. Anyway I guess I should get to class.
I just found microwaves. Make note of that the next time I try to figure out what to eat for lunch or dinner. It's not even 10 in the morning and I'm tired already. I have class till 8:45 tonight. Yup. Long day. I will have to find some coffee or maybe a Jamba Juice sometime during the day. The prospect of being here for another 11 hours is actually a bit discouraging. Maybe it's because my phone is unusually quiet today.
I took a really good shower this morning. My hair was all oily and I felt icky all over when I woke up. I think it's the shampoo I've been using of late, doesn't really control the oiliness. Anyway, now my hair is nice and silky. Just keep loosing it though.... I need to cut it some time soon. It's at a really good length right now, but it's just way too easy to pull my hair out. Not cool. My pony tail is so pretty.... lol. Yeah i know... make up my damn mind.
I really should start getting some homework done. Get some readings done, do homework. I'll have a few hours to kill before my last class. That's really what I have been hoping for with this crazy schedule. It forces me to get work done because I really don't have much else I can do otherwise.... lol. Anyway I guess I should get to class.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Crochet
I can't stop. I keep making throws. And they are getting bigger and bigger. Maybe some of you can expect one in the mail in a few months? lol...
Thursday, January 25, 2007
School
*note* Thanks to TJ I am able to log in for now and load.... read on... read on...
Ok here’s a fun one…. There is apparently campus wide wireless service… and I’m not on it. Somehow my ID is not coded into the system yet… so no go on that. I was wise enough the other day to hook up my phone to the laptop to get some sort of connectivity… and what do I do? I forget to bring my flipping usb cord to school. Great….
On a random side note… I just saw an asian chick walking by in a Naruto jacket…. *sigh* The fun of people watching.
How do I have so much free time you say? I have an hour to kill every day I have class. I have a 7:30am class… that is suppose to end at 8:45, then the next class is 10:30. Yup. The union in the morning is a great thing. Warm and quiet. People are not awake yet. We were let out half an hour early today because it is still the first day… that’s another story. I tried to get some stuff done… I tried to get the stupid wireless to work… found where the help desk is actually located and talked to one of the more mostly unhelpful persons…. Put in a trouble ticket. Went to find the other classrooms… one of them is actually a bit of a trek to get to… since that’s the only one that is not in the one building I’m going to live in…. Milled around the union for a little bit… looked at the bowling alley. Doesn’t look bad… ran into an old coworker there, Brian H., he was thinking about adding to the bowling class. So other then that… here I am, waiting for my next class in the bowels of the union… not online.
So my first class was kind of dry. Green sheet, just the prof talking. He was ask questions that he answers himself. Yes. It was just a little bit annoying. But he seems to be a pretty good lecturer. I really don’t think I can use the laptop too much in that class… except for pulling up excel worksheets and stuff on there. So I’ll have to see. I like using OneNote so far. Keeps everything fairly organized. I think I can get used to it. I can link Word documents to it and stuff… it’s actually fun. The battery life on this laptop is actually pretty good. I can get used to this. Not being tether to the wall. I think this thing may last all day. I think on Tuesday, when I’m here till like 9, I have to plug it in for a bit. But I love this thing so far. Next time I’m in the store I’ll probably pick up a short network cable and a 5 pin USB cable. The other option is
So yeah… nothing really interesting so far. I’m acting like I’ve been here all along. Not too bad….
Ok here’s a fun one…. There is apparently campus wide wireless service… and I’m not on it. Somehow my ID is not coded into the system yet… so no go on that. I was wise enough the other day to hook up my phone to the laptop to get some sort of connectivity… and what do I do? I forget to bring my flipping usb cord to school. Great….
On a random side note… I just saw an asian chick walking by in a Naruto jacket…. *sigh* The fun of people watching.
How do I have so much free time you say? I have an hour to kill every day I have class. I have a 7:30am class… that is suppose to end at 8:45, then the next class is 10:30. Yup. The union in the morning is a great thing. Warm and quiet. People are not awake yet. We were let out half an hour early today because it is still the first day… that’s another story. I tried to get some stuff done… I tried to get the stupid wireless to work… found where the help desk is actually located and talked to one of the more mostly unhelpful persons…. Put in a trouble ticket. Went to find the other classrooms… one of them is actually a bit of a trek to get to… since that’s the only one that is not in the one building I’m going to live in…. Milled around the union for a little bit… looked at the bowling alley. Doesn’t look bad… ran into an old coworker there, Brian H., he was thinking about adding to the bowling class. So other then that… here I am, waiting for my next class in the bowels of the union… not online.
So my first class was kind of dry. Green sheet, just the prof talking. He was ask questions that he answers himself. Yes. It was just a little bit annoying. But he seems to be a pretty good lecturer. I really don’t think I can use the laptop too much in that class… except for pulling up excel worksheets and stuff on there. So I’ll have to see. I like using OneNote so far. Keeps everything fairly organized. I think I can get used to it. I can link Word documents to it and stuff… it’s actually fun. The battery life on this laptop is actually pretty good. I can get used to this. Not being tether to the wall. I think this thing may last all day. I think on Tuesday, when I’m here till like 9, I have to plug it in for a bit. But I love this thing so far. Next time I’m in the store I’ll probably pick up a short network cable and a 5 pin USB cable. The other option is
So yeah… nothing really interesting so far. I’m acting like I’ve been here all along. Not too bad….
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Weirdo Tag
mmmm.... I don't think I've ever been tagged before... lol
Ok 6 things that are totally weird about myself, and I have to tag 6 more people. Sadly I think Carrie is the only person that reads this thing... so let's just leave it at why I'm werid.
1) I like to hang out at my place of work when I'm OFF! That's what happens when you put a shopaholic in retail.
2) I am addicted to my phone. I left it at home one day... and I sware I went through withdrawl....
3) I am actually looking forward to go to school. 'nuff said...
4) I crochet. Nothing fancy. Just gigantic throws that takes forever. For those of you who knows me, you know that's kinda out of character.
mmm... that's all I can think of for now... I'll probably think of other stuff later =P
Ok 6 things that are totally weird about myself, and I have to tag 6 more people. Sadly I think Carrie is the only person that reads this thing... so let's just leave it at why I'm werid.
1) I like to hang out at my place of work when I'm OFF! That's what happens when you put a shopaholic in retail.
2) I am addicted to my phone. I left it at home one day... and I sware I went through withdrawl....
3) I am actually looking forward to go to school. 'nuff said...
4) I crochet. Nothing fancy. Just gigantic throws that takes forever. For those of you who knows me, you know that's kinda out of character.
mmm... that's all I can think of for now... I'll probably think of other stuff later =P
Sunday, January 21, 2007
hollow
I should feel happy and energized. It just feels like something is missing. Everything I have set out to do I have done right. But something still doesn't feel right. I can't quite put my finger on it. I just feel uneasy all the time. I've become a little obsessed about cleaning up my room. My mom even commented on how it's starting to look like a show room. I think she's right about that. It actually is starting to look more like a hotel room to me. From certain angles. I don't know. I think something is wrong with me. I feel the need to put some order into my life. More like an urge. Even if everything measurable is going right, it still feels like I'm spinning out of control. Maybe it's just inertia... but why do I feel so hollow inside?
Friday, January 19, 2007
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Busy
Today I....
1) got a student ID
2) changed my major
3) spent so much money on text books I almost cried
4) got piggie food
5) got next week's schedule
6) did grocery
7) made a lasagna... ready to bake when I get home tomorrow night
8) made quinoa salad... for lunch
There were other stuff in between... failed attempt to get gas (costco pumps are under construction), got a polish dog, milled around costco for a bit, hung around the store for a little while gossiping about the personal changes.... anyway... loads of stuff actually accomplished... plus I actually got everything off my grocery list... and used it all.... fun fun...
So I feel good today. I got stuff done. For once ^_^
1) got a student ID
2) changed my major
3) spent so much money on text books I almost cried
4) got piggie food
5) got next week's schedule
6) did grocery
7) made a lasagna... ready to bake when I get home tomorrow night
8) made quinoa salad... for lunch
There were other stuff in between... failed attempt to get gas (costco pumps are under construction), got a polish dog, milled around costco for a bit, hung around the store for a little while gossiping about the personal changes.... anyway... loads of stuff actually accomplished... plus I actually got everything off my grocery list... and used it all.... fun fun...
So I feel good today. I got stuff done. For once ^_^
Happy
This is one of those weird night when I feel accomplished. I feel like for once my life is more or less back on track. Of course I can nitpick on the little things I haven't gotten around to do... but the point is, things seems to be going right, and I feel like I've done things in my life right for once.
The last two days I have not set foot out of the door and I didn't even notice it. I seriously staying in my room the majority of the time and it didn't bother me. I got a lot of house work done and I threw away a whole bunch of stuff. There is actually free room on my desk... *gasp*. I also cleared some more space on my book shelf so I can put the stuff for this semester in it and have some throw space (where I throw random stuff in). I even took down everything off the top of it and dusted it as well as my desk. It looks weird not covered in a dust cloud. I also found about 8 pairs of headphones on my desk. I kept two, one for good music the other for chatting. I did many loads of laundry. I even washed my sheets and duvet cover. Not only that... I managed to put the comforter back into it by myself afterward after I flipped the matress (it was getting lumpy... I sleep on one side). It feels like I'm starting with one corner of my room and progressing throughout it. So I have my office corner and sleeping quarters done, I need to work on the rest of the room. My room has become a sort of sancturary to me. I love to be in here because I am comfortable here. There are so much work left to be done. Cleaning up my mess. I was watching Oprah one day and Nate was saying how a person's home should be a reflection of who she is. They were talking about living rooms, but this is the one room in the house that is truly my own. The person should be dressed like the room. My room is simple and cluttered.... I don't know about the whole dress thing. I mean, I don't really wear purple that much... orange and brown more so lately. I do carry a whole bunch of crap in my bag when I decide to carry one. Everything is simple and eclectic. Purple walls, white bookshelf, wooden bookshelf, metal rack. On one side I have an opened up computer buried amongst paper. The other corner I have Tigger ears on top of maracas draped with a black feater boa. On the metal rack is thousands of dollars worth of dvds, cds, tv shows, computer games, on top of two boxes of cosmetic and body products. And yet on another a a shelf full of books.... dominated by classics and non-fiction. There is so much going on here. If you walk in here without knowing me, you can draw so many conclusions about me. Who am I really? I like to think of myself as being unique. When I go through the stuff in my room it's like rediscovering myself all over again. I have things in here that I don't remember acquiring. So yes, again... I am finding myself to be a more or less interesting person. I'm thinking a short documentation is needed of this. I should go take a random picture of my room every once in awhile and explain why those objects are in my room, and what it means about me.... hum... interesting.....
Anyway.... the point of this randomness stem from my latest effort of weight lost. As some of you might already know, I'm an Oprah groupie. I like how a lot of things she talks about actually makes sense. So of course I want to try the new Bob Green program.... I tried to start the last one and I stopped myself from doing it. Now I remember why. The main part of the diets he put out have to start with fixing emotional issues. The point is, if I don't fix the underlying problems in my emotional life, it doesn't matter how hard I try to lose that weight, the problems will cause me to gain all of that weight back. There are basically three questions I have to answer:
1) Why am I overweight?
2) Why do I want to lose weight?
3) Why haven't I been able to keep the weight off before?
There are some answers out there that are surface answers. More like effects then the real cause. So if you ask me why am I overweight, I can say because I eat too much. So the question turns into, why do I eat too much... so on and so forth. So I dug a little deeper and came up with a couple of things I can think of.
1) I am overweight because I'm stressed. I'm stressed about not finishing school. I'm stressed about work. I'm stressed about relationships. When I get through the day without trying to kill myself, I reward myself with food. I feel like I deserve it, and I eat. Or maybe I'm just bored and needed something to occupy me. Stuff like that. So the main thing is, I need to address those issues. First off... I'm not too stressed about school at this very moment because everything looks lined up for once. There are still a few things I need to look over... but it looks like smoother sailing from this point on. Second, I don't really care to stress myself over my job anymore. I have adopted an attitude that goes something like... well it's not really all that important on the larger scale of things, I don't really have to worry about it at all. Relationship wise... well surprisingly I'm not too concern about at the moment. When I meet him I will know. So no sweat. So yeah. I think I'm in a pretty good place right now. I know I have mentioned it hundreds of times. The state of my room is a reflection of my mental state. My room is coming together, and it's arguably the cleanest place in the entire house. So the thing is, I'm working on it. A little bit at a time.
2) I want to lose weight because I want to look good. It's not like I'm unattractive right now, but there is always room (a lot of room) to imporve. Plus I just want to feel better in general. I want more energy to get through the day. I want to feel stronger and healthier. More of a zen state. I want to make people jealous of how I look. I know I'm pretty. I just need a body to match it. I'm a competitive person in nature. The looks on top of the smarts gives me an edge.
3) Well I have in fact kept the weight I look off... off. So that's actually not an issue. All I have to do is to return to that same activity level I had to keep losing weight. No biggie.
So the plan is....
1) Eat 3 meals a day. Big breakfast, moderate lunch, small dinner, plus at least one snack a day. I started the breakfast thing. Need to figure out the others really... But I found out today a non-fat cinnamon dolce with sugar free syrup is only 90 calories.... I can totally do that... So a high fiber cereal or my eggs breakfast is good. I'm too lazy to make smoothies... all the equipment washing... ew. Put a salad in one of my meals is good, also add some fruit, if it's not too expensive I would imagine. More whole grain, etc. Just have to eat until I'm not hungry anymore. But the important part there is... I need to eat breakfast to get me going for the day. I also have to stop eating 2 hours before I sleep. I haven't read down to the reason on that yet.... I'm sure it will make sense when I do.
2) Go up on my activity level. To tell the truth I already know what I have to do. That whole running 10 miles a week and 100 crunchs a day thing is pretty much what I have to stick with. That's my next activity level. Yes I'm pretty damn lazy right now. But I found writing down all of that every day helps. I like marking things off. I love having check list with items I can check off.... writing down these activity goals makes me actually want to do thatm... lol
3) Stay hydrated.... drink water dammit! Well I have been making myself tea the last two days, on account we just got a spiffy water boiler for 17 bucks.... So I have to bust out my cool water bottles again and drink loads of water. Plus my sports drinks. I have a new pack of crystal light I should use. Not hard to do. I've done this before.... I just have to make it more of a habit this time around.
4) No alcohol for now.... I'm talking for the next 2-3 months according to the program. It'll only help. Plus I don't think I want to drink anything after my birthday (see pictures below)
5) Take Supplements. I'm already taking a daily multi that meets the requirements on what it contains. I should add an omega-3.
So yeah, that would do it for the first part. I'll have to do it for at least 4 weeks. Just get some pattern back into my life. I have a starting weight, and I won't weight myself for a month. The only gage I have is how well my clothes fits. This is probably the most doable thing in a while. So we will see.
In the mean time, I am tired. And I am happy.
The last two days I have not set foot out of the door and I didn't even notice it. I seriously staying in my room the majority of the time and it didn't bother me. I got a lot of house work done and I threw away a whole bunch of stuff. There is actually free room on my desk... *gasp*. I also cleared some more space on my book shelf so I can put the stuff for this semester in it and have some throw space (where I throw random stuff in). I even took down everything off the top of it and dusted it as well as my desk. It looks weird not covered in a dust cloud. I also found about 8 pairs of headphones on my desk. I kept two, one for good music the other for chatting. I did many loads of laundry. I even washed my sheets and duvet cover. Not only that... I managed to put the comforter back into it by myself afterward after I flipped the matress (it was getting lumpy... I sleep on one side). It feels like I'm starting with one corner of my room and progressing throughout it. So I have my office corner and sleeping quarters done, I need to work on the rest of the room. My room has become a sort of sancturary to me. I love to be in here because I am comfortable here. There are so much work left to be done. Cleaning up my mess. I was watching Oprah one day and Nate was saying how a person's home should be a reflection of who she is. They were talking about living rooms, but this is the one room in the house that is truly my own. The person should be dressed like the room. My room is simple and cluttered.... I don't know about the whole dress thing. I mean, I don't really wear purple that much... orange and brown more so lately. I do carry a whole bunch of crap in my bag when I decide to carry one. Everything is simple and eclectic. Purple walls, white bookshelf, wooden bookshelf, metal rack. On one side I have an opened up computer buried amongst paper. The other corner I have Tigger ears on top of maracas draped with a black feater boa. On the metal rack is thousands of dollars worth of dvds, cds, tv shows, computer games, on top of two boxes of cosmetic and body products. And yet on another a a shelf full of books.... dominated by classics and non-fiction. There is so much going on here. If you walk in here without knowing me, you can draw so many conclusions about me. Who am I really? I like to think of myself as being unique. When I go through the stuff in my room it's like rediscovering myself all over again. I have things in here that I don't remember acquiring. So yes, again... I am finding myself to be a more or less interesting person. I'm thinking a short documentation is needed of this. I should go take a random picture of my room every once in awhile and explain why those objects are in my room, and what it means about me.... hum... interesting.....
Anyway.... the point of this randomness stem from my latest effort of weight lost. As some of you might already know, I'm an Oprah groupie. I like how a lot of things she talks about actually makes sense. So of course I want to try the new Bob Green program.... I tried to start the last one and I stopped myself from doing it. Now I remember why. The main part of the diets he put out have to start with fixing emotional issues. The point is, if I don't fix the underlying problems in my emotional life, it doesn't matter how hard I try to lose that weight, the problems will cause me to gain all of that weight back. There are basically three questions I have to answer:
1) Why am I overweight?
2) Why do I want to lose weight?
3) Why haven't I been able to keep the weight off before?
There are some answers out there that are surface answers. More like effects then the real cause. So if you ask me why am I overweight, I can say because I eat too much. So the question turns into, why do I eat too much... so on and so forth. So I dug a little deeper and came up with a couple of things I can think of.
1) I am overweight because I'm stressed. I'm stressed about not finishing school. I'm stressed about work. I'm stressed about relationships. When I get through the day without trying to kill myself, I reward myself with food. I feel like I deserve it, and I eat. Or maybe I'm just bored and needed something to occupy me. Stuff like that. So the main thing is, I need to address those issues. First off... I'm not too stressed about school at this very moment because everything looks lined up for once. There are still a few things I need to look over... but it looks like smoother sailing from this point on. Second, I don't really care to stress myself over my job anymore. I have adopted an attitude that goes something like... well it's not really all that important on the larger scale of things, I don't really have to worry about it at all. Relationship wise... well surprisingly I'm not too concern about at the moment. When I meet him I will know. So no sweat. So yeah. I think I'm in a pretty good place right now. I know I have mentioned it hundreds of times. The state of my room is a reflection of my mental state. My room is coming together, and it's arguably the cleanest place in the entire house. So the thing is, I'm working on it. A little bit at a time.
2) I want to lose weight because I want to look good. It's not like I'm unattractive right now, but there is always room (a lot of room) to imporve. Plus I just want to feel better in general. I want more energy to get through the day. I want to feel stronger and healthier. More of a zen state. I want to make people jealous of how I look. I know I'm pretty. I just need a body to match it. I'm a competitive person in nature. The looks on top of the smarts gives me an edge.
3) Well I have in fact kept the weight I look off... off. So that's actually not an issue. All I have to do is to return to that same activity level I had to keep losing weight. No biggie.
So the plan is....
1) Eat 3 meals a day. Big breakfast, moderate lunch, small dinner, plus at least one snack a day. I started the breakfast thing. Need to figure out the others really... But I found out today a non-fat cinnamon dolce with sugar free syrup is only 90 calories.... I can totally do that... So a high fiber cereal or my eggs breakfast is good. I'm too lazy to make smoothies... all the equipment washing... ew. Put a salad in one of my meals is good, also add some fruit, if it's not too expensive I would imagine. More whole grain, etc. Just have to eat until I'm not hungry anymore. But the important part there is... I need to eat breakfast to get me going for the day. I also have to stop eating 2 hours before I sleep. I haven't read down to the reason on that yet.... I'm sure it will make sense when I do.
2) Go up on my activity level. To tell the truth I already know what I have to do. That whole running 10 miles a week and 100 crunchs a day thing is pretty much what I have to stick with. That's my next activity level. Yes I'm pretty damn lazy right now. But I found writing down all of that every day helps. I like marking things off. I love having check list with items I can check off.... writing down these activity goals makes me actually want to do thatm... lol
3) Stay hydrated.... drink water dammit! Well I have been making myself tea the last two days, on account we just got a spiffy water boiler for 17 bucks.... So I have to bust out my cool water bottles again and drink loads of water. Plus my sports drinks. I have a new pack of crystal light I should use. Not hard to do. I've done this before.... I just have to make it more of a habit this time around.
4) No alcohol for now.... I'm talking for the next 2-3 months according to the program. It'll only help. Plus I don't think I want to drink anything after my birthday (see pictures below)
5) Take Supplements. I'm already taking a daily multi that meets the requirements on what it contains. I should add an omega-3.
So yeah, that would do it for the first part. I'll have to do it for at least 4 weeks. Just get some pattern back into my life. I have a starting weight, and I won't weight myself for a month. The only gage I have is how well my clothes fits. This is probably the most doable thing in a while. So we will see.
In the mean time, I am tired. And I am happy.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Cinnamon Dolce
A tall non-fat cinnamon dolce with sugar free syrup is only 90 calories.... I can have one every day!
Birthday
For a few years my birthday didn't feel like a celebration. It was more like another year has gone by with not much to show. No matter what I do, nothing seemed attainable. So here I am turning 25, and my perspective in life changed. All of a sudden everything seem like it's on track for the first time in a very long time. And it feels good. I felt like celebrating.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
What I do after a black and tan....
Looks like I was going to bite Alexia's butt.... wtf.... I don't really remember this..... lol.... What great fun was Anna's birthday....
Monday, January 15, 2007
Best Birthday Ever!
20+ people showed up for my little gathering...
Sharks over Avalenche 3-1....
Pictures later!
Sharks over Avalenche 3-1....
Pictures later!
Friday, January 12, 2007
Say Goodbye
So here we are tonight, you and me together
The storm outside, the fire is bright
And in your eyes I see whats on my mind
Youve got me wild, turned around inside
And then desire, see, is creeping up heavy inside here
And do you feel the same way as I do now
Now lets make this an evening
Lovers for a night, lovers for tonight
Stay here with me, love, tonight
Just for an evening
When we make our passion pictures
You and me twist up as secret creatures
And well stay here
Tommorrow go back to being friends
Go back to being friends, but tonight lets be lovers, we kiss and sweat
Well turn this better thing
To the best
Of all we can offer, just a rogue kiss
Tangled tongues and lips,
See me this way
Im turning and turning for you
Girl, just tonight
Float away here with me
An evening just wait and see
But tommorrow go back to your man
Im back to my world
And were back to being friends
Wait and see me,
Tonight lets do this thing
All we are is waisting hours until the
Sun comes up its all ours
On our way here
Tommorrow go back to being friends
Go back to being friends
Tonight lets be lovers, say you will
And hear me call, soft-spooken
Whispering love
A thing or two I have to say here
Tonight lets go all the way then
Love Ill see you
Just for this evening
Lets strip down, trip out at this
One evening starts with a kiss
Run away
And tommorrow
Back to being friends
Lovers...love...lovers
Just for tonight, one night...love you
And tommorrow say goodbye
-- Dave Matthews Band
The storm outside, the fire is bright
And in your eyes I see whats on my mind
Youve got me wild, turned around inside
And then desire, see, is creeping up heavy inside here
And do you feel the same way as I do now
Now lets make this an evening
Lovers for a night, lovers for tonight
Stay here with me, love, tonight
Just for an evening
When we make our passion pictures
You and me twist up as secret creatures
And well stay here
Tommorrow go back to being friends
Go back to being friends, but tonight lets be lovers, we kiss and sweat
Well turn this better thing
To the best
Of all we can offer, just a rogue kiss
Tangled tongues and lips,
See me this way
Im turning and turning for you
Girl, just tonight
Float away here with me
An evening just wait and see
But tommorrow go back to your man
Im back to my world
And were back to being friends
Wait and see me,
Tonight lets do this thing
All we are is waisting hours until the
Sun comes up its all ours
On our way here
Tommorrow go back to being friends
Go back to being friends
Tonight lets be lovers, say you will
And hear me call, soft-spooken
Whispering love
A thing or two I have to say here
Tonight lets go all the way then
Love Ill see you
Just for this evening
Lets strip down, trip out at this
One evening starts with a kiss
Run away
And tommorrow
Back to being friends
Lovers...love...lovers
Just for tonight, one night...love you
And tommorrow say goodbye
-- Dave Matthews Band
Of Religion
I have never been a religious person, but I have always been spiritual. I can probably count the times I have prayed in one hand. I'm not against organized religion or anything like that, but I just never felt the need to share my spirituality. I don't go to church, I don't know any of the stories of the bible. I do have three roaries and a crucifix hanging in my room next to my skully halloween lights. The crucifix and one of the rosaries are from my grandmother. One from Sacre Coeur, and the other from Notre Dame. I don't like modern churches. When I stepped into Notre Dame and Sacre Coeur a sense of peace washed over me. I felt like I could just sit there for hours, admiring the architecture, reflecting about myself and the achievements of the people who walk and built these halls. It made me feel like I'm part of something bigger. Maybe that's why people go to church, to make themselves feel like they matter, in a very loose sense. I know when I hear people pray they always thank God for the opportunities given, or want God to grant them strength or something like that. I don't pray really. I think people say prayers to remind themselves of their own strength, and seek the opportunities they know was there all along. I don't know if this make sense. In my version, God is not some guy sitting up on high listening to your woes and manipulating. That actually is against the whole idea of free will. Ultimately, opportunities are created by and taken advantage by people. Everyone has the strength to do the things they desire. For a long long time I don't know what I want. I lived in the dark. I could have prayed, but I know, in the end, it's all about what I want and need to do. Right now, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It feels strange. Maybe that's what accomplishment feels like. I haven't had too many of those. I feel like it's the first time in a very long time I have elevated myself to where I should be. I'm not exactly there yet, but it looks like I've finally put myself on the right track. For now. I just need the strength to carry on.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
A small update
So I have been a little lacking in words lately. So here are a few things.
I finally got verified for registration this morning. yay me! I had been bugging/fighting admissions for what seems like forever now (a week or so). They had all my documents, and did not clear me for registration. Big suprise.... bueracrats... I called them up the other day to ask about it. I laid it out...
Me: So clearly you guys are now in posession of my final transcript because that "to do" item is off my list, so why am I not cleared yet?
Her: Oh it takes a couple of weeks.
Me: Ok, you're saying, you have all the things you need, and it takes a couple of weeks.... registration ends next tuesday and school starts in two weeks.... you see what I'm getting at? So bottom line, do you think I will make it?
Her: Hopefully... *click*
I was entirely pissed. Anyway I got up this morning and discovered that I was cleared. So yay! Picked the open classes (thankfully there were many), and tried to register. 4 of the 6 I put in there saids I don't meet requirements.... I'm like... wtf. Burn my way down to campus to talk to a very very nice advisor 10 min before they stop drop-in's. Turns out other then the fact they took so long to clear me... they also admitted me as a freshman. Yeah. They are friggin smart. She changed my status right away and I was able to get those classes. I'm happy. I calculated that I need about $2600 to pay for this semester.... registration, books, parking permit etc. *sigh* That and I'm looking to get a laptop. That's another $1500 or so I think. Yeah. I'm expensive.
So that was school. Work has been kinda bland. Nothing entirely interesting. Traffic is way lighter then the holidays obviously. I'm just not all that used to it. Of course I still have plenty to do when I'm there. Just keeping everything straight. Paperworks, actual cleaning, putting selling tools together... stuff like that. I make it a point to not do anything too spectacular, I just don't care enough to. Honestly I don't think I have really made an effort into selling anything in a little while now. I think it's a motivation thing. Well the other thing is... if I actually have enough time to do the stuff I need to do on a weekly basis then have spare time... then I might get around to do all that. But for the time being... I bury myself in paperworks. Sort of like it... It's like a little break away from people in general.
My social life is sort of bleh. I never really had one anyway at the first place. It's ok I think, I don't really mind. I get to just hang about by myself... I like having me-time.
I guess this is sort of a bit of reflection about how I am. It's my birthday this sunday. I'm going to be 25. Yeah some people thought I was way younger then that. I act that way. I had so many things I overcome in the last year or so. Mostly I had to get over myself and the hole I dug. I'm almost out of it. It feels like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I almost don't even feel like celebrating because I know I'm not there yet. I want it to be a huge party when I finally get where I'm suppose to be.
I have a bit of a shopping list I came up with today. I'm not really going to get any of those stuff until I reach some sort of savings goal. And yes I do have one, I'm actually reaching it pretty fast. Which is weird.
1) The Sony DSC-H5 camera. I can get that thing for $53 right now with my points. I want a nicer camera to take stills. After I spend those points I can finally close up that credit card to free up some of my credit. I need to cancel like 4 cards I think. I'm trying to shrink my credit on the cards front. Just to build up my score.
2) Slingbox. Probably the Pro. I can watch TV on my phone... 'nuff said.
3) A new laptop. Probably the Sony VGN-C140. It's small enough for me to tote around, and with the prospect of being on campus from 7am to 9pm on tuesdays... it's really appealing to get a new one.
4) Webcam. Just to do some video blogging and stuff.... which brings me to #5
5) A webhost. I figure it'll cost me less then $300 for two years. I just need to make the pages for it. I'm literally staring at the books to help me make it. I just have to stop being lazy and go through them.
I probably can think of more. I think when I have time next week I will clean up my blog side bar again. Maybe add a wishlist section on there for some of the stuff I mentioned above. I think that's a good thing. It's like something I can work towards.
I'm going to a Sharks game on monday. I'm very excited about it. I finally get to wear my jersey to a game. lol. I have been getting a lot more (back) into hockey lately. Out of all the sports it's the one that I'm most interested in. I'm weird like that. It's actually one of the things I like to do with my Dad... hang out and watch hockey. Yeah. We get along very well.
I got my Dad a Palm T/X over Christmas. He was pretty surprised by it. Next week I will have to look for software that can let him read Chinese on it. Else it's kind of useless for him to go online with that thing. Need to be able to read his magazine and newspapers you know.
I haven't been bowling very well. I'm consistant... like 7 and spares or bad splits. I get those fairly often. I need to adjust my game. I'll get it somehow.
I tried to workout yesterday. I have been setting myself goals. 10 miles per week and 100 crunchs per day. Accumulates. Yup. I ran 4 miles yesterday, which put a pretty good dent on the 20 miles I have posted up. Did 300 crunches out of 1000 I banked. I need to keep at it. I can feel my legs burn still. Anyway I figure if I get my cardio in, do those crunches which works for my tummy... which I already know, and eat right, then I'll look better. I need to pretty much do one thing at a time. I can always add different exercises or yoga to the mix. But I need to be consistent with those.... running and crunches.
Well anyway I think that is all I have for now. I can think of more if I want to... but I think I am tired.
I finally got verified for registration this morning. yay me! I had been bugging/fighting admissions for what seems like forever now (a week or so). They had all my documents, and did not clear me for registration. Big suprise.... bueracrats... I called them up the other day to ask about it. I laid it out...
Me: So clearly you guys are now in posession of my final transcript because that "to do" item is off my list, so why am I not cleared yet?
Her: Oh it takes a couple of weeks.
Me: Ok, you're saying, you have all the things you need, and it takes a couple of weeks.... registration ends next tuesday and school starts in two weeks.... you see what I'm getting at? So bottom line, do you think I will make it?
Her: Hopefully... *click*
I was entirely pissed. Anyway I got up this morning and discovered that I was cleared. So yay! Picked the open classes (thankfully there were many), and tried to register. 4 of the 6 I put in there saids I don't meet requirements.... I'm like... wtf. Burn my way down to campus to talk to a very very nice advisor 10 min before they stop drop-in's. Turns out other then the fact they took so long to clear me... they also admitted me as a freshman. Yeah. They are friggin smart. She changed my status right away and I was able to get those classes. I'm happy. I calculated that I need about $2600 to pay for this semester.... registration, books, parking permit etc. *sigh* That and I'm looking to get a laptop. That's another $1500 or so I think. Yeah. I'm expensive.
So that was school. Work has been kinda bland. Nothing entirely interesting. Traffic is way lighter then the holidays obviously. I'm just not all that used to it. Of course I still have plenty to do when I'm there. Just keeping everything straight. Paperworks, actual cleaning, putting selling tools together... stuff like that. I make it a point to not do anything too spectacular, I just don't care enough to. Honestly I don't think I have really made an effort into selling anything in a little while now. I think it's a motivation thing. Well the other thing is... if I actually have enough time to do the stuff I need to do on a weekly basis then have spare time... then I might get around to do all that. But for the time being... I bury myself in paperworks. Sort of like it... It's like a little break away from people in general.
My social life is sort of bleh. I never really had one anyway at the first place. It's ok I think, I don't really mind. I get to just hang about by myself... I like having me-time.
I guess this is sort of a bit of reflection about how I am. It's my birthday this sunday. I'm going to be 25. Yeah some people thought I was way younger then that. I act that way. I had so many things I overcome in the last year or so. Mostly I had to get over myself and the hole I dug. I'm almost out of it. It feels like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I almost don't even feel like celebrating because I know I'm not there yet. I want it to be a huge party when I finally get where I'm suppose to be.
I have a bit of a shopping list I came up with today. I'm not really going to get any of those stuff until I reach some sort of savings goal. And yes I do have one, I'm actually reaching it pretty fast. Which is weird.
1) The Sony DSC-H5 camera. I can get that thing for $53 right now with my points. I want a nicer camera to take stills. After I spend those points I can finally close up that credit card to free up some of my credit. I need to cancel like 4 cards I think. I'm trying to shrink my credit on the cards front. Just to build up my score.
2) Slingbox. Probably the Pro. I can watch TV on my phone... 'nuff said.
3) A new laptop. Probably the Sony VGN-C140. It's small enough for me to tote around, and with the prospect of being on campus from 7am to 9pm on tuesdays... it's really appealing to get a new one.
4) Webcam. Just to do some video blogging and stuff.... which brings me to #5
5) A webhost. I figure it'll cost me less then $300 for two years. I just need to make the pages for it. I'm literally staring at the books to help me make it. I just have to stop being lazy and go through them.
I probably can think of more. I think when I have time next week I will clean up my blog side bar again. Maybe add a wishlist section on there for some of the stuff I mentioned above. I think that's a good thing. It's like something I can work towards.
I'm going to a Sharks game on monday. I'm very excited about it. I finally get to wear my jersey to a game. lol. I have been getting a lot more (back) into hockey lately. Out of all the sports it's the one that I'm most interested in. I'm weird like that. It's actually one of the things I like to do with my Dad... hang out and watch hockey. Yeah. We get along very well.
I got my Dad a Palm T/X over Christmas. He was pretty surprised by it. Next week I will have to look for software that can let him read Chinese on it. Else it's kind of useless for him to go online with that thing. Need to be able to read his magazine and newspapers you know.
I haven't been bowling very well. I'm consistant... like 7 and spares or bad splits. I get those fairly often. I need to adjust my game. I'll get it somehow.
I tried to workout yesterday. I have been setting myself goals. 10 miles per week and 100 crunchs per day. Accumulates. Yup. I ran 4 miles yesterday, which put a pretty good dent on the 20 miles I have posted up. Did 300 crunches out of 1000 I banked. I need to keep at it. I can feel my legs burn still. Anyway I figure if I get my cardio in, do those crunches which works for my tummy... which I already know, and eat right, then I'll look better. I need to pretty much do one thing at a time. I can always add different exercises or yoga to the mix. But I need to be consistent with those.... running and crunches.
Well anyway I think that is all I have for now. I can think of more if I want to... but I think I am tired.
Tuesday, January 9, 2007
Monday, January 8, 2007
Kisses
Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect |
 Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it. You have the confidence to make the first move. And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best. Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing! |
3 Questions Personality Test
Your Personality Is |
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them! |
Get To The Chopper!
Your Daddy Is Arnold Schwarzenegger |
 What You Call Him: Dada Why You Love Him: He takes you to Disneyland |
I'm French Bitches!
Your Inner European is French! |
 Smart and sophisticated. You have the best of everything - at least, *you* think so. |
What type of Frap.... ok.....
Caffe Vanilla Frappuccino |
 Smooth and sweet, you fit in to almost any crowd. No one would suspect you of being a coffee tweaker! |
I sleep on my stomach
What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations. |
This is coming up...
Your Birthdate: January 14 |
 You work well with others. That is, you're good at getting them to do work for you. It's true that you get by on your charm. But so what? You make people happy! You're dynamic, clever, and funny. And people like to have you around. But you're so restless, they better not expect you to stay around for long. Your strength: Your superstar charisma Your weakness: Commitment means nothing to you Your power color: Fuchsia Your power symbol: Diamond Your power month: May |
What Kind Of Meat Am I?
You Are Fish |
 You have a well formed palate and a daring appetite. If it's served to you, you'll at least try it. People are pretty scared of your exotic ways. But once they get a taste of you, they're addicted! |
mmm... that's not a meat... technically... but hey... eat me!
What Kind of Soda Am I?
| You Are Dr. Pepper |
 You're very unique and funky, yet you still have a bit of traditionalism to you. People who like you think they have great taste... and they usually do. Your best soda match: Root Beer Stay away from: 7 Up |
Funny how I have a case of that in the garage...
hollow
I got up pretty early today, but didn't get much done. I just don't know what to do with myself. I am at the mercy of others. I did the couple of things I needed to do... and the bitch at admissions just zapped all the energy out of me. I think this is my version of freaking out... just go catatonic for a bit. I don't know about anything anymore. I don't know what I should be doing. I'm lost.
Friday, January 5, 2007
Thursday, January 4, 2007
Let's ZUNE!!!
I sware to god I have only seen this things sold ONCE out of my store.... lordy....
p.s. Tycho was nice enough to post the link to the Cascada song.....
Keeping busy, and stop being sick....
I've been working the last few days. Getting a bit better, keeping busy. I got around to run a whole bunch of errands yesterday, that was cool. Got around to go hang out and bowl last night, so that was pretty good too. Now if my tummy would just cooperate and stop being bleh then I'll be fine. Still checking on my status with SJSU, verify me dammit! I want to register for classes then get it over with! ggrrrr....
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
Sick of being sick....
I'm sick, and it's taking me a long time to get better. I got some of my symptoms treated, but I still feel sick. I finally caught up on some sleep that I didn't get this morning because I was sick. I wonder how long that is going to last. I need to get better soon. This sucks.
Monday, January 1, 2007
First Post!....
.... of the year....
Didn't do much today... went to Ikea for a little bit... didn't get that bed I was talking about.... realize I don't really have that much room for a four poster bed.... It was tempting though. Ended up with a side table for the dining room. That's about it. Took a long nap then went to Maggiano's for dinner. I had maybe two bites of my food. I'm going to be polishing my spaghetti and meatsauce during lunch over the week. lol. So yeah Happy New Year All!
Didn't do much today... went to Ikea for a little bit... didn't get that bed I was talking about.... realize I don't really have that much room for a four poster bed.... It was tempting though. Ended up with a side table for the dining room. That's about it. Took a long nap then went to Maggiano's for dinner. I had maybe two bites of my food. I'm going to be polishing my spaghetti and meatsauce during lunch over the week. lol. So yeah Happy New Year All!
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