So...

I asked you if you want to go to a party with me tomorrow night. You said that would be cool, although it is also your friend's birthday thing. So you don't know. It's ok, I totally understand. I was bored and flipped around some of people's myspace, and I realize who's birthday it is. I don't know why I'm so jealous of your new unofficial girlfriend. I just get this jealous rage. I seriously want to punch you in the face. But I can't. It really is not my place. Why did I even ask you after you totally flaked on me the other day? I don't know. It pisses me off when I'm such a fucking door mat. Why do people always trade down from me? Makes no friggin sense. This whole relationship thing sucks ass. I'm so fed up with it.