It's been 4 long years. It's strange to find myself to be committed for so long. I find distance and monotony a difficult thing on one side, but somehow very liberating at the same time.
I've been told recently that change is a dangerous thing. But what he doesn't know is, I want to change back to the way I was long ago. The old me was able to just let go of all my inhibitions and be who I am. I need my identity back. The only thing is, I need people like him to help me build it back from the ground up.
My interactive substance abuse problem has crept back up. Not too good, but I think I have a good handle on it. I have my priorities. As long as I have this, I wouldn't have half the mind to obsess about other things that are even less healthy.
Speaking of obsession, it was lifted from me for literally 2 seconds, then I was quickly reminded of how it was started at the first place. All I can say is, relax, just be yourself, and treat that particular case just the same as anything else. Maybe I'll get lucky.
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