mobile note #3

Sometimes I just want to be left alone. I don't feel like this is one of those times... but it may be best to stay away from some people to clear my head. I have 4 more weeks of school. That includes finals. I'm getting there. This is the time when I need to really concentrate, and yet I let myself to be distracted. I think I was happier a couple of weeks ago. I tried to do more then I usually do and was questioned for it. What exactly is my motivation for wanting to do something different somebody asked. I justed wanted to do something different like you all wanted me to. I don't understand why some people have to artificially create social pressure. Maybe it hakes him feel more important. It makes the whole situation repulsive. I'm already sick of it. I opened a few doors in he last couple of weeks, but now I don't even know if I want to walk through them. Fun isn't it. It's like going to high school all over again.

I found myself as part of a crowd waiting for the recycling guy to show up. it's funny how everything stops before he show up. They wait in a crowd. I have a ridiculous amount of cans and bottles this week. That is mostly due to the failure of communication. I can't trust them to get things done. Thus is life.

I was tired by the time I got home today. I was tired of things. Work is getting to the point where it's starting to wear on me. Stupid people, mainly customers, makes me not like my job. I think today was the first time I'm really looking to graduating because I can find a real job and quit this one. It's a great job while I'm in school, but I can see how it wears people down. I looked at a couple of people I know today and felt lucky. They talked about getting back in school to finish and do something else. But being in this job for so long just wore them down. I'm glad I had the luxury to have a choice.