hollow

I should feel happy and energized. It just feels like something is missing. Everything I have set out to do I have done right. But something still doesn't feel right. I can't quite put my finger on it. I just feel uneasy all the time. I've become a little obsessed about cleaning up my room. My mom even commented on how it's starting to look like a show room. I think she's right about that. It actually is starting to look more like a hotel room to me. From certain angles. I don't know. I think something is wrong with me. I feel the need to put some order into my life. More like an urge. Even if everything measurable is going right, it still feels like I'm spinning out of control. Maybe it's just inertia... but why do I feel so hollow inside?