running

I don't think I am particularly partial to running just because of its benefits. In fact, there is a wide array of sport activities I can do to gain the same effects. I like to run because it gives me an hour everyday to just be with myself. The one chance where I can truly tune out the world and just be left alone. I haven't had anything profound produced from those sessions yet, but it is where it would happen if it ever does. There is something fairly liberating about it.

I don't think anyone really understand why I try to push myself so hard. Ever since I came back I have set a few non-negotiables for myself. I make my bed every morning, I keep my desk as cleared as possible, I have to loose weight every week, I have to go to every single class, I will never miss work, I will finally make new friends, I will write more substantial materials, and I will push myself a little further every time I step on a treadmill. These are the bare minimal of things I need to do to just get myself going. There are no way to makeup for all my misgivings. There are just ways to make the best out of what I still have left.