What would you call it?

What I'm doing that is. I feel a little spun is all. If the circumstances were different would I be more aggressive? Perhaps. But maybe this is a good thing. I'm thinking this is making me a bit more rational. I actually have to think hard before I proceed with anything at all. I don't think I've ever really done that before. Maybe that's the way I need to have it be. The one time I have to force myself to not to rush into anything at all. It's rough. But I think it's worth it. I should go get stuff done.... for once...