I seem to live an absurdly complicated existence. It might not seem like it on the surface, but there are just so much going on. I am often preoccupied with something. It is usually something that can me largely inconsequential. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I honestly don't know.
I hate having feeings for somebody that won't have them back. I know I am writing all this because I am pms'ing right now. But for the most part I've just been so depressed. I don't think I was ever eally lifted from my depression. Things just never really seem to go right for me.
I checked some of my grades this morning. A large weight has been lifted off my chest. I did pass those two classes that I was worrying about. I think I will go ahead and take another quarter at De Anza to just lift my gpa up a bit more. At least part of the picture has become a bit more clear there.
Emotionally and the relationship front is so screwed up you wouldn't be able to recognize it from a year ago. There are just a million thoughts going through my head right now. I can't sort it out. So many things are just totally wrong.
Thus ends my first real blog from my awesome new phone.
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