Make like I care

I trolled myspace for a bit last night, didn't make any comments. I did find a comment on somebodys page interesting. Sucks for him, he traded down from me. He has no idea what he's missing. I don't feel mad at all, I just pity him. That is actually a really good feeling. So everything he said to me was pretty much bullshit. He really can't handle somebody who actually has some intellectual horsepower. How he ended up with somebody this trashy makes me want to laugh in his face. Stupid boys.

I had a discussion with a girlfriend last night. I think I am going to give up on the notion on a meaningful romantic relationship for a little while. Plus I still have another year to go on my proper dead relationship grieving period....(half the time the relationship lasted.... Sex and the City-ism). Anyway. The whole notion of a fuck buddy came up. For some odd reason I really don't oppose it. Obviously that's not the way I was raised. It's funny because I'm not promiscuous in any way. I think I just want to cut out the whole relationship bullshit and get right into the intimacy.

So here is my challenge, to find somebody who I think is worthy enough and is not opposed to the idea. I don't want it to be just anybody, I want it to be somebody I care about. I know it's a challenge... To try to maintain a friendship with somebody and try to be objective about the intimate part. So I think the way I ratonalized it was this: this will just be another one of the activities I do with this person. It'll be like going out for a tennis match or something, just another thing to do.

I feel so much like a Samantha right now... Lol... Yeah well, not like anything like that would ever happen, just another fantasy running wild I suppose... Haha... Man I need a life.