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I need to start going to sleep earlier. This week had been a little crazy. I've been running on sugarfree rock star and red bull for a few days now. It's not too bad, but I do prefer passing out for 12 hours straight. I'll have time to do that fairly often this week, since I'm only working for 2 days. I got like an extra hour and a half, big whoop. Although I do have finals next week..... Gah.

My head isn't anywhere in particular. All I know is time is passing really fast as a whole. I'll be 24 in a little more then a month. I don't really remember my last few birthdays. Maybe I've had too much to drink. I always ended up throwing some sort of celebration for myself. I'm not going to do it anymore. I shouldn't have to try so hard to make people recognize me. I don't really care anymore. I get tired after 2 dozen years. Maybe I'll just sit home and drink until I blackout.

While on the topic, I still haven't figured out what to do for Christmas and New Years. I wonder if anyone I know is going to throw a party. I doubt it. I am always the one to suggest and organize some sort of event. It's tiring. I'll probably end up doing it anyway.

I went to have a drink with a few friends the other night. I have a habit of chewing on my thumb when i'm a little buzzed. One of them asked me if I like to do that if I'm drunk. I replied that I have an oral fixation when I'm drunk and that is a known fact. Another friend started chuckling, which drew a puzzling look from the one who asked the question. She had no clue, and so he explained.... "she has an oral fixation when she is drunk. She has to chew on something..... Or something else" He repeated that statement at least three times before she started ewing at me and hitting me on my arm. The night got a bit more interesting after that, but that's not something I'm going to write here. You'll just have to be there next time.