So I'm back up and running... at least for the time being. My internet connection has been pretty iffy since Friday. I changed the settings a few times, tried out each part of my equipments.... Can't really figure out why it started freaking out at the first place. At this point my modem is prime suspect. We'll see.
So somebody told me just now to leave work at work.... he's right. It's just I don't have much of a life is all.
I made a bit of progress in my room. Put some dents into my mess. It's starting to look a little better. I think I'll work on it a bit more tonight... see how far I can get. Maybe if I'm lucky I can dig my way to my computer and start playing EQ again.... doubtful for tonight though.... so much to clean and throw away. I found my grad invites.... have an urge to burn them.... should have took it downstairs when my neighbor was having his bbq.
I spent a lot of time on my phone this weekend. Which is nice, because I haven't talked to this friend of mine in like forever. We've both been so busy. I miss him lots. We're going to have lunch on tuesday.... I will continue my verbal abuse then... hehe.
We got a new fridge today. I'm pretty excited about that. We'll have that delivered tomorrow, so that would be cool. Finally a fridge that has an ice maker in it.... thank goodness.... and enough room too! yay!
So yeah, I guess not much else is going on. I just felt really talkative this weekend.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Back To You
Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late
Over you
I'm never over
Over you
Something about you
It's just the way you move
The way you move me
I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit every game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away
Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette
should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do
Leave the light on,
I'll never give up on you,
Leave the light on,
For me too, for me too
Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be
-- Room For Squares -- John Mayer
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late
Over you
I'm never over
Over you
Something about you
It's just the way you move
The way you move me
I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit every game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away
Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette
should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do
Leave the light on,
I'll never give up on you,
Leave the light on,
For me too, for me too
Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be
-- Room For Squares -- John Mayer
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Hell
This stage, I'm in
A place I've never been
I'm dyin' to meet you hell
Come break the skin
I'll let you sink right in
And show you everythin'
See you in Hell
We'll gather around the fire
And I will lead the choir
Sing farewell
See you in Hell
Come break my spell
We'll drown the wishin' well
We'll find some time to kill
I'll be right there
The Buzz inside your head
The horrible electric chair
See you in Hell
We'll gather around the fire
And I will lead the choir
Sing farewell
See you in Hell
-- In Your Honor -- Foo Fighters
A place I've never been
I'm dyin' to meet you hell
Come break the skin
I'll let you sink right in
And show you everythin'
See you in Hell
We'll gather around the fire
And I will lead the choir
Sing farewell
See you in Hell
Come break my spell
We'll drown the wishin' well
We'll find some time to kill
I'll be right there
The Buzz inside your head
The horrible electric chair
See you in Hell
We'll gather around the fire
And I will lead the choir
Sing farewell
See you in Hell
-- In Your Honor -- Foo Fighters
Great....
Just looked at the new schedule and realize that both of the new guys have more hours then I do.... A sign?.... It's just annoying that I'm not full time.....
About last night
Yesterday was quite uneventful.... except for Mike's Big 18th. We didn't go on to celebrate until dinner time.... I had a lot of time to get some work done.... so I thought....
I was unconscious until 12:30.... That was a bit surprising.... I guess I have been pretty exhausted the last few days. Being all pissed off about a whole bunch of things didn't help much either. At least I got around to work out my aggression and slept it off.
Annnnnnyway.... I made food, started some cleaning, get online to get Mike his present....... and I wasn't online anymore.... hum.... puzzling.... I proceeded to spend the next 3 hours trying to figure out what was messed up on my network.... and it wasn't my end. Frigging AT&T.... Suffice to say I didn't get a real connection until just now.... about 5am. I got around the problem for like 5 minute, just enough to get the gift certificate for thinkgeek.com for the birthday boy, he'll need it.
John and I decided to go a little bit early to get things started... and did we..... Here's the visual of what happened just at the bar....
The Revolver graced us with his prescence.... he never skips the chance to have a free meal... even if it means to cash in a favor from the birthday boy... lol.
Here's a familiar look... John pissed off at something or other about work and bitching about it....
Here is my solution to everything that is wrong and dumb in my life.... a yummy irish car bomb....
Robert's first time messing with my phone.... right after I dropped the Baily's
And here I am finishing that up 5 seconds later.....
The birthday boy arrived with his lady.... fairly amused at our antics.
Here's Adrienne posing as the girl from the Grudge.... and me being..... uhhhh... drunk.
More beer and Texas Cooler were called for.....
Here ends the photo part.... It got ugly after that. Well no not really... We had dinner, had a lot of fun.... John and I were rowdy as hell. The food was excellent. I was totally craving hot wings and nachos.... yummy..... Also shared a chicken sandwich. I think we sufficiently scared the hell out of one of Mike's friend. He's a republican afterall. After the youngens left, Angel and Justin decided to show up. They had food, we had plenty of water, and Angel was nice enough to hold my hair. Made it home safe.... it was only a block away. I somehow made it back to my room and passed out with a huge headach.... Just woke up at 5 am and realize my phone is probably still in my car. Messed with my router one more time and here I am...... It was an interesting evening and I think I need to drink a whole lot less..... That is all for now ^_^
I was unconscious until 12:30.... That was a bit surprising.... I guess I have been pretty exhausted the last few days. Being all pissed off about a whole bunch of things didn't help much either. At least I got around to work out my aggression and slept it off.
Annnnnnyway.... I made food, started some cleaning, get online to get Mike his present....... and I wasn't online anymore.... hum.... puzzling.... I proceeded to spend the next 3 hours trying to figure out what was messed up on my network.... and it wasn't my end. Frigging AT&T.... Suffice to say I didn't get a real connection until just now.... about 5am. I got around the problem for like 5 minute, just enough to get the gift certificate for thinkgeek.com for the birthday boy, he'll need it.
John and I decided to go a little bit early to get things started... and did we..... Here's the visual of what happened just at the bar....
The Revolver graced us with his prescence.... he never skips the chance to have a free meal... even if it means to cash in a favor from the birthday boy... lol.
Here's a familiar look... John pissed off at something or other about work and bitching about it....
Here is my solution to everything that is wrong and dumb in my life.... a yummy irish car bomb....
Robert's first time messing with my phone.... right after I dropped the Baily's
And here I am finishing that up 5 seconds later.....
The birthday boy arrived with his lady.... fairly amused at our antics.
Here's Adrienne posing as the girl from the Grudge.... and me being..... uhhhh... drunk.
More beer and Texas Cooler were called for.....
Here ends the photo part.... It got ugly after that. Well no not really... We had dinner, had a lot of fun.... John and I were rowdy as hell. The food was excellent. I was totally craving hot wings and nachos.... yummy..... Also shared a chicken sandwich. I think we sufficiently scared the hell out of one of Mike's friend. He's a republican afterall. After the youngens left, Angel and Justin decided to show up. They had food, we had plenty of water, and Angel was nice enough to hold my hair. Made it home safe.... it was only a block away. I somehow made it back to my room and passed out with a huge headach.... Just woke up at 5 am and realize my phone is probably still in my car. Messed with my router one more time and here I am...... It was an interesting evening and I think I need to drink a whole lot less..... That is all for now ^_^
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
That would be great.....
If I can just organize my room with as much enthusiasm as when I organized the printer inks today. Seriously.... I have never seen the overstock area looking so good.... and I'm not even done with it. As the Princess said.... products don't sell itself in the warehouse. Just doing what the lady tells me to....
So for M.P.'s bday it will be BJ's on friday night.... I should call to see if I can make a reservation.... Thinking about getting him a gift certificate from thinkgeek.... he really wants that damn mug that simply say 'STFU' afterall ^_^
So for M.P.'s bday it will be BJ's on friday night.... I should call to see if I can make a reservation.... Thinking about getting him a gift certificate from thinkgeek.... he really wants that damn mug that simply say 'STFU' afterall ^_^
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Work day randoms....
Ok I got around to train a new padawan today, pretty cool. Pretty much just used him as slave labor while I did the task the Princess assigned me. We actually got a lot done. The HD section looks awesome. But in order to make that happened.... I went to the warehouse and ripped the whole computers section apart and put it back together... Yeah it's actually neat there now. Nothing on the floor. Isn't that amazing? Yeah.... Actually downstocked all the backup batteries too... which I don't think anyone ever did...
Mentioned to the Revolver how the new guy looks like my ex... he goes, man... your ex wasn't very good looking. I go, well you know me, I always pick the ones with looks that are sub-par. He looked at me for 2 seconds, finally registers, and said I'm a bastard.... We had a good laugh. I love him to death.... ^_^ I made him a badge mod before I left... now he just needs to bring me my 'ninja' badge holder... hehe
Ok there's a new show on Sci-Fi call Who Wants To Be A Superhero.... poor Stan Lee... that's all I have to say about that.... but still better then frickin Snakes On A Plane... bwah.... Which reminds me... very jealous of a co-worker that's down in ComiCon right now....
mmm.. not much else I guess.... some boy/girl drama at work... in the good way. I told the girl this. You know what you want, he just needs to figure out what in hell he wants. You know how I am, when I want something, I go for it. And if I'm very very sure of it, I usually get it.
Mentioned to the Revolver how the new guy looks like my ex... he goes, man... your ex wasn't very good looking. I go, well you know me, I always pick the ones with looks that are sub-par. He looked at me for 2 seconds, finally registers, and said I'm a bastard.... We had a good laugh. I love him to death.... ^_^ I made him a badge mod before I left... now he just needs to bring me my 'ninja' badge holder... hehe
Ok there's a new show on Sci-Fi call Who Wants To Be A Superhero.... poor Stan Lee... that's all I have to say about that.... but still better then frickin Snakes On A Plane... bwah.... Which reminds me... very jealous of a co-worker that's down in ComiCon right now....
mmm.. not much else I guess.... some boy/girl drama at work... in the good way. I told the girl this. You know what you want, he just needs to figure out what in hell he wants. You know how I am, when I want something, I go for it. And if I'm very very sure of it, I usually get it.
Babylon
Friday night I'm going nowhere
All the lights are changing green to red
Turning over TV stations
Situations running through my head
Well looking back through time
You know it's clear that I've been blind
I've been a fool
To ever open up my heart
To all that jealousy, that bitterness, that ridicule
Saturday I'm running wild
And all the lights are changing red to green
Moving through the crowd I'm pushing
Chemicals all rushing through my bloodstream
Only wish that you were here
You know I'm seeing it so clear
I've been afraid
To tell you how I really feel
Admit to some of those bad mistakes I've made
If you want it
Come and get it
Crying out loud
The love that I was
Giving you was
Never in doubt
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Babylon, Babylon
Sunday all the lights of London
Shining , Sky is fading red to blue
I'm kicking through the Autumn leaves
And wondering where it is you might be going to
Turning back for home
You know I'm feeling so alone
I can't believe
Climbing on the stair
I turn around to see you smiling there
In front of me
If you want it
Come and get it
Crying out loud
The love that I was
Giving you was
Never in doubt
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Babylon, Babylon, Babylon
-- White Ladder -- David Gray
All the lights are changing green to red
Turning over TV stations
Situations running through my head
Well looking back through time
You know it's clear that I've been blind
I've been a fool
To ever open up my heart
To all that jealousy, that bitterness, that ridicule
Saturday I'm running wild
And all the lights are changing red to green
Moving through the crowd I'm pushing
Chemicals all rushing through my bloodstream
Only wish that you were here
You know I'm seeing it so clear
I've been afraid
To tell you how I really feel
Admit to some of those bad mistakes I've made
If you want it
Come and get it
Crying out loud
The love that I was
Giving you was
Never in doubt
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Babylon, Babylon
Sunday all the lights of London
Shining , Sky is fading red to blue
I'm kicking through the Autumn leaves
And wondering where it is you might be going to
Turning back for home
You know I'm feeling so alone
I can't believe
Climbing on the stair
I turn around to see you smiling there
In front of me
If you want it
Come and get it
Crying out loud
The love that I was
Giving you was
Never in doubt
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Babylon, Babylon, Babylon
-- White Ladder -- David Gray
Chuck Norris Facts
These are the ones picked by the man himself.... I strongly encourage a visit to this site... http://www.chucknorrisfacts.com/
- When the Boogeyman goes to sleep every night, he checks his closet for Chuck Norris.
- Chuck Norris doesn't read books. He stares them down until he gets the information he wants.
- There is no theory of evolution. Just a list of creatures Chuck Norris has allowed to live.
- Outer space exists because it's afraid to be on the same planet with Chuck Norris.
- Chuck Norris does not sleep. He waits.
- Chuck Norris is currently suing NBC, claiming Law and Order are trademarked names for his left and right legs.
- Chuck Norris is the reason why Waldo is hiding.
- Chuck Norris counted to infinity - twice.
- There is no chin behind Chuck Norris’ beard. There is only another fist.
- When Chuck Norris does a pushup, he isn’t lifting himself up, he’s pushing the Earth down.
- Chuck Norris is so fast, he can run around the world and punch himself in the back of the head.
- Chuck Norris’ hand is the only hand that can beat a Royal Flush.
- There is no such thing as global warming. Chuck Norris was cold, so he turned the sun up.
- Chuck Norris can lead a horse to water AND make it drink.
- Chuck Norris doesn’t wear a watch, HE decides what time it is.
- Chuck Norris gave Mona Lisa that smile.
- Chuck Norris can slam a revolving door.
- Chuck Norris does not get frostbite. Chuck Norris bites frost
- Remember the Soviet Union? They decided to quit after watching a DeltaForce marathon on Satellite TV.
- Contrary to popular belief, America is not a democracy, it is a Chucktatorship.
Turn On's
I think I've come to a strange revelation this evening. There are things that used to appeal to me that doesn't anymore.
I got a lot done today, and I think I did all of those things because I was acting out. It started last night. I went to dinner with my buddy and had a little much to drink. He know there's been something on my mind for some time. To provoked me by questioning what the hell I would be doing if I'm not sitting at home thinking about it. I kept my mouth shut. I wouldn't know what to say to that anyway. It's true I've been sitting at home a lot lately just thinking and not doing anything else. I would just sit there for hours, staring at the tv/lappy/mirror/whatever. I had to get out, do things, prove that I'm still alive... somehow.
So back to what I was talking about.... In my last realtionship, it got to the point where I was just going through the motions. There were nothing in that relationship that I was craving anymore... if even had at all. There were things I knew that would help.... but I have found tonight that it doesn't do it for me anymore. It's strange. I'm craving the whole having to make plans, the exploration, and the butterflies in my stomach thing. It's so high school. It's like I want to do it all over again. It's been so long.
It's weird to have to try to find myself again.
I got a lot done today, and I think I did all of those things because I was acting out. It started last night. I went to dinner with my buddy and had a little much to drink. He know there's been something on my mind for some time. To provoked me by questioning what the hell I would be doing if I'm not sitting at home thinking about it. I kept my mouth shut. I wouldn't know what to say to that anyway. It's true I've been sitting at home a lot lately just thinking and not doing anything else. I would just sit there for hours, staring at the tv/lappy/mirror/whatever. I had to get out, do things, prove that I'm still alive... somehow.
So back to what I was talking about.... In my last realtionship, it got to the point where I was just going through the motions. There were nothing in that relationship that I was craving anymore... if even had at all. There were things I knew that would help.... but I have found tonight that it doesn't do it for me anymore. It's strange. I'm craving the whole having to make plans, the exploration, and the butterflies in my stomach thing. It's so high school. It's like I want to do it all over again. It's been so long.
It's weird to have to try to find myself again.
Monday, July 24, 2006
Just might have to.....
... go back to watching ER again..... they're having John Stamos as a regular this year.... mmmmmm....
p.s. I don't care that Sam Jackson is in Snakes on a Plane... it still sounds friggin retarded.... *sigh* I love the man... but COME ON!!!!..... *pops Pulp Fiction in the dvd player and grab a Royal with cheese*
p.s. I don't care that Sam Jackson is in Snakes on a Plane... it still sounds friggin retarded.... *sigh* I love the man... but COME ON!!!!..... *pops Pulp Fiction in the dvd player and grab a Royal with cheese*
Wanted:
1 Laptop:
1) reasonably small to fit into my awesome timbuk2 bag in a sleeve
2) long battery life 8 to 12 cell preferred
3) integrated bluetooth
4) stylish (subjective)
5) dedicated video memory
6) duo core
7) 1 GB+ memory... easily upgradable
optional:
- built in web cam
- whatever the hell I think up....
The HP dv2025nr came pretty close.... but not quite....
1) reasonably small to fit into my awesome timbuk2 bag in a sleeve
2) long battery life 8 to 12 cell preferred
3) integrated bluetooth
4) stylish (subjective)
5) dedicated video memory
6) duo core
7) 1 GB+ memory... easily upgradable
optional:
- built in web cam
- whatever the hell I think up....
The HP dv2025nr came pretty close.... but not quite....
Errands Day
I woke up this morning feeling like getting things done... So here I am... Mo-blogging.
I actually made breakfast/brunch for myself... Almost unheard of.... scrambled egg with mango salsa, oj, yogurt... Mmm mmm good.
First stop was for school and stuff. I sorta jumped the gun, none of the fall books are available yet... Even Aidas was closed. So now I have to tell my mom to just give me rgistration money and will do books later.
The Crystal Method's Trip Like I Do is somehow appropriate for my trek to my next destination. But before I head to the carwash I decided to take a detour to starbucks. I've only been out of the house for less then an hour and I'm already dehydrated... Imagine that....
That was probably the fastest car wash I have ever had... All clean. Just had to spray a little bit of air freshener....
Went to the store to pick up a few things.... Somebody threw away my glass container... So pissed.... Grrrrr.... Nerding it up with a couple of gaming things... I love my BBY card.... Then I went to grab lunch with my buddy.
There's a line for gas at costco... Go figure.... And it's only 2.99... Whoopie....
Managed to escape costco but not my sippy cup.... Horray for white shirts...
I then decided to nerd it up a little and paid a visit to the intel museum. Too bad I can't take pictures in there.... Because their demonstration of the concept of bandwidth is in fact a series of tubes... Lmao....
Capped off my day with a couple of miles on the treadmill.... In the afternoon heat... Yay... *plop*
I actually made breakfast/brunch for myself... Almost unheard of.... scrambled egg with mango salsa, oj, yogurt... Mmm mmm good.
First stop was for school and stuff. I sorta jumped the gun, none of the fall books are available yet... Even Aidas was closed. So now I have to tell my mom to just give me rgistration money and will do books later.
The Crystal Method's Trip Like I Do is somehow appropriate for my trek to my next destination. But before I head to the carwash I decided to take a detour to starbucks. I've only been out of the house for less then an hour and I'm already dehydrated... Imagine that....
That was probably the fastest car wash I have ever had... All clean. Just had to spray a little bit of air freshener....
Went to the store to pick up a few things.... Somebody threw away my glass container... So pissed.... Grrrrr.... Nerding it up with a couple of gaming things... I love my BBY card.... Then I went to grab lunch with my buddy.
There's a line for gas at costco... Go figure.... And it's only 2.99... Whoopie....
Managed to escape costco but not my sippy cup.... Horray for white shirts...
I then decided to nerd it up a little and paid a visit to the intel museum. Too bad I can't take pictures in there.... Because their demonstration of the concept of bandwidth is in fact a series of tubes... Lmao....
Capped off my day with a couple of miles on the treadmill.... In the afternoon heat... Yay... *plop*
consider one solution found
Found this thing just now and installed it....
http://www.junefabrics.com/index.php
Guess what, I'm posting this from my lappy via the EVDO on my phone.... talk about random huh? Now I still need that stupid chat mod.....
http://www.junefabrics.com/index.php
Guess what, I'm posting this from my lappy via the EVDO on my phone.... talk about random huh? Now I still need that stupid chat mod.....
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Melt
I woke up this morning all sore.... my whole back crackled when I moved.... that's what I get for not exercising for way too long. I should be ok tomorrow morning.... going to do it again... really early. haha..
The weather has been a bit hellish... good thing I worked for the majority of that. Stayed inside with the A/C. Love it. Except work has been a little busy. It really pisses me off when I'm working my ass off and some other people are just milling around. But I guess that's the way it goes, me being the responsible one.
Random from work.... T.B.'s favorite saying regarding customers that said they'll come back later... "that's what Jesus said...".... today I had the opportunity to tell him, "Jesus came back". Random but funny... proved him wrong about that for once. I do believe in the value of customer service. Even when our prices were a little bit more, the guy came back to me anyway. So there. ha.
Finally threw the new extended life battery in my phone, it's working out pretty well. It's giving me a few more hours of use. But of course as always I cut it pretty close. I did make use of another feature on it. The date book is proving to be pretty useful. I put my work schedule on it. It's pretty nice. Now there are two things I need to figure out. Somehow I need to make the whole texting feature into chat style... then I have to hack the phone to make it EVDO enabled via bluetooth. That would rock....
I ended up working a little late tonight and went out to dinner with my buddy instead of my parents. Needless to say I had a little too much to drink. I'm sober now. I think I'm going to just not drink for the next month or so, see what happens. I have been drinking so much more lately it's obscene. I guess there really are a lot more things on my mind. Work, school, relationships..... too much, too complicated. It sucks, but I guess I wouldn't have it any other way.
The weather has been a bit hellish... good thing I worked for the majority of that. Stayed inside with the A/C. Love it. Except work has been a little busy. It really pisses me off when I'm working my ass off and some other people are just milling around. But I guess that's the way it goes, me being the responsible one.
Random from work.... T.B.'s favorite saying regarding customers that said they'll come back later... "that's what Jesus said...".... today I had the opportunity to tell him, "Jesus came back". Random but funny... proved him wrong about that for once. I do believe in the value of customer service. Even when our prices were a little bit more, the guy came back to me anyway. So there. ha.
Finally threw the new extended life battery in my phone, it's working out pretty well. It's giving me a few more hours of use. But of course as always I cut it pretty close. I did make use of another feature on it. The date book is proving to be pretty useful. I put my work schedule on it. It's pretty nice. Now there are two things I need to figure out. Somehow I need to make the whole texting feature into chat style... then I have to hack the phone to make it EVDO enabled via bluetooth. That would rock....
I ended up working a little late tonight and went out to dinner with my buddy instead of my parents. Needless to say I had a little too much to drink. I'm sober now. I think I'm going to just not drink for the next month or so, see what happens. I have been drinking so much more lately it's obscene. I guess there really are a lot more things on my mind. Work, school, relationships..... too much, too complicated. It sucks, but I guess I wouldn't have it any other way.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
I did that?
Yup, got out of bed... went to the gym. I don't remember the last time I did that. Felt good. Went to country gourmet for brunch... got half a cheese pizza, veggie soup... pretty healthy I think. Went to trader joe's for a little bit of grocery.... going to start a bit of a diet this week. Let's see what happens.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Few different projects for the summer
1) Get (back) into the gym
2) Clean out my room of random crap and organization
3) Make that website.... then if I have the money go get a host
4) Work more and spend less (yeah right...)
... that's about it for now I think....
2) Clean out my room of random crap and organization
3) Make that website.... then if I have the money go get a host
4) Work more and spend less (yeah right...)
... that's about it for now I think....
Please Forgive Me
Please forgive me
If I act alittle strange
For I know not what I do.
Feels like lightning running through my veins
Everytime I look at you
Everytime I look at you
Help me out here
All my words are falling short
And theres so much I want to say
Want to tell you just how good it feels
When you look at me that way
When you look at me that way
Throw a stone and watch the ripples flow
Moving out across the bay
Like a stone I fall into your eyes
Deep into some mystery
Deep into that mystery
I got half a mind to scream out loud
I got half a mind to die
So I wont ever have to lose you girl
Wont ever have to say goodbye
I wont ever have to lie
Wont ever have to say goodbye
Yeah na na na na
Yeah na na na na
Please forgive me
If I act alittle strange
For I know not what I do
Its like my head is filled with lightning girl
Everytime I look at you
Everytime I look at you
Everytime I look at you
Everytime I look at you
-- White Ladder -- David Gray
If I act alittle strange
For I know not what I do.
Feels like lightning running through my veins
Everytime I look at you
Everytime I look at you
Help me out here
All my words are falling short
And theres so much I want to say
Want to tell you just how good it feels
When you look at me that way
When you look at me that way
Throw a stone and watch the ripples flow
Moving out across the bay
Like a stone I fall into your eyes
Deep into some mystery
Deep into that mystery
I got half a mind to scream out loud
I got half a mind to die
So I wont ever have to lose you girl
Wont ever have to say goodbye
I wont ever have to lie
Wont ever have to say goodbye
Yeah na na na na
Yeah na na na na
Please forgive me
If I act alittle strange
For I know not what I do
Its like my head is filled with lightning girl
Everytime I look at you
Everytime I look at you
Everytime I look at you
Everytime I look at you
-- White Ladder -- David Gray
2 am shuffle
One of the things I forgot to show from my prior post.... I got a football jersey also.... Very cute I think.
Wednesday Night, that is of course bowling night...
Thanh finally decides to get himself a ball. He was learning how to throw properly... which makes his shirt that much more ironic...
Miss Angel recovered a few photographs from New Years. You know... the time when she got totally drunk off of 1 sip of sparkling wine....
Note: Justin with no beard looks waaaay too young.... haha
I honestly don't remember what TJ said.... but our little photo op was a little blurry....
Pretty fun night in all bowling wise.
So here is the thing that's keeping me up... J. introduced me to this guy tonight. He works at the bowling alley and also the restaurant we went to for lunch today. J is trying to set us up. A little embarassing, but I guess I'm willing to take a shot if it feels right.
Wednesday Night, that is of course bowling night...
Thanh finally decides to get himself a ball. He was learning how to throw properly... which makes his shirt that much more ironic...
Miss Angel recovered a few photographs from New Years. You know... the time when she got totally drunk off of 1 sip of sparkling wine....
Note: Justin with no beard looks waaaay too young.... haha
I honestly don't remember what TJ said.... but our little photo op was a little blurry....
Pretty fun night in all bowling wise. So here is the thing that's keeping me up... J. introduced me to this guy tonight. He works at the bowling alley and also the restaurant we went to for lunch today. J is trying to set us up. A little embarassing, but I guess I'm willing to take a shot if it feels right.
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
the before....
Ok I finally got around to do it... I put my A/C in.... but not without sacrafice.... this is what my room look like right now... but I can move around and actually clean! wooo!.... ok I guess I should actually go do that... lol
so what now.....
Ok a little random...
- Got home last night not too late, finally ate food... omg that was good...
- Tried to sleep but can't really.... fan blowing on me all night... throat is starting to feel a little scratchy
- Woke up at 5 this morning to register for 3 classes that are far from full.
- Fell asleep... finally... had a couple of random dreams
- now... woke up kinda hungry... should I...
a. go to the gym
b. get washed up and go get a cold buster
c. clean my room
d. lay back down....
tough choices.... think I should do a combination of some of those...
- Got home last night not too late, finally ate food... omg that was good...
- Tried to sleep but can't really.... fan blowing on me all night... throat is starting to feel a little scratchy
- Woke up at 5 this morning to register for 3 classes that are far from full.
- Fell asleep... finally... had a couple of random dreams
- now... woke up kinda hungry... should I...
a. go to the gym
b. get washed up and go get a cold buster
c. clean my room
d. lay back down....
tough choices.... think I should do a combination of some of those...
hit me
Something happened to me yesterday. It happened so quickly I don't think I realized what was happening when that went on. It's kinda sinking in now. Hum....
Monday, July 17, 2006
Music
Just realize how outdated my song list is.... I pretty much just listens to Dave all the time now. Probably until Sept anyway.... Gotta remember to take that day off. ha. Anyway yeah I should update it sometime.
People...
A few random pictures of friends and family from my lovely new phone...
Exhibit A: TJ and Austin... Lover-ly as ever....
Exhibit B: Yes, Thanh does exist dammit! Every time I mention how he joins us for bowling... people gives me that puzzled look.... who the hell is Thanh?? So there.... I'm not making it up.
Exhibit C: When my Dad bumps his head on a door, he doesn't make a sound. Started calling him Scarface.....
Exhibit D: What's a new phone without breaking it in with a myspace picture with my Mom?
Exhibit E: One Word... Sukiyaki.... omg....
Trying to get use to this whole taking picture thing.... it's hard to remember I can actually do it ya know.... I <3 photo blogs....
Exhibit A: TJ and Austin... Lover-ly as ever....
Exhibit B: Yes, Thanh does exist dammit! Every time I mention how he joins us for bowling... people gives me that puzzled look.... who the hell is Thanh?? So there.... I'm not making it up.
Exhibit C: When my Dad bumps his head on a door, he doesn't make a sound. Started calling him Scarface.....
Exhibit D: What's a new phone without breaking it in with a myspace picture with my Mom?
Exhibit E: One Word... Sukiyaki.... omg....
Trying to get use to this whole taking picture thing.... it's hard to remember I can actually do it ya know.... I <3 photo blogs....
Acquisitions
Item #1: new glasses.... in red Burberry frames (8423 Cherry)
Item #2: Frye 12" Harness
Item #3: Authentic Thornton Jersey
Plus various other things..... you'll see them when I wear them.....
So who's broke? Pat's broke.... My massage can wait.... lol
Item #2: Frye 12" Harness
Item #3: Authentic Thornton Jersey
Plus various other things..... you'll see them when I wear them.....
So who's broke? Pat's broke.... My massage can wait.... lol
get away get away....
I was off today... still am. What did I do all day? troll myspace when I'm at home. Yeah I need to get the hell away from my lappy..... clean my room so I can put the A/C in here.... omg omg omg..... *plop*
Promiscuous
N:Am I throwing you off?
T:Nope!
N:Didn't think so...
T:How ya doin' young lady
The feeling that you gave me really drives me crazy
You dont have a player on your trunk
I was at a loss of words
First time that we spoke
N:If ya lookin' for a girl that’ll treat you right
If you lookin’ for her in the day time in the light
T:You might be the type if I play my cards right
I'll find out by the end of the night
N: You expect me to just let you hit it
But will you still respect me if you get it?
T:All I can do is try, gimme one chance
What’s the problem? I don’t see no ring on your hand
I be the first to admit it, I’m curious about you, you seem so innocent
N: You wanna get in my world, get lost in it
Boy I’m tired of running, lets walk for a minute
Chorus-
T:Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want
N: Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?
T:Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need
N: Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
You ready?
Verse-
N: Roses are red
Some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead
But you're still kinda cute
T:Hey! I can't keep my mind off you
Where you at, do you mind if I come through
N: I’m out of this world come with me to my planet
Get you on my level do you think that you can handle it?
T:They call me Thomas
last name Crown
Recognize game
I'm a lay mine's down
N: I'm a big girl I can handle myself
But if I get lonely I’ma need your help [whoah]
Pay attention to me I don't talk for my health
T:I want you on my team
N: So does everybody else.
T:Baby we can keep it on the low [low]
Let your guard down ain’t nobody gotta know [know]
If you with it girl I know a place we can go
N: What kind of girl do you take me for?
Chorus-
T:Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want
N: Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?
T:Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need
N: Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
You ready?
Verse-
T: Don't be mad, don't get mean
N: Don't get mad, don't get mean
T: Hey! Don't be mad, don't get mean
N: Don't get mad, don't be mean
T:Wait! I don't mean no harm
I can see you with my t-shirt on
N:I can see you with nothing on
feelin' on me before you bring that on
T: Bring that on
N: You know what I mean
T:Girl, I’m a freak you shouldn't say those things
N:I’m only trying to get inside of your brain
To see if you can work me the way you say
T:It's okay, it's alright
I got something that you gon' like
N:Hey is that the truth or are you talking trash
Is your game M.V.P. like Steve Nash
Chorus-
T: Promiscuous Girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And its you that I want
N: Promiscuous Boy
I'm calling your name
But you're driving me crazy
The way you're making me wait
T: Promiscuous Girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need
N: Promiscuous Boy
We're one in the same
So we don't gotta play games no more
-- Loose -- Nelly Furtado
T:Nope!
N:Didn't think so...
T:How ya doin' young lady
The feeling that you gave me really drives me crazy
You dont have a player on your trunk
I was at a loss of words
First time that we spoke
N:If ya lookin' for a girl that’ll treat you right
If you lookin’ for her in the day time in the light
T:You might be the type if I play my cards right
I'll find out by the end of the night
N: You expect me to just let you hit it
But will you still respect me if you get it?
T:All I can do is try, gimme one chance
What’s the problem? I don’t see no ring on your hand
I be the first to admit it, I’m curious about you, you seem so innocent
N: You wanna get in my world, get lost in it
Boy I’m tired of running, lets walk for a minute
Chorus-
T:Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want
N: Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?
T:Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need
N: Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
You ready?
Verse-
N: Roses are red
Some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead
But you're still kinda cute
T:Hey! I can't keep my mind off you
Where you at, do you mind if I come through
N: I’m out of this world come with me to my planet
Get you on my level do you think that you can handle it?
T:They call me Thomas
last name Crown
Recognize game
I'm a lay mine's down
N: I'm a big girl I can handle myself
But if I get lonely I’ma need your help [whoah]
Pay attention to me I don't talk for my health
T:I want you on my team
N: So does everybody else.
T:Baby we can keep it on the low [low]
Let your guard down ain’t nobody gotta know [know]
If you with it girl I know a place we can go
N: What kind of girl do you take me for?
Chorus-
T:Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want
N: Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?
T:Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need
N: Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
You ready?
Verse-
T: Don't be mad, don't get mean
N: Don't get mad, don't get mean
T: Hey! Don't be mad, don't get mean
N: Don't get mad, don't be mean
T:Wait! I don't mean no harm
I can see you with my t-shirt on
N:I can see you with nothing on
feelin' on me before you bring that on
T: Bring that on
N: You know what I mean
T:Girl, I’m a freak you shouldn't say those things
N:I’m only trying to get inside of your brain
To see if you can work me the way you say
T:It's okay, it's alright
I got something that you gon' like
N:Hey is that the truth or are you talking trash
Is your game M.V.P. like Steve Nash
Chorus-
T: Promiscuous Girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And its you that I want
N: Promiscuous Boy
I'm calling your name
But you're driving me crazy
The way you're making me wait
T: Promiscuous Girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need
N: Promiscuous Boy
We're one in the same
So we don't gotta play games no more
-- Loose -- Nelly Furtado
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Saturday, July 15, 2006
blur
Everything this week had been a blur. So much had happened and I think I'm still a bit delirious over it. Sleep is probably a good idea right about now...
Thursday, July 13, 2006
pieces of me
There are times when I want to really bare all my secrets on here. But there are things that are just too private, too hurtful to say here. I am being crushed by all these weights I keep stacking onto myself. I can't say I'm not happy where I am, there is just a price to pay. Trade offs I guess.
I'm being picky. I think. But then again I reason it out to be not. I'm way better then the offers I've been getting. I will hold out for the one I know I want to share myself with. The day will come.
I'm being picky. I think. But then again I reason it out to be not. I'm way better then the offers I've been getting. I will hold out for the one I know I want to share myself with. The day will come.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Laws of Attraction
I found myself to be hot property these days. And more confused then ever. I know I've been complaining about not having a man, not getting any, for a little while now. All of a sudden I have a couple of different prospects and I don't know how to sort it out.
Everything with me has been like a negotiation... with the people and with myself. So we'll see how things goes.
On to geeky things. I installed a program on my Q that allows me to get AIM and MSN (although msn is built in...) As if I'm not totally attatched to my spiffy new phone already, this is going to make it worse. I'm going to make a new profile on the phone for work. Only vibrates when there's a call... silent on everything else. haha. And I need to get a spare battery. This guy drains really fast. *ponders why*
Everything with me has been like a negotiation... with the people and with myself. So we'll see how things goes.
On to geeky things. I installed a program on my Q that allows me to get AIM and MSN (although msn is built in...) As if I'm not totally attatched to my spiffy new phone already, this is going to make it worse. I'm going to make a new profile on the phone for work. Only vibrates when there's a call... silent on everything else. haha. And I need to get a spare battery. This guy drains really fast. *ponders why*
offers
Strange week. I've had offers from 3 different men all within this period. I'm so confused. All of a sudden I'm desirable. Great.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Monday, July 10, 2006
Of it all
I seem to live an absurdly complicated existence. It might not seem like it on the surface, but there are just so much going on. I am often preoccupied with something. It is usually something that can me largely inconsequential. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I honestly don't know.
I hate having feeings for somebody that won't have them back. I know I am writing all this because I am pms'ing right now. But for the most part I've just been so depressed. I don't think I was ever eally lifted from my depression. Things just never really seem to go right for me.
I checked some of my grades this morning. A large weight has been lifted off my chest. I did pass those two classes that I was worrying about. I think I will go ahead and take another quarter at De Anza to just lift my gpa up a bit more. At least part of the picture has become a bit more clear there.
Emotionally and the relationship front is so screwed up you wouldn't be able to recognize it from a year ago. There are just a million thoughts going through my head right now. I can't sort it out. So many things are just totally wrong.
Thus ends my first real blog from my awesome new phone.
Sunday, July 9, 2006
I think one mother is enough
Lately this friend of mind has been acting like he's my mother. I know he's been nagging me out of good intention, but he should be the one to now that the more he nags the more likely I'm not going to listen to his advise. Seriously though, he's not te one to talk.... It's not like I don't appreciate it. I do, really. I just don't need another person I have to avoid and impress. I need a friend, not another mother.
Sometimes I just need to be alone somewhere. Not in my room, but somewhere nobody knows me and will more then likely never see me again.
Friday, July 7, 2006
the idea
This whole idea that I can blog from virtually every location I go to
really appeals to me. Of course the whole idea of blogging on a
handheld device is not a strange one to me. I am fairly used to doing
that on my pda. But this is different enough to get me really
excited. Not only can I do the composition, I can post it right away.
No more waiting for hours to get home to do the postings and do that
whole data transfer thing. I can even get feedbacks right away
because all the comments on them are automatically sent to my email. And I know what I'm doing right now is totally retarded, considering I am sitting in my bed right next to my laptop. I just have to do it once to be sure ya know?
Now I just have to remember the shift button is on the right side...
first post from my phone...
being the huge nerd that I am, I have found a way to blog off my
phone... just have to send it out through my email. that's pretty
awesome.
Strange days....
Within the past 48 hours I've had one "hey you wanna come over sometime" proposal, one "oh my plans change so I decided to join you guys", and one "close encounter". I'm guessing July is my month... haha.... oh so hard to decide.... I'm going to sleep.
btw... I swiched to Verizon... got a Q... it's friggin awesome.... muahaha.. Gonna tag the data plan on it tomorrow, and get that employee discount too. Fun fun.
btw... I swiched to Verizon... got a Q... it's friggin awesome.... muahaha.. Gonna tag the data plan on it tomorrow, and get that employee discount too. Fun fun.
Wednesday, July 5, 2006
pretty quickly....
The day passed by rather quickly.... it was actually really nice. Now for some food then off to bowling. ^_^
Tuesday, July 4, 2006
head hurts badly
1 hefeweizen, 1 guinness, 1 tan ferrari (baily's, kalua, amaretto... on the rocks), 4 shots of patron.... didn't puke.... I've never had as big of a headache in my friggin life..... yeah.... strip and sleep it is.... bleh...
Monday, July 3, 2006
feud
I just listened in on a phone call from overseas. Blood is not thicker then water. It's always about money. My extended family is so fucked up. I'm sorta glad my grand parents aren't here to see this, though I know they both left unhappy. I'm super glad I'm so far away from all that shit. Anyway.... Not my problem.
On a happier note, I've been trolling eBay the last couple of nights. I'm looking into getting an authentic Sharks jersey. I've been wanting one for a while.
On a happier note, I've been trolling eBay the last couple of nights. I'm looking into getting an authentic Sharks jersey. I've been wanting one for a while.
Saturday, July 1, 2006
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