solitude

There is one thing I love doing above all. I tell people where I am going and pretty much end up parked to the side of the road with a cup of coffee just listening to music and thinking.

I usually do this when I have a lot on my mind. I write. It's just one of those things. People have no idea where I am. Everyone assumes I'm in different places with different people. In truth I'm just sitting in my car in some random parking lot, thinking.

It's my freedom. Just dissapearing. No questions. I can be as quiet as i want and nobody would ask me what's wrong. Guess I like to internalize things.

There are times I am so confident it scares me. I know exactly what I want. Even if I know it's the unattainable, when I have my sight on it, I move right in. It's well thought out and obsessive. That's the way it has always been for me. Scary but true. It's never enough though. Once i get it i want more of it. It's a cycle that never ends. It's a hunger that can never be satisfied. I think that's my true downfall.

I'm obsessive to become the queen bee. I don't know what it is, i just do it. I have this way of disarming people. Why do i crave attention? It's almost as if I go out looking for drama in my life to make it somehow seem more interesting. I'm starting to scare myself with my unfeeling manipulation and deception. It sounds sinister doesn't it. That's the way I am. I am very good at it.

Sometimes I seem like the type that can't keep my big trap shut, but I am very selective. I have things I know about that will never be told. As people think I am an open bok, there is always another page to turn. So I write. Because my life story is so complicated I need to lay it out for myself to read. Things that are largely inconsequential ends up here. I leave the important stuff in my head. It's better that way.

I crave having a real relationship. I'm not even dating anyone right now. I miss having someone I can call in the midle of the night just talking about random things. I miss walking down the street holding hands. I miss snuggling up in a movie theater. I miss pda. Just little things. Those are the thing I miss most. You never know when would be the last time that happens. Even if you saw it a mile away. You just never know. You hold out hope. You dream. You think about what could have been.

Consistent

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I think I did pretty well bowling tonight....

Fall is here....

My Double Tall Non-Fat No-Whip PUMPKIN SPICE Latte!!! wooooo!

Oh I took yesterday off... cause I was OFF dammit! Had a Smithwicks instead of running. I only managed 2 miles today and a few sets of cruches + leg lifts before it got way too stuffy in the gym. Where did all the circulation go? Oh and old ladies lotioning is... .mmm... if I ever look like that, shoot me. Anyway, didn't want to get too sore, I'm going all out with my bowling skills tonight.... muahahahaha....

Sweaters

I have these two very cute sweaters I got from H&M last year. I will fit into them this winter.... I'm going to sleep now so I can get up bright and early in the morning to run that Smithwicks off....

Simpsons vs Star Trek

hum.... never thought of that one before....

Colbert vs. Rancor

Reminds me of my SWG days...

Fudgems

What goes well with laundry folding? Smithwicks!!!

Sometimes

Sometimes I know my life is filled with all the things I want. The things I still don't have I'm well on my way of getting. So here I am. Sitting in my room. Demotivated. There's no real explanation to it. You would think with all the things I have managed to achieved I would be happy. Well I am. For those things. What I think I'm missing in my life is somebody I can come home to. I don't have anyone particular in mind at the moment, but it seems every time I find somebody I'm interested in, he is one of the following: 1) a minor 2) taken 3) ambiguously gay.

So here I am. Thinking about how nice it would be to just sit in bed with someone. Watching some random retarded show on TV. Snuggling up to him and just drift off to sleep. I think that's the thing I missed the most. I miss the intimacy of being with someone. To think he will be there for you forever. To be able to tell him everything and have him tell you everything will turn out ok. To know the things you do that can make him loose control. To have him kiss you so tenderly and intently you just melt right into his arms. To be his comfort. To be the one thing he looks forward to at the end of the night.

So I ask myself this on a daily basis. Why can't this be mine? What is it about me that I can't find somebody like that for me. Sometimes I am so envious of people who already has that. Even people who are dating, they have the potential. Right now I have none. Is it really true that I will only feel comfortable to date somebody again after the proper relationship mourning period? (half the time the relationship lasted) I don't know if I can take another year. I want to say I'm ready. But where is that one guy that is going to sweep me off my feet?

I'm tired. I'm tired of always being the one who goes out to look for these things. Why does it have to be so hard. To have the right person to come along and just take me away. Am I all that unapproachable? Am I too picky? I honestly don't think so.

Maybe I'm just refusing to belive I will be alone for the rest of my life.

sooooooo cheesy....

It's cheesy.... but I can't stop watching Oprah, just because it's the move-in special for Katrina victims. Oh the tears.... *groan*

I should go do laundry.... my room looks like a war zone.

Holding Up

3 miles run
250 crunches
50 leg lifts

.... 9:45 am, now I have to get ready for work.... and I'm making dinner tonight.... I think my schedule today is pretty packed. Maybe I have time to get some coffee? doubtful.

all of a sudden....

9/8 is sneaking up on me..... omg this is going to be flipping awesome. Nothing but Dave on my iPod until then... *grin*

start something

2 miles run
100 crunches
20 leg lifts
5 iso

... home before 9:30 am

rest

Long day.... lack of a good description. Set up my designated driver, so I'm set for tomorrow. I should sleep soon. It's Sunday, a new week. I'm going to start my exercising in the morning. Some sort of cardio every day? Something like that would be nice. Need some determination. I've been doing good with some other stuff otherwise. Just need to start packing my schedule and keep myself busy is all. Strangely enough I'm actually looking forward to it. Nice. Good friends of mine got inked today. That actually motivates me a bit. I did decide a long time ago if I were to get into good shape... maybe another 30 lbs and trim... I'd get inked on the small of my back. Something to treat myself ya know. So yeah.... motivation. It looks cool... lol.

Just a little bit off....

I think I'm feeling a lot more lazy then before. Now I can't wait until school starts.... When I have a day off I just sit around. It gets a little boring. I do like keeping busy. I finally got around to send in my application this morning. I got all the stuff ready last night and just finalize it. Now I wait. I'm going to take 19 units in the Fall. 3 online classes and 1 on campus. I'll be able to handle it. It's no biggie. Having something to work on keeps me numb. I like that. Keep busy and not think too much about other stuff. There are still a lot of things on my mind lately.... I just don't need to think about it. If I keep busy then I don't have time to think about it. I like that.

I did a bunch of cleaning like a month ago. My room is getting cluttered again. I guess I've been kinda disturbed lately. I'm glad I got a couple of things done yesterday that I've been putting off. But I need to get more things done.

I didn't make the month. I had a beer on Wednesday night. I just felt like it. It's one of those things.... I just needed something to numb me. Actually I think I was a bit depressed afterwards too. Anyway. I didn't hold up either, so whatever. So I've only been successful on a couple of things. I just need a more structured life. When I have free time, I just waste it.

I haven't been spending money on things I don't need, which is pretty impressive. I set up a couple more accounts on Quicken.... makes me feel like I actually have some money. At least I am saving some money through deductions. I've been saving up for stock purchase, then my 401k just kicked in. Yeah, I don't get that much money each check. Which kind of sucks because I do have to pay off a bunch of stuff. *sigh* Can't afford anything right now. I just paid for more registration and application. I haven't even gotten to text books yet just because they're not even on sale yet. Which reminds me, I need to finish cleaning up my book shelves before I get books and supplies. *argh* so much to do. See how going to work is actually a way to take my mind off stuff? Creepy.

I've been emailing somebody from my past the last few days. It's funny how so much has changed in the past 5 months since we last communicated. It's just so weird, knowing how it used to be, and how it is now. I can't say I miss it, it's just so different. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just waiting for things to change. It almost been a year since I last saw him. I don't feel it anymore, but sometimes I wonder if I want to. But then I remind myself there is a reason as to why things lies the way it does now. So I'm content for now. I learn that I can do without. I'm a bit stronger then I thought. I'll live.

This past year had been strange. My view of the world is so different. My outlook in life is totally turned around. I've gone to a few bad places emotionally, but also other good ones I didn't expect to go. It's strange to reevaluate all of my values. There are things I wouldn't dream of doing before that I am doing. There are things that I used to believe to be the most important before that I no longer value. Circumstances. And the people too. They change everything. The thing about that is.... I know how my environment changes me, but how do I keep my identity? What if some people who I am dependent on now leaves my life. What would I do? How does it change me. Honestly I don't know. Maybe I should just close up a little and protect myself. My life doesn't have to be an open book where anyone who stubles upon it can write in it. I should make it read only.... lol.

Anyway.... I should get ready to go to work.

Productive?

Finally got around to update my application for state.... yeah I know. So I think I'm still missing one class... just registered for it.... now i'm looking at 3 online class and 1 on campus for the Fall. yeah 19 units.... my flipping favorite.... wooo.... But hey I finally got the guts to calculate my GPA.... Pulled it up to 2.05.... finally. friggin eh.... *sigh*

Woooo!

I'm off work! Yay! I worked 6 days straight and dealt with pretty much all the crazies... including that weird unkept guy that keeps showing up and ask random questions. I think I finally deserve a drink. Oh look... I'm bowling tonight.... excellent....

shop

Still can't afford my "oral fixation" yet. My last Cingular bill came... and the termination fee was less then I thought. So that's good. But that does set me back a little on my schedule. No biggie. I haven't been spending money the last month or so. It's pretty good. So now I have to put those two phone bills on my credit card... actually they will be on different cards. I've been doing pretty good on paying them off. Don't think I've ever gotten to the point where I get hit by interest. So that's pretty impressive at the rate I spend. Hold back I say. I need it. May spend a little more then I want this weekend though.... I'm off on Sunday, plus the dinner thing. That'll be fun.

blank

This seems like a good time to write... but I don't really have much to tell. I got back in touch with somebody from my past. Pretty significant I think. Especially because I'm able to keep it civil and not suggest any ulterior motives (of which there are none). Good talks all around... to him, to whom used to be our best bud. Changed up myspace a little. Added more "top friends"... so now I have friends from high school, college, and now. Interesting. Can't wait till Sunday. I get to drink. Time to start making a list of drinks progression....

"Blast From The Past" bowling

Wednesday night this week was particularly good. I finally got around to post the pictures now. Being sick doesn't put these things on the top of your mind ya know. Anyway, the turn out was an interesting one, both Everett and El-Ad came out.... aaahhh... good ole days. We even had a special guest, Ricky. Anyway.... For anyone who are interested, we're always bowling on Wednesday night and all are welcomed ^_^

Sick

I've been sick the last few days, still trying to recover. My dad had asked me if it were West Niles... I'm like... uh... no bites. Well I just found a bite.... a little late to have that as an explaination though right? haha... *sigh*

Stay

You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.

And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.

And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.

So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.

Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, well, this is not that;
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.

And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure. You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.

You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I missed you.

You said you caught me cause u want me and one day you'll let me go.
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."

And you say I only hear what I want to.

-- Lisa Loeb

Oral Fixation

Very tempted to order this.... but a minimum of 2X6 packs.... $30 worth it for the tins?

*correction -- $39.10 with shipping.... mmmmm... I want the tins...

Secrets and Lies!!!

So many of them! But I embrace it.... weird huh.

Finally!

Finally got my hands on my cute glasses... wooooo! Makes me want to bust out the Lisa Loeb CD and lip sync to Stay wearing those and an oversized button down dress shirt.... hum... not a bad idea... haha

Breakdown

I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
Walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roll through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame im looking through
Seems to have no concern for now
So for now

I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown

This engine screams out loud
Centipede gunna crawl westbound
So I don't even make a sound
Cause it's gunna sting me when I leave this town
All the people in the street
That i'll never get to meet
If these tracks don't bend somehow
And I got no time
That I got to get to
Where I don't need to be
So I

I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
Let me break on down

But you cant stop nothing
If you got no control
Of the thoughts in your mind
That you kept in, you know
You don't know nothing
But you don't need to know
The wisdoms in the trees
Not the glass windows
You cant stop wishing
If you don't let go
But things that you find
And you lose, and you know
You keep on rolling
Put the moment on hold
The frames too bright
So put the blinds down low

I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now

-- Jack Johnson

Contemplations

We are all rediculously connected. For example, I decided to try to leave every worry behind today to go to the beach. We are nicely situated, i got my food and block (took somebody's advise from the other day and brought my huge tube of copppertone sport), got some good music going off of a a pair of speakers coconnected to my iPod, sitting on my beach chair with a foot rest, and sipping on my tea. What do I end up doing? No, not reading the book I brought, I'm sitting here talking on the phone and blogging... Purely because I get good signal. I just find it a bit ironic is all.

I mentioned something about mini goals the other day... I feel like I should elaborate. I set one major goal this month, which is to keep dry. There are also some things I need to improve on. It's really hard to juggle so many things at the same time. So I'm going to set weekly goals which should turn into habits. Last week was easy... Take a daily multi vitamin every morning, i got hat going. I think this week is to go work out on a regulalar basis. I need to get my butt back into the gym. Starting to feel tubby again... Not good. I really should limit my intake again. I did the points system for a while... .that seemed to work. But I think I can manage my own program from now. As long as I actually keep track. It'll work.

I think I'm still looking for some sort of peace in my life. What is it about the ocean that makes somebody stand at the water's edge and stare off into the distance for half an hour? Maybe it's the way of how it is constant and changing at the same time. Or maybe it is both powerful and gentle at once. I don't have an explaination for it. I'm actually afraid of water. But I stood there. Waititng for the water to reach me. It then occurred to me that I can walk right up to it. I can make a big metaphore about life out of all of this, but I'm not going to. Make what you will of it.

I brought a book with me. I flipped through maybe 4 pages of it. For a person that used to average 3 books a week that's kind of sad. But I did come to a sort of a realization while I was staring into te waves. Reading for me is a sort of an escape. I lived a life that I wished was different. When I read, I'm isolated from the world... Nothing else mattered. So maybe I'm finally on the right path? I'm actually finding some sort of happiness in my life? Even though my life has become a whole lot more complicated then I had ever imagined, I finally started to feel alive. I'm finally started to live a life that is my own. I'm writing my own story, which seem to be more interestng to me then any stories I can get my hands on. I have issues, but I am content.

Did I mention I love the feeling of sand between my toes?

Feeling Beachy

As if my iPod knew what we were doing today, it started off with Jack Johnson. Amazingly enough, I got up early enough this morning to head up to Half Moon Bay. I don't remember when was the last time I laid about on the beach... It has to be more then a year. Beautiful weather on a Sunday when I'm off... That's almost unheard of. So happy. :-)

But of course.... as soon as we stepped out of the car we were freezing our fricking asses off.... It turned out to be pretty nice though.... Laying on the beach with Jack Johnson and Dave.... How much better can this get? hehe

Just a little bit off....

I feel totally fat today. On my way to lunch with my parents. Everyhing feels so tight. Granted I did wear my fitted Abrecrombie jeans and the new fitted denim shell bit it shouldn't be this fitted you know. So I think it's time to set mini goals.

blew

So a few days ago I was backing up in my car and noticed my windows looks sticky. Puzzled, figure the window was cracked opened a little and maybe some neighborhood kid spilled soda on my roof or something. I finally looked in my backseat today and figured it out.... A can of Full Throttle (original, not sugar free) has been sitting there on the seat since I got my car washed a few weeks ago. It exploded in the heat. Yeah. That would be why. Time to take my car in for another wash.... haha

Revamp

Did some updates on the side bar. Changed my songs list... made it a little shorter... but made more sense. That's it for now kids ^_^

lay about

I keep forgetting to grab a copy of next week's schedule and bring that home. I guess that doesn't matter as much now because I'll have to change a couple of my shifts around. I keep finding myself just laying about when I get home. I get pretty tired I guess. I really should just go work out or something, but I'm always so fatigued. I actually look a bit better today, I'm crediting that to the multi-vitamin I started to take. I think it's helping a little. Hopefully I will keep that up.

What else is going on.... oh yeah looks like I'm working 6 days in a row.... we'll see.

My room is starting to look a bit better, maybe I can make another dent tonight. I've been meaning to do it... sware... *grin*

There has been a lot on my mind lately... just random stuff, no biggie. From all of that I learned to just ask questions and learn the truth before I speak. I'll be a lot more quiet for a little while. Bad habits you know... gossip that is. So I read today that it's a self hating thing, to gossip. Perhaps it is. That's the one habit I really have to break. Ah the wonders of self improvment.

The next couple of days will be interesting. I'm working tomorrow.... 12:30 to 9 I believe, then bowling. I usually stay out way too late on wed nights.... Then I open on thursday morning. Hum.... That's gonna be interesting. Good thing I have a few RockStar and Red Bull in the fridge ready to go. I'm chugging one right now... getting myself ready for the evening. It's still early.

I made level 9 earlier on EQ... almost 10. Just too lazy to find myself a group to finish up that last mission in the training grounds. Now I have to figure out where to go next to keep leveling up. It's fun so far, even in the low level. I'm getting used to the controls. My account has been straightened out with SOE, they finally moved my expansion over... so that's all good ^_^. I just have to punch in my game card, that'll take care of my game time for the next 3 months. I like the whole idea of getting game cards now, especially because we get it for a little bit cheaper. I don't have to worry about it being charged on my credit card. Oh and that goes on my BBY card... which defaults to 90 days.... Yeah... good times...

I can barely walk right now. I get this pain in my foot once in a while, it feels like one of my tendons moved out of place and it's caught on a knuckle or something. I can usually walk it off... but it hurts. Can't really run too much before I work that out... which sucks... I want to exercise. Crunches it is.

Financially I think I'm doing ok for now. I'm juggling a couple of credit cards. I haven't really spent anything for the last few weeks. I've been bringing food to work and not buy anything I don't need. I think that's part of the whole equation of what I'm trying to do.

So this is what I'm getting at. I have been doing a lot of self destructive stuff since I came home exactly one year ago. I've been chalking it off as different life experiences. There were a few major things that happened since then. I became single for the first time for a very long time, I started actually caring to go to school and get decent grades, and I got a job I really like. One thing I'm really happy about is that I made a great new circle of friends. There are a couple of them I'm a whole lot closer to, and I'm greatful for that. I haven't had friends like that.... pretty much ever... save maybe two people I still talk to from high school. I never really connected with anybody else in college... and the one I had... we drifted. It was an interesting life experience... college... but with that done and over with... I don't really miss it.

I have lost a lot of weight, but I've become lazy. It's like I reached a bit of a goal and just gave up. It was great when I had a trainer... but I've been so demotivated since then. I get to the gym once in a while, but I almost always find an excuse out of it. I've been drinking a lot more... pushing my limits more then a few times. I've also been a lot chattier then necessary. I know my friends really influence me a whole lot, but I need to keep my own identity and set myself as an example. Yes, I should have a bit of a moral high ground somehow.

So here are some of the things I need to do:

• Eat a healthy diet
  
• Exercise regularly... with some sort of program in place + goals
  
• Drink a lot less... know my limits
  
• Silence is golden
  
• Get organized
  
• Care more about school and such
  
• Leave work at work
  

That's all for now I think.... To love myself is to care for myself. So it seems.

Last but not least... this cracked me up when I saw the commercial during the nightly Cantonese news on Ch 26....

Mini Resolution

So I made a mini resolution for this month.... no alcohol.... Yeah that was pretty smart. Not really regretting it. It really is a bit of a challenge though. In the one year that I have moved home, I have been drunk more times then I have been the whole 5 years I had been away. It's weird. But this month, I'm staying dry.

I'm making another mini resolution which starts today. Well I hope to carry this one on for a while, not just this month. There's really no way for me to post the progress on that here. That's because my resolution is no more gossip and backstab. See there are people I hang out with that behaves that way, and it rubbed off. I used to not do that... well, as much. This person really brings that out in me. So I think there are technically about 3 people that I really talk to about everything. If you get an update from me on this, then you're one of them... lol. So we'll see. I'm striving to be a lot quieter for the rest of the month.

Yes, today marks 1 year.

shut

So I guess a lot did went on the past few days, I just haven't had the mind to write about it at all. I still don't. But oh well. I actually have a working surface now, which is pretty impressive. anyway... off to EQ

Black Horse & The Cherry Tree

Well my heart knows me better than I know myself
So I'm gonna let it do all the talking.
I came across a place in the middle of nowhere
With a big black horse and a cherry tree.

I fell in fear, upon my back
He said "Don't look back, just keep on walking."
When the big black horse said, "Hey lady!"
Said, "Look this way, will you marry me?"

But I said no, no, no, no-no-no
I said no, no, you're not the one for me
No, no, no, no-no-no
I said no, no, you're not the one for me

And my heart had a problem, in the early hours,
So I stopped it dead for a beat or two.
But I cut some cord, and I shouldn't have done that,
And it won't forgive me after all these years

So I sent it to a place in the middle of nowhere
With a big black horse and a cherry tree.
Now it won't come back, cause it's oh so happy
And now I've got a hole for the world to see

But I said no, no, no, no-no-no
I said no, no, you're not the one for me
No, no, no, no-no-no
Said no, no, you're not the one for me

Said no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,
You're not the one for me
No, no, no, no, no, no
You're not the one for me

(do, do, do, do)

Well I was
Big black horse and a cherry tree
I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
Big black horse and a cherry tree
(Big black horse and a cherry tree) I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
(Big black horse and a cherry tree) I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
(Big black horse and a cherry tree) I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
No, no, no, no
(Big black horse and a cherry tree) I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
No, no, no, no
(Big black horse and a cherry tree) I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
(Big black horse and a cherry tree) I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
(Big black horse and a cherry tree) I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
I can't quite get there cause my heart's forsaken me
(Big black horse and a cherry tree) I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
(Big black horse and a cherry tree) I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me

-- Eye To The Telescope -- KT Tunstall

Rate

According to itunes I have 6207 items in my library. Maybe it's finally time for me to organize them all.... and I need to get my CDs back from John... fun times. I realize there are a whole bunch of stuff I haven't even ripped yet. This is going to be a fun project... lol.

Crazy

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably

And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably

-- St. Elsewhere -- Gnarls Barkley

I was sitting, waiting, wishing....

Well... somebody said he was gonna be on EQ tonight. mmm hum.... maybe he passed out already. Oh well. I need to make a new char, any ideas people?

Metal Gear Solid: Escape from Best Buy

sooooo have to do that...

Something different.... I crave....

I want to change my blog up a little bit, but the thing is.... I also want to go make that damn website I've been talking about. I haven't started making it yet... but at least I can get to my rig. Oh btw I've been cleaning my room.... I am actually sitting at my desk... on my lappy. Yeah I know that makes a lot of sense... but my rig generates a helluva lot of heat. Plus when I game, I keep my lappy on to chat... so yeah. Tubes overload I say. So many things to do.... sheesh.

Random news day

1) Drunken Mel
2) Doped up Landis
3) E3 dead
4) More bombings
5) y Viva Fidel!

so yeah... those stuff caught my attention....