Sunday, April 30, 2006

Pain and Acceptance

I guess there are two different levels to what I feel. I'm slowly mastering pain tolerance. It's a trade off really. To hurt a little (well to me it's a lot still) now, is better then to hurt a great deal more later. But I really do feel better. The thing is, I'm not confused any more regarding the matter. It's just the painful truth. There's no second guessing. Can somebody tell me what is it like to be in love with somebody who you know cares greatly for you and not have to worry about how badly everything will turn out?

There is one thing I slept well on last night. I let go of my inhibitions and told him how much I love him. This is the second time I have ever done it in my life. Again I got burnt. But I'm ok with that. He just needs to know. I'm not afraid anymore.

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