lay about

I keep forgetting to grab a copy of next week's schedule and bring that home. I guess that doesn't matter as much now because I'll have to change a couple of my shifts around. I keep finding myself just laying about when I get home. I get pretty tired I guess. I really should just go work out or something, but I'm always so fatigued. I actually look a bit better today, I'm crediting that to the multi-vitamin I started to take. I think it's helping a little. Hopefully I will keep that up.

What else is going on.... oh yeah looks like I'm working 6 days in a row.... we'll see.

My room is starting to look a bit better, maybe I can make another dent tonight. I've been meaning to do it... sware... *grin*

There has been a lot on my mind lately... just random stuff, no biggie. From all of that I learned to just ask questions and learn the truth before I speak. I'll be a lot more quiet for a little while. Bad habits you know... gossip that is. So I read today that it's a self hating thing, to gossip. Perhaps it is. That's the one habit I really have to break. Ah the wonders of self improvment.

The next couple of days will be interesting. I'm working tomorrow.... 12:30 to 9 I believe, then bowling. I usually stay out way too late on wed nights.... Then I open on thursday morning. Hum.... That's gonna be interesting. Good thing I have a few RockStar and Red Bull in the fridge ready to go. I'm chugging one right now... getting myself ready for the evening. It's still early.

I made level 9 earlier on EQ... almost 10. Just too lazy to find myself a group to finish up that last mission in the training grounds. Now I have to figure out where to go next to keep leveling up. It's fun so far, even in the low level. I'm getting used to the controls. My account has been straightened out with SOE, they finally moved my expansion over... so that's all good ^_^. I just have to punch in my game card, that'll take care of my game time for the next 3 months. I like the whole idea of getting game cards now, especially because we get it for a little bit cheaper. I don't have to worry about it being charged on my credit card. Oh and that goes on my BBY card... which defaults to 90 days.... Yeah... good times...

I can barely walk right now. I get this pain in my foot once in a while, it feels like one of my tendons moved out of place and it's caught on a knuckle or something. I can usually walk it off... but it hurts. Can't really run too much before I work that out... which sucks... I want to exercise. Crunches it is.

Financially I think I'm doing ok for now. I'm juggling a couple of credit cards. I haven't really spent anything for the last few weeks. I've been bringing food to work and not buy anything I don't need. I think that's part of the whole equation of what I'm trying to do.

So this is what I'm getting at. I have been doing a lot of self destructive stuff since I came home exactly one year ago. I've been chalking it off as different life experiences. There were a few major things that happened since then. I became single for the first time for a very long time, I started actually caring to go to school and get decent grades, and I got a job I really like. One thing I'm really happy about is that I made a great new circle of friends. There are a couple of them I'm a whole lot closer to, and I'm greatful for that. I haven't had friends like that.... pretty much ever... save maybe two people I still talk to from high school. I never really connected with anybody else in college... and the one I had... we drifted. It was an interesting life experience... college... but with that done and over with... I don't really miss it.

I have lost a lot of weight, but I've become lazy. It's like I reached a bit of a goal and just gave up. It was great when I had a trainer... but I've been so demotivated since then. I get to the gym once in a while, but I almost always find an excuse out of it. I've been drinking a lot more... pushing my limits more then a few times. I've also been a lot chattier then necessary. I know my friends really influence me a whole lot, but I need to keep my own identity and set myself as an example. Yes, I should have a bit of a moral high ground somehow.

So here are some of the things I need to do:

• Eat a healthy diet
  
• Exercise regularly... with some sort of program in place + goals
  
• Drink a lot less... know my limits
  
• Silence is golden
  
• Get organized
  
• Care more about school and such
  
• Leave work at work
  

That's all for now I think.... To love myself is to care for myself. So it seems.

Last but not least... this cracked me up when I saw the commercial during the nightly Cantonese news on Ch 26....