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I actually had close to 8 hours of sleep in the past two nights. Although I do get really sleepy when I have too much sleep.

I finally got around to weight myself this morning. Despite my insane sugar shock this weekend, I still lost 3 pounds. I am now firmly in the 170s. I'm pretty happy about that. My trainer session got moved today to 3pm. That will give me some time to do some stuff. I think I will go get a trim today on my scraggly hair.

I have a tendancy to buy a lot of stuff when I'm frustrated. I emotionally shop. I spent my whole day out shopping with a friend. I went a little overboard on some purchases, and she's the one known as a shopaholic. I think I trumped her yesterday. I purchased several books, heat wraps for my knee, 72% dark chocolate pieces, lip venom, silvery lip gloss, a breast cancer awareness bracelet, a face chimoise, and the new bra from vickies.

I have had a lot on my mind in the last few days. It was just so hard to keep them straight. I know what I want, and I know it can never happen for a whole mess of reasons. I'll be really sad. So, tough shit. I'll just have to suck it up. I'll just have to handle this in my own way that does not blow everything off to hell. So yeah, stop thinking about it for a little while really helps. By no means I'll give up on the whole idea. I'll just get myself ready for when the time comes that this would be appropriate.