under the stairs

Nothing really eventful happened in the last few days. Classes, homework, got a new Nano, stuff like that.

The Nano is not as ugly as I originally thought. I got a green one for those who are curious. Good thing is I didn't have to spend a dime on it. I'm a believer in replacement plans... I've abused them enough to know I've made it ahead already... lol. My only complaint right now is I don't have a right sized arm band for running. Gripping it for now it is... It's so thin I'm afraid I'm going to break the damn thing. Anyway... I'll figure it out somehow.

I got some encouragement today about my school work. I had to write a paper on Monday about how I picked my major. Dreadful topic. The writing method is direct writing. I was to free-write for half the time and spend the second half picking out the good stuff and edit it. I think it turned out pretty well. I turned 2 pages of random jotting into an one page coherent paper. I had less the 15 grammatical mistakes... which is a miracle for a handwritten piece of work I think. I find free writing so liberating. That is basically what I do here. I do very little revision here though. The best part about that in class assignment was the editing. I crossed out so many useless words. All of my ideas became so much more clear. I recognize that the majority of my writing is a verbalization of my internal dialog. It's actually interesting to read, once I get rid of all the useless words. I truly think this is one of the things that has multiple applications. I know how to clearly convey my ideas to other people through my writings with proper revisions. Doing the free writing I do here help me with my thought process too. It's just so much easier to think about things after I throw them all out on something and pick and choose the important stuff. I like it. Wait, I've been doing it here for two years... hum... Does that make me smarter?

I got another assignment back a little earlier. I think my staffing teacher loves me. She said on Monday that she wasn't done with our article summaries, and from what she could see they were awful. All we had to do was to search for an article on a set topic and write a half page summary on it. Pretty straightforward assignment I would think. I looked at the stack and the amount of comment she wrote on most of them were longer then the summaries themselves. She talked about how people should improve on what articles and be more clear on the summary if they get less the 7 or 8 out of 10. I got only a few sentences about how she knows it was a hard article to go through and it was a brilliant summary. I got a 10. ha! Really though, anyone can do well in the class if they had paid any sort of attention at all in the previous course. So that's my 2 cents on that.

I had a bit of a talk with him last night. I think I finally made myself clear. I sort of panned things out with him. I just didn't want to keep carrying on the way we have been. I wanted to start in a new direction. Go back to square one instead of skipping the first few steps and hop to the end. I really don't want it to be that way. I'm not sure if he wants to do that. He saids he agrees, but it doesn't mean that's what he wants. Keeps talking about how out of character it is for him and such. So I don't know. I'll find out eventually, but I'm not holding my breath.

So that's about it for now. I have another class in about half an hour... maybe I can nap a little before I go. I really need to get a run in today. I've been a little lazy since I broke my last nano. No excuse I know. But it's discouraging ya know...

I'm so tired...