I am not a person for chaos, but my life has become a lot more predictable then I would like it to be. There is an order to everything I do, my whole life is scheduled. My week typically starts on Monday when I have my day off. It is not a bad start, but it turns out to be the only time in the week when I can relax a little. Tuesdays I have class from 7:30 until 8:45. That is Am to Pm. Little more then 13 hours on campus is not what I call easy. Wednesdays are my “freak out” days. I typically spend the day doing whole weeks worth of laundry and catch up on homework. I usually cap off the day with bowling. Thursdays I am back to school again. I work on Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays. Then my whole week starts all over again.
In the last few weeks I have started a few hobbies that had me spending more and more time at the local crafts store. The two things I have always considered to be domesticating activities, crocheting blankets and scrapbooks, have become my obsession. I love making huge blankets that are typically two colored king size blankets that can double as bed covers. These blankets and throws became very handy during the recent cold spell. I love photography. I have more photographs then I know what to do with. A good friend of mine suggested that I scrap. I have always been reserved about scrapping because of how much money I can potentially spend. I tried to tell myself how I can conserve and not go crazy on buying supplies. I was right all along; this is going to be one of the biggest money drainers I have ever touched. For both of these things, I don’t think I started them because I truly love doing it. I wanted to do something out of the ordinary of my life and have something to show for it.
I think I am still trying to find something I can be passionate for. Work is work. School is school. Killing time is killing time. I can’t seem to find the meaning of my life through any of those things. I feel like everything is a distraction. I have been doing things to try to make other people happy. I’m not quite sure what makes me truly happy.
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Yay, I'm stoked to read that you're really enjoying scrapbooking! Check out the peanut gallery at www.twopeasinabucket.com...good inspiration and ideas. Scrapping becomes addictive, so fast. The stereo type it gets drives me crazy, because I see it as more of an artsy thing, away of expressing yourself while preserving moments, and emotions. Sometimes it's about the pictures, sometimes it's not, it's another outlet to get your feelings out..for me at least. It's not just a hobby for the perfect, little church going housewife. Bah! Down with that stereotype, and she can take her stickers and deco scissors with her! As for the cost involved in scrapping....insane! I'm surprised we have food in our fridge! Thankful Shawn supports it. It's been a billion dollar industry the last few years, and I only see it growing. Oh and uh....online shopping is the best! ;)
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