Hints

Dammit I hate this. I hate this whole weird space I've built for myself. Why does everything have to be so emotionally draining for me. Why can't I just tell him what I feel? I can sit there and talk about absolutly nothing with him on the phone for 45 minutes, but not anything I truly care about. This whole thing is so dumb. I told him a couple of people asked if we were dating, and he sort of laughed it off. Laughed it off in the way that saids it will never happen. Or maybe I'm just imagining things. I honestly don't know anymore. I can't put any more pressure on the whole situation. I should go sleep. He'll be in my dreams as usual.