i haven't written in a while

I felt like I was totally out of my elements today. Figured I'll try to convey it. I feel all icky all day, maybe I should have showered in the morning. In fact, maybe I should go do that after I post. My contacts are dry. My desk is randomly messy. Not too cluttered, just random crap at various spots. It felt like a good idea to go shopping today for some odd reason. I avoided the paper source like I wanted to at first. Well ok let me rewind.

I got up, at a bowl of oatmeal, and went to school. School was more bleh as usual. I was hungry the whole time. It didn't help that my classmate next to me kept saying she was starving. I kept my mind busy with what I should have for lunch. I was trying to decide between a bratwurst at the good hot dog place, boba and some fried food, or the burger place I've been meaning to go at Santana Row. My mind was pretty much set. Custom burger really sounded good, and I could hit Paper Source for random goodies. Then I walked into the elevator with another classmate and he decided I should go to lunch with him. I'm actually not that friendly of a person. I always come up with some excuse not to do things with people. Mediocre bento box and a good conversation is hard to find. Well the good conversation that is. I had to go get a birthday present. Lord how much I love gift cards. Picked up a couple of clearance scrappy things. I got a couple of packs of Cropper Hopper page planners. I really believe in organization. Now that if I get around to do it. There's so much to do.

My horoscope tells me this today:
"You may be required to work hard for the next several weeks, but you are willing because the stakes are high. Unfortunately, you don't necessarily feel like pushing yourself today, even if there is a lot to do. You prefer to reserve your energy for later on when you might need it. Go ahead and glide through the day if you can, but don't put off your tasks for too long."

It's so true. I just don't feel like doing anything at all. It's like an out of body experience or something.

Now I have to prep for dinner.

Why can't I seem to get my head together lately?

I figured out how to take black and white pictures recently. I want to do it more.