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I have done just about nothing this whole vacation. I had a little more then a month off and I got nothing done. I feel tired. I've been so burnt out from last semester that I have been sleeping until noon nearly every day. For a month. Pretty bad excuse I think.

So here I sat for the whole month and played mindless games. I've been gold farming on WoW, waiting for my friends to catch up in level. I think one of them gave up, which is poop, because we sort of starting playing again because he wanted to. Now I'm 40 levels ahead and I feel kind of bad about it. Aside from the fact that now we have enough gold to do the things we wanted to do. Catch 22 I think.

The only thing I did that fairly constructive was to start my notebook to keep track of stuff I need to do daily. If only I actually use it. I'm sure I'll really start using it next week when school starts again. I'm totally lost when I don't have a regular routine.

My random work schedule doesn't really help me either. I don't think they're placing me in the most effective way. I really stopped caring.

Writing regularly is a good way to maintain my routine. It keeps my mind active. I need to do things to have something to write about. A lot of my writing involves planning, as if all I am doing now is passing time until the opportunity comes along to do things. Or maybe I'm just cautious. The last few days I had off I had planned to go out. Then the more I think about it, it all involved shopping. I had nothing in particularly I really need to buy and I stopped myself from going out. A friend of mine suggested maybe I should go take a drive or take a walk. I reason that gas is too expensive for me to take a drive and I had nobody to go out with. I don't like walking by myself. When I'm in the mall it's different, there are many other people. I don't really have many friends.

I had a huge list of things I could have done, but I just didn't feel like it.

I'm not trying to be depressing and all, I just want to look at this at a different angle. I'm not going to feel sad about how much time I have wasted this vacation. I can only look at it and think about how I can spend my time more wisely from now on.

I realize I am much happier when I keep focus on myself. One of the things that makes me feel accomplished is when I knock out things on my daily to do list. Those are things that are good for me. I should just do it and not procrastinate. See, more planning.

I finally got my new motherboard and cpu combo. I need to find time to build it. I'm still thinking about getting a new case. I think I might wait a little longer when I get all my parts. I already started backing up my computer. It helps a lot. At least I know when I mess it up, I have something to fall back on.

I need to lose more weight. It's been almost a month since I was last in the gym. I know I need to go. There is a wall of mirrors at the gym. The last time I left the place I watched myself walk. I've come a long way since I came home, but it's nowhere near enough. I know there's a tight and lean body somewhere in there, I just need to dig it out a little bit at a time. Just a bit of a run every day, and doing all my crunches would be enough. I'm trying to get out of the instant gratification stage. I'm seriously thinking about getting back on weight watchers again. Or something else to that effect. Funny thing is, I already know all the stuff the books and programs can teach me. I know what I can do. I just need the will to do it. There are way too many temptations here at home.

- 48oz water, dairy, supplement, fruit and/or veggie
- big breakfast: 1 egg + waffle/toast + sausage/ham/fake sausage, cereal
- mid-morning snack if needed: banana/fruit/bar
- good size lunch: preferably large salad, veggie soup + bread, sandwich
- small dinner
- light dessert: yogurt, chocolate, fat free ice cream, etc.

- 1 sun salutation
- 3+ miles on treadmill
- 100 crunches any style
- 10 leg lift/reverse crunch
- 10 lunges
- 5 push-ups

That's pretty much it actually. The whole workout shouldn't take more then 2 hours per day, travel time included. Food is a pretty big problem when I work, but I guess I can work that out somehow. See it's simple, 3 meals and 1 snack plus working out. That's all.