done

I'm finally done with all the work I can do for this quarter... I hope it won't turn out to be too bad. *sigh* I hate it when I'm so uncertain about my grades. Anyway, it's 3:30 am, I need to be out of the house by 7... that's going to give me about 2.5 hours of sleep before I have to get up, provided I go pass out now. But here's the thing, I don't exactly feel like it, and I'm just a little depress.

I got a pretty vicious text tonight. I know I deserve part of it, but some of it I seriously don't. If I were to pressure him to 'hang out', he would know it. All I wanted was some actual face time to clear up the air. Now he's pissed at me because I realize he doesn't really have anything/anyone else to lash out on. So there I was, sitting there in the bowling alley, a little stunned, because he can't take a joke. It's amazing that the actual advance part doesn't get him, it was the joke part. How the hell should I know that my girl friend was in a bad mood, and when I asked her to hit him she put all her weight behind her instead of just a playful punch? I asked her to do it because he never called to tell me that in fact he wasn't going to come over after he said he was. What's wrong with wanting to see him for a bit before I fly halfway around the world? I don't have that many friends afterall. He was the only one I wasn't going to see at bowling tonight.

He doesn't realize what he had just done. I think I might be crying myself to sleep, even though he doesn't deserve my attention. That is how absurd it can get when I like somebody that much. I need to be done with him on that level. I just need to.