flawed

People around me are starting to piss me off a bit. Almost everyone I know, including myself, are doing something that is injurious to themselves and/or others in some way. Here are a few things I would like to say to you, try to find the one that applies:

a. Quitting your job may be a good thing for you since it was pretty crappy. I'm not disputing that. I have told you that before. I'm glad you're happier now that you are jobless. But for crying out loud just go tell your friends that you're on unemployment. You're turning into one of those guys that would get dressed in the morning, take your briefcase and sit in the park. That unemployment check is not going to buy you that many strippers. And btw, strippers? That's a pretty damn bad addiction. Go find yourself a woman, you'll be a lot happier.

b. Don't ever start something serious with somebody who appears to only want to take advantage of your kindness. I know you really want somebody right now, but I seriously think she's too stupid for you. Plus you'll never be that asshole she probably want you to be. I know I'm being mean to a level, because I'm comparing all those girls you've been talking about to myself. All I'm saying is, you can do a lot better. Maybe you can hold out another couple of years for that other one that seem a lot nicer. There's competition for you afterall ^_^

c. Even if you wait, the whole age difference thing is going to be a factor. You can't go and think that everything will work itself out. Because it's not. Everything may be cool for the time being. But what is going to happen down the line? Do you honestly think he may feel the same? All I have to say is, don't push it. If it happens, it happens.

d. The way you place yourself at a distance is not normal. The rest of us are becoming a close knit group that can enjoy one and other in any situation. It's a support system we have built and you have time and time again refused to take part. I sense that you are not happy that we had to go around you on some situations. But you've given us no choice. Had you been willing to communicate with us we would have understood the reason behind your choices. We're willing to support you any way we can, but you're just a stranger to us.

e. I'm not telling you to leave her, understand I will never do that. I do have a sense of how serious things are between you two. But you have to start putting her in her place. She needs to know how all these things she is doing is hurting you. I looked at you last night and I got really angry at her for doing this to you. I don't know what her expectations are of you, but do you know? You can't just cave into every need and want she throws at you. She is being unreasonable and inappreciative. You have the patience of a saint. If I were in your place I wouldn't have taken all that shit. So good for you. But don't do anything rash. Remember there is a reason as to why you aren't with those other two anymore. Just find a way to make her see why you're with her at the first place. If she'll peel her eyes open.

f. You have a vulture circling you and you don't know it. That one is waiting for you to get totally broken apart by your stupid reasonings and swoop in. You already know he's no good. Everybody knows that. What are you doing spending so much time with him? You told me yourself that his motives are questionable, and that's the one thing you've gotten right about him. You just watch, he'll be shot soon for the other thing he is doing that you know full well about. He's a manipulative bastard and you know it. I said I wouldn't before, but I'm going to ask you again, what in the hell do you really want? You have this guy that is willing to do just about anything for you and all you're doing is hurting him. Come on. What do you want him to do? You're constantly keeping him at a guess. Are you just trying him on for size? If you are, then you're leaving a good man to waste. All you're doing is pushing him away. I don't understand how a person can be insecure to this degree. I sware you're creating a self fullfilling prophecy. He will leave you because you're too stupid and close minded to see how much he is willing to sacrafice for you. But hey, you never listen to me anyway. I know you're going to start counting the things you are doing for him and he should appreciate it. For one, he does appreciate the things you do. For two, you don't have to do all those things for him to love you. Lastly, love is not about what people do in return of what you do. It's about doing things that you know would make him happy, and be satisfied that you've brought joy into his life. Word of the day is "selfless", go look it up. I do believe that is oppose to "selfish", which is what you are.

So there, got that off my chest....